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It was a long and gloomy night that gathered on me,
haunted by the ghosts of many hopes, of many dear remembrances, many errors, many unavailing sorrows and regrets.- Dickens, David Copperfield

All the facts, you need to know! All the facts you shouldnt need to know!
Two souls, alas! reside within my breast-Im a lovely geek who is in love with the strange and beautiful. So many lovely things captured my heart all through the years and became real good friends.

You may heard of me as the worlds most infamous fortune teller- and maybe you have already thrown addled eggs in my direction on your local renaissance fair... but hey, Hecate herself has made a lot of mistakes in her past, too, and we all know that she the greatest witch of all now these days, so hold your breath, fairy boy! ;)

The sad truth:

I have studied History of Arts, Cultural History and Comparative Religion at the University of Jena. And because being an Arthistorian is a good way to starve for a living, I..ve decided to become a Bookseller afterwards and I proudly have to say that it..s the best job in the whole universe. Even if it..s not something one does for the money (the salary is awful and the ugly pink-and-baby-blue Cecelia Ahern covers are haunting your dreams every night), Im feeling damn happy with it.
I love good books (does not include any of the baby blue, pink or lilac ones), movies, music and art in general and collect a lot of useless information about famous (or not so famous) dead persons. If you like to drink a glass of red vine and talk about Alexander Scriabins "Mysterium" or the last days in the life of Lola Montez with me, well, that would be awesome. ;) And I absolutely *hate* TV and girl magazines. Really. I know it is a perfect, snobbish bookseller cliche, but..I..m serious: it really makes me SICK.

Ive got a faible for bearded women, mysterious bustle-dressed courtesans,depressed artists, fine Gentlemen with razorblades and Mike, the headless chicken. If any of these decriptions fit to you, do NOT take this for an invitation, I just love to look at you from a distance...except for the depressed artists, maybe: We could have amazing Prozac parties together. But don..t you dare touch one of my ears! ,)

I..m collecting antiques, mostly curiosities, clothing, books or religious kitsch. I adore taxidermy, bones, tarot cards, bibles, teapots, dolls and daguerreotypes. The fave thing I own is a 1860s portrait of Saint Mary, which is supposed to be haunted. People might say, my hobbies are a bit offbeat- but I would call it interesting.

When I was 14 years old, I started my very own first punk band. We were young, we were ambitious, we were disatrous. But we had dyed green hair and some cheap guitars. We even had a Kurt Cobain shrine in our rehearsal room! We split up after 2 months. After my experience with "The Horny Grandmas" (that was what we used to call ourselves), I played bass in a shitty Riot Grrrl band (which split up after 5 months) and did the vocs for a third class Goth band, which split up after one year and a half, because the world wasn..t yet ready for our seductive blackness (but we celebrated our last gig at a Church Festival like there was no tomorrow, I swear!)

Artistical failures, whereever you look.

I even sorta failed becoming a professional actress. After years of awful roles (The Orator in Ionesco..s The Chairs was quite an experience ;)) and miserable musicals (but I once played Magenta in the Rocky Horror Show! That was awesome!) I had only two opinions: to become a burlesque dancer or to try something else.. In 2001 the German synthpop band Kontrast engaged me as their personal female singer. And I..m still touring with them. Anyway: Touring with them is always damn funny and after 7 years I have quite a bunch of amazing stories to tell my grandchildren one day. ^^ Today I prefer to play Cittern....;)
I also craft a lot of things by myself. Mostly Victorian and Steampunk stuff. So do not count me. I engineer. ;)

And here are some very useless details about my life:
- I would love to name my children Vincent or Charlotte or Nepomuk or Mildred
- When I was about 4 years old, I had a crush on Disney..s Robin Hood and Basil, the great Mouse Detective and Schmendrick, the Magician.
- I believe in fairies. (And I caught one on handycam! :))
- that is why I also believe in the power of Absinthe. - I dislike people who do not ;)
- I..m afraid of whales (except orcas)
- Tea, coffee, cake and cookies will be my ruin one day
- My Zodiac is Gemini, my ascendant is Scorpio
- My fave number is 4. The most interesting, scary or wonderful things happened to me on dates with 4, I was even born on a 4th in a year with a four
- In my free time, I write eerie stories for children
- Im currently writing on a book with the working title "The Realms of Violet Hills"
- Ive got 3 cats: Viola ,Maynard and Trent
- Im still scared of all those silly Monty Python animation scenes *and* the Yellow Submarine movie
- I cant fell asleep without reading or listening to an audio book, wearing a sleepmask or drinking tea.
- I believe in fate
- My fave word is "biscuit"
- When I was a child, I wanted to be a circus tamer, a cartoonist or a singer
- "One Hand in my Pocket" by Alanis Morrisette is the song which describes me best

Future plans:
-speak Spanish fluently; learn Tango, learn to cook proper Jewish and Creole Food; learn about Ouiltmaking, visit a palm leaf libary; celebrate Día de los Muertos in Mexico; finish the book, Im working on; sew my own wedding-dress :)

Travel a lot: New England States & Louisiana/ USA (I..m planning this journey for over two years now -_-); Mexico & Spain (to learn more about my mother and myself); Peru; Ireland (again! :)), Lourdes & Saintes Maries de la Mer (for obeisance and self-discovery), Austria and India.

"It’s funny but on good days I don’t think of her so much.

In fact never. I never just say hi when the sun is on my tongue and my belly’s all warm. On bad days I talk to Death constantly, not about suicide because honestly that’s not dramatic enough. Most of us love the stage, and suicide is definitely your last performance, and, being addicted to the stage, suicide was never an option.

So we talk.

She says things no one else seems to come up with, like let’s have a hot dog, and then it’s like nothing’s impossible.

She says if you allow yourself to feel the way you really feel, maybe you won’t be afraid of that feeling anymore.

When you’re on your knees you’re closer to the ground. Things seem nearer somehow.
- Tori Amos, Introduction to Neil Gaiman..s Death: The High Cost of Living

Houellebecq - Dernier Temps
Il y aura des journées et des temps difficiles
Et des nuits de souffrance qui semblent insurmountables
Où l’on pleure bêtement les deux bras sur la table
Où la vie suspendue ne tient plus qu’à un fil;
Mon amour je te sens qui marche dans la ville.
Il y aura des letters écrites et déchirées
Des occasions perdues des amis fatigues
Des voyages inutiles des déplacements vides
Des heures sans bouger sous un soleil torride,
Il y aura la peur qui me suit sans parler
Qui s’approche de moi, qui me regarde en face
Et son sourire est beau, son pas lent et tenace
Elle a le souvenir dans ses yeux de crystal,
Elle a mon avenir dans ses mains de metal
Elle descend sur le monde comme un halo de glace.
Il y aura la mort tu le sais mon amour
Il y aura le malheur et les tout derniers jours
On n’oublie jamais rien, les mots et les visages
Flottent joyeusement jusqu’au dernier rivage
Il y aura le regret, puis un sommeil très lourd.

Houellebecq - Letzte Zeiten
Es wird schwierige Tage und Zeiten geben
Und Nächte voll Leiden, die nicht überstehbar scheinen
In denen man blöde flennt, beide Arme auf dem Tisch
In denen das Leben nur noch an einem Fädchen hängt;
Mein Liebe, ich spüre, wie du durch die Stadt gehst.
Es wird Briefe geben, geschrieben und wieder zerrissen
Vertane Gelegenheiten und Freunde, die müde sind
Zwecklose Reisen und sinnentleertes Hin und Her
Stunden, reglos unter der glühenden Sonne,
Es wird die Angst geben, die mich wortlos verfolgt
Die mir näher rückt, mir ins Gesicht schaut
Und ihr Lächeln ist schön, ihr Schritt langsam und
beharrlich
Sie trägt die Erinnerung in ihren kristallenen Augen,
Sie trägt meine Zukunft in ihren metallenen Händen
Sie steigt auf die Welt hernieder wie ein Halo aus Eis.
Es wird den Tod geben das weißt du meine Liebe
Es wird das Unglück geben und die allerletzten Tage
Man vergißt nie irgendwas, die Worte und Gesichter
Treiben fröhlich bis ans letzte Gestade
Es wird das Bedauern geben, dann einen Schlaf so schwer.

My wonderful Fiance. And me. Obviously. (He likes roly-polies..That..s why we are going to marry...this Victoria thing...it..s nothing serious, she..s a douche. Can...Can I say that...that word..here? Douche?

Don..t you mess with us! The Crew of the Rolly Roger.
Thunder, thunder, plush and plunder :D

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