Rob Dougan, Daryl Scairiot, Rasputina, KMFDM, Zeromancer, Project Pitchfork, Billy Holiday, Miles Davis, nine inch nails, Heather Nova, Barry Adamson, Apocalyptica, Brother Ali, Guano Apes, Disturbed, Megadeth, Tom Waits, Leonard Cohen, Maurice Ravel, Fryderyk Chopin, POS, Raveonettes, Nick Cave, Kamelot, Porcupine Tree, Cusco
Movies
Zero Effect, Rosencrantz & Guildenstern are Dead, Nightbreed, Fight Club, The Ring, Session 9, The Shining, Wanted, Hellraiser, Office Space, Bender's Big Score, Run Lola Run, Quarantine, True Romance, League Of Extraordinary Gentlemen, The Mummy Returns, Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow, The Shadow, Dead Alive, Army of Darkness, Vampire Hunter D, Soldier, The Faculty, From Dusk Till Dawn, The Thing, Aliens, Akira, Demon Knight, Event Horizon, In the Mouth of Madness, Prince of Darkness, Tombstone, Dead Man, Crank, Blair Witch Project, Deaths of Ian Stone, Big Trouble in Little China, V for Vendetta, American Beauty, Magnolia, Cigarette Burns, Attic Expeditions, Cube, Nightbreed, Constantine, Lord of Illusions
Television
Mythbusters, Penn & Teller: Bullshit!, The Awful Truth, Strange Days on Planet Earth, Cities of the Underworld, House, Farscape, Odyssey 5, Carnivale, Futurama, Invader ZIM, South Park, The Collector, Adventures of Brisco County Jr, Sealab 2021, Harvey Birdman: Attorney at Law, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Read or Die, Rescue Me, The Shield, American Gothic, The Twilight Zone, Venture Brothers, Flight of the Conchords, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Dragon Ball Z, Scrubs, NOVA
Books
Book of Longing, Creatures of Light and Darkness, Beyond Good and Evil, House of Leaves, Radix, Dark Rivers of the Heart, Last Chance to See, Snow Crash, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Kingdom Come, The Eight, Khai of Khem, Paradise Lost, Slapstick, Faust, A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur's Court, Ringworld, The Ophiuchi Hotline, Diary: A Novel, And the Ass Saw the Angel, V for Vendetta, Macroscope, Goblin Market, Malleus Maleficarum, Fury, The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, Jurassic Park, Nemesis, Frankenstein: The Modern Prometheus, Marvels, 3001: The Final Odyssey, At the Mountains of Madness, Deus Irae, Dracula, Another Fine Myth, The Crow, Idoru, Neverwhere, Justice, The Regulators, many many others
Heroes
"Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great."
-- Clemens
Nate's Details
Status:
Single
Orientation:
Straight
Hometown:
Golgotha, New Mexico
Body type:
5' 5" / Some extra baggage
Ethnicity:
Other
Religion:
Other
Zodiac Sign:
Pisces
Smoke / Drink:
No / No
Education:
In college
Occupation:
Records Gremlin
Nate's Schools
New Mexico State University-Main Campus
Las Cruces, NM
Graduated: N/A
Degree: Bachelor's Degree
Major: Sociology, Anthropology, Government, Linguistics
Minor: History, Psychology, Religious Studies, Library Science
Clubs: University Museum
Current Courses:
I'm blinded by your light. I'm cowed by your darkness. I'm impressed by your volume and intimidated by your gaze.
I fit into a crowd. I worry about social situations. I never snigger inappropriately and I always defer to my betters.
I am left breathless by beauty. I am automatically swept away by uniqueness. I can have tremendous faith in people based simply upon who they are, regardless of their actions.
I know my limitations. I respect your boundaries. I know what to expect from people and I'm never disappointed when someone makes the safe, reasonable choice.
I'm kind. I'm patient. I never overreact and I always consider that the viewpoints of others are as valid as my own.
Oh. And everything you just read?
Lies.
There are some people you know -- except you don't know you know them. Or maybe "people" isn't the right word. Regardless, they're there. We're there. Here. We're here because... Well, because we're not allowed to be anywhere else. We look like you and we sound like you, after a fashion, but there the similarities stop. It's a poor disguise, but it doesn't matter. If it looks like an ape and it sounds like an ape, there isn't a member of your species alive who will ever ultimately and rationally accept it to be anything other than an ape.
We look like you and we sound like you, to a certain extent, but it only takes a moment alone with us for the cold wind to blow through your belly. The tiny breath of unrealized awareness that you are lost in a strange place. The knotted anxiety of suspecting that you are in the presence of something -- a lunatic, an excommunicate, a feral tiger -- with which a person is under no circumstances to be left alone.
And the cold wind blows and the walls snap up and some voice that imagines itself to be at the center of your mind's labyrinth says aloud, "It's nothing. Look. This person is reserved and gentle and charming. You're not conspiring with a criminal. You're not breaking a quarantine. You're not sitting across from a cannibal, a Caliban, a calignity, a calamity. Everything is fine. Everything is reasonable. Everything is normal. Everything is always normal."
You believe. You scribble away the moment as an instant of fantasy. They come and they go, all day, every day, every lifetime. You long ago learned to disregard them, to let lay forgotten and unimportant the odd moments, the impossible angles, the baffling glimpses of alien landscapes caught between briefly-stirred curtains, the dreams of faraway places and strange faces which seem more solid and urgent than any place you've been, the brief and terrifying flights of absolute certainty that a door you've opened a thousand times before will this time open into a room you've never seen, the peculiar smell that always seems to remind you of something that hasn't happened yet.
Yeah. You know some of us. One or two. Someone you met years and years ago, who left much more of an impression than was reasonable for the nature and duration of contact. Someone who seemed simultaneously too-solid and not-quite-real. Someone with fire behind the eyes. Someone exiled.
Who I'd like to meet: A world-destroyer. A paradigm-smasher. A wind-demon. An archfiend. An unpredictable incomprehensible force of antinature capable of dancing in my deadlights without boiling away into vapor. A thought-shattering autofire thunderclap folded into human form. An epic-romantic. A descendant of the storms and a cousin to the gods. A singularity. A warrior. A paradox. A poet. The last living human being. Someone who hasn't given up. Someone who can laugh into the abyss. Someone who can remember jungles on the Sahara and prairies in Katmandu. Someone who won't shrink away from the lips of a monster. Someone more than human. Someone not perfect, but perfectly flawed. Someone who speaks enochian by instinct and doglatin by predilection. Someone who knows she's watching a shadow-play. Someone who can recite dirty cockney limericks while kickboxing. Someone who can look with different eyes at hidden histories and on a clear day see the edge of forever. Someone who breathes fire. Someone who's carved in ice. Someone whose name takes a thousand years to pronounce.
Someone with more trust than fear.
If you don't fit into every single detail on this list, I don't want to meet you, I don't want to know you, I don't want to fucking remember you. It's quite probable that I don't give a damn if you live or die. Humans have no inherent value, and I will assign no worth in my estimation of a person based solely upon the reality of his or her "person-ness." To assume you (or anyone) has a right to exist is the conceit of an overinflated humanist ego, and a conceit I am no longer willing to indulge.
the looking...well, i'm still optimistic. i really want to teach at a community college in the fall! i just can't stand working retail anymore, it is draining the essential life force out of me! how have you been?
Why, hello! I need a moment of silence in my head to read your version of the Iliad/Odyssey...... I will though, and I look forward to it. So at this time, I must press the Dear Abby belief that patience is, in fact, a virtue.
By the by, I joined the cool crowd and "made" a facebook page. Find me if you can! It should be easy... Just look under Tina MacDonald.
ha ha, yeah, goodbyes suck so i don't bother. it was good to see you too...though i don't usually hang out with the offspring of incestuous whores--i made an exception in your case because there was a free dinner involved :P
That's too funny. Life...out there?!?...I'm currently sitting about 3 blocks from you right now. I moved back. No smartass comments ok...I love Las Cruces. :-)
After a week of only three and a half hours of sleep at night I'd be a gibbering mess. I usually barely manage eight a night and that's not enough for me.
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