Suicide is a forever solution. __________________________________________________
Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain. ___________________________________________________
It's not because one is a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, that one feels suicidal. It doesn’t mean really wanting to die - it only means having more pain than one can cope with. Willpower has nothing to do with it. __________________________________________________
When pain exceeds pain-coping resources, suicidal feelings are the result. Suicide is neither wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. __________________________________________________
Don't try to deal with this alone.
If you are in the U.S.,
Call 1-800-SUICIDE.
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Si vous êtes en France,pour trouver quelqu'un a qui parler, voici quelques numéros d'écoute :
Suicide Ecoute
01 45 39 40 00
Sos Suicide Phénix
01 40 44 46 45
Music
La musique ici vient du lecteur de mp3 de mon fils que la gendarmerie m'a rendu, avec quelques chansons qui expriment ce que je ressens en ce moment.
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The music here comes from Patrick's mp3 player that the police returned to me, along with some songs that go with what i am feeling these days.
Khag le gnome,
dans la Fun Team,
World of Warcraft.
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Une guilde avec des belges qui aiment bien les français et que c'est quasiment réciproque sur Medivh. Pis y'a des suisses et des corses et des guyanais aussi. Pis y'a des casters mâles qui portent des robes rose. Et puis il y avait Khag
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Khag was Patrick's character in the game, the guild honours him by putting this quote on all of the Fun Team pages.
Ann is wondering if myspace is ever going to put playlists back for international myspacers or if she should leave????? Posted at 8:06 PM Aug 12 view more
About me: I am Patrick's mom. He took his life on July 26 2006 at the age of 28.
He was a good guy, a wonderful son, a friend to many.
Many people miss him and wonder : why? Patrick didn't want to die, he just didn't want to live any more.______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
My life ended the day my son jumped, I have become another person, who is trying to survive. To survive the never-ending pain, the loneliness. My Pat, I miss you as soon as I wake up until I go to sleep. Hasta la vista, baby.
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I also have a wonderful daughter who is my rock and my reason for going on. She is my youngest child and her strength gives me strength. She and I grieve together the death of Patrick.
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Je suis la mère de Patrick. Il a mis fin à sa vie le 26 juillet 2006 à l'âge de 28 ans.
C'était un homme bien, un fils formidable et un copain pour beaucoup de gens. Il manque à beaucoup de personnes, qui se posent la question : pourquoi? Patrick ne voulait pas mourir, il ne voulait plus vivre._____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Ma vie s'est terminée le jour où mon fils a sauté, je suis devenue une autre personne qui essaie de survivre. Survivre à la douleur toujours présente et à la solitude. Mon Pat, tu me manques dès que j'ouvre les yeux le matin jusqu'à ce que je m'endorme. Hasta la vista, baby.
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J'ai aussi une fille merveilleuse qui est est ma source de courage et ma raison de vivre. C'est mon enfant la plus jeune et sa force me donne de la force. Ensemble nous pleurons la mort de Patrick.
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Out of the Darkness Community Walk, Houston Texas, November 7, 2009.
UPDATE: So far I have collected 60% of my goal of $300.00 for the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.
Please see my link above and donate if you wish but at least look at it -- read my little description of what it was like to participate last year and the year before.
I think we need to speak and holler out and howl in public about suicide and depression and this foundation is organized enough to be one way of doing this in an effective way.
Today I registered to walk in the Out of the Darkness Community Walk in Houston, Texas. It will be on November 7, 2009. It will be my third time to walk.
Hi Ann, I Hope yesterday passed as gently as it could for you...you and Patrick are always in my heart and on my mind...My Heart goes out to you!! I don't get on-line much anymore so I'm glad I got to come on today. Oh yeah, and by the way, Happy be-lated birthday....I miss talking to you... Take care, Love, Mary E
Happy birthday, dear Ann! I know this is a special one ... where do the years go?! It has always been an honor to have you as a sister. And congratulations on the birth of your beautiful little grand-daughter, Lucie! Yes, Patrick would have loved to have been able to live to see both of these days. I hope your day is good. With love from lil sis
Je continue à penser contamment à toi, tu me manques, la douleur que tu as vécu tout seul me terrorise, j'essaie toujours de comprendre. Mais je sais que à ce moment-là tu n'avais pas d'autres solutions. Oh mon fils. Love you forever no matter what.
The day of Patrick's funeral in Paris, James, Betsey, Nicolas and I planted an olive tree for Patrick in James's backyard in Salem, Oregon. James had bought the tree. We each placed little round stones around the base of the tree. Last weekend I was in Oregon at James's -- the little tree has grown and it has buds and lovely silvery leaves. Love you all. Beth
Thinking of you all Don't have anything to say Just sending tenderness & strength Reminder to deep breathe And wanting to touch you On your return to Paris I will order flowers for the cemetery For the dragon tomb It is springtime again
Sending lots of love your way thank you for being my friend..;)
COURT ORDER!!!
you are accused of.....crawling into my heart...
And hijacking my smiles... With your sweetness...
HOW DO YOU PLEAD.....
GUILTY!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
YOU are sentenced...
TO BE MY FRIEND FOR LIFE!!!!!!
NO BAIL......:)
send this to all your friend's...Including ME!!!
IF YOU GET 10 BACK.....!!!!
YOUR FRIENDSHIP IS WORTH KEEPING
It's good to be back!! How are you doing Ann? You are always in my thoughts. My life has been so busy and hard lately. Health problems, problems with my twin girls, LIFE It is such a rough road sometimes, but I am so happy to hear from you. Take care and I hope to hear from you again soon. How's France?? I wish I could come and visit there again. The last time I was there I was 15 years old...wow long long time :o)
2009 - a year farther away from my son and his life. It feels like yesterday that I got that terrible phone call. And I still expect him to text me or to walk in the door.
love you Pat your crazy mom
2009 - un an de plus qui m'éloigne de mon fils et sa vie. Ce coup de fil dévastateur c'est comme si je l'avais reçu hier. Je m'attends toujours à recevoir un SMS de lui ou de le voir entrer par la porte.
