Eric, Its been a long time since I said anything via myspace... The last time was Dec. 31, 2008. I can't believe its been that long. I still look for you to come walking up the street... This is terrible. I should not be having a conversation w/ you this way. You know this crap you pulled is just wrong!!! However, I am so grateful that the last words I remember hearing from you were "I love you, mom". Thank you for that. I don't know if I could survive if we had had an argument or something stupid like that. Its hard enough this way. I still try to pretend its not real and your in Indonesia. It doesn't work but I try anyway.
I miss you more than words can ever possibly express. I love you, son... please talk to me in my dreams. Let me know you are finally at peace. Tell me you love me one more time. This hurts & I need you to communicate with me somehow... please. I love you.
i really miss you...it's weird because no matter how much time passes, the tears still come and the pain never goes away--sometimes i'm just numb, but even that hurts if you know what i mean...love you and miss you every single day...save some room for me up there...i'll see you when i see you, but until then please send me a hug every now and then
I miss you so much. I love you. Sometimes, I feel like my heart is breaking all over again. Yet, I know it will never really mend. But time is my friend and it will get easier with time. At least thats what people have told me. Somehow I have got to find away to stop asking "why". I will never know. Intellectually I know I won't ever know the "why" but for you to go the way you did... I want so much to understand...even though I never will in this life here on earth.
God help me please. This hurts!!! Son, just know that I LOVE YOU!
Hey there son. Happy Halloween! I miss you. I don't do this as much as I've been doing facebook, here lately. I set up a music memory for you there.
Its just not the same here since you went home. I love you so much. I have my good days and other days. The last few days or so it seems like I have been crying more. I think its part of my grieving process.
Goodness gracious, I sure would like to give you a hug.
Wow! I can't believe how long its been since I posted anything. I miss you very much. I had a dream last night that was so scary. I was trying to save... You are not going to believe this! In the dream I was trying to save Jesus from eating something that had been poisoned or something. And, I couldn't save Him. He ate it anyway. I woke myself up around 3 am saying NO. It was very strange.
That was the easy part of the comment. Tabitha is leaving for Chicago on the 18th of June to live w/ your father & Angela. It hurts to let her go. I miss her already and she is still here. I'm sad for us here in Texas. I'm glad for Bob & Angela's crew there. They will be so surprised when they see how much she has changed over the last year or so.
I love you. Please tell Jesus I LOVE Him too. And thank Him for me w/ a big hug for my life.
Hey there kiddo... I hope all is well my lil snicklefritz. I wish I could hug you again. I have been having night mares again. Sometimes I wake up and think you were there but then I remember some big bad animal or something coming after me... Then I realize I'm sweating and woke myself up crying or screaming or something lame like that. Please find away to let me know that you are really OK and pain free. But, more importantly that you are at peace. Reassure me, something so I can really feel again and it not be pain or fake. If you know what I mean.
Son, regardless of how bad I behaved while you were here on earth... Please know that I loved and still love you to the best of my ability at the time.
I'm sorry that it may not have been good enough or the way you needed it. I miss you. My heart still aches to see you and hear you... I miss you so very much.
I love you. Mom
P. S. Please tell everyone I said hello and give them my love. Your Nana, my Nanny & Pawpaw, Becky Clark, Mime & Pappy Sanders, Ray, Perry, & Uncle Raymond... just everyone that has already gotten the privledge of going home to be w/ our Lord and Savior. Thanks son.
dearest eric, kell and i still miss you and think of you everyday. our tatoos as memorials for you look really great. and i get to talk about you alot when people ask what my tat is for and who is eric? sarah lost her baby so take care of it for us. love you lots lysol mom
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She will always be my biggest hero.
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