Cheryl

"IN MEMORY OF TABITHA....07-04-1994 TO 09-25-2006...LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH BABY"..HEROES: Is it necessary to ask..My Dad..My Mom..My Brother..and of course all the musician's out there..those making it as well as those struggling..for sharing their art..their passion..their soul..thanx guys/gals..keep on!!!!
****DEDICATION I WROTE FOR MY MOM**** My Mom passed away on oct 10,2002 after a long 2yr battle with complications from diabetes..she went through so much and stood so strong through all her pain..I will never forget when she was being wheeled into the operating room for the first time (we didnt know if she would make it through that one, which thankfully she did for it gave me some more time with her)..least did we know there would be so many more operations to follow..but as she was being wheeled in for that first operation,while holding my hand, she looked in my eyes and said "cheryl, i want you to know its ok..I want you to know I have had a wonderful life"..what more precious a gift could a mother have given a daughter then with those words..under the definition of an angel..there should be my mom's name..I miss you so much mom..I miss how you knew about everything and anything..you were so intelligent. so talented,you loved the mornings, you loved the nights, you loved the sunshine, you loved the smell of the rain, you loved the flowers, you loved the mountains, you loved birds, you loved animals, you loved the beach, you loved the ocean,I can remember how as I grew.. you taught me how to love all those things and so much more..I remember anywhere I went with you, how people and children would just flock to you, everyone who met you adored you, you touched everyone..even if they met you only once..they remembered you..thats how beautiful a soul you were..I miss your smile, I miss your laughter, I miss your hugs, I miss how you forgave me and loved me unconditionally when I caused you so much heartache when I was going through my rebellious teenage years.I put you through so much..I thank you for your unconditional love..I miss our long talks..I miss your wisdom, and your love... and your love..you gave so much love..you gave so much to so many throughout your life..those who were lucky enough to have known you were blessed..mom I dedicate this poem written by a poet lorraine costello to you.."I wake up today thinking of you"..I wake up today thinking of you..go to the phone and get very blue..weeping and crying so hard every day..pick up the phone and i hear her voice say..It was a dream,no its not real..I'm here at home cooking a meal..the coffee is brewing..the bread is all done..come over and visit and eat till there's none..I get all excited to think we will meet..I hop in the car and head down the street..I drive and I drive and I get nowhere..she said she's home I have to get there..I stop the car and can't find my way I ask her again and I hear her say..I am right here so close to your heart..I never left you now you have to be smart..so live your life after all I had mine..I got sick and tired and wasn't so fine..if I could have stayed with all of you..that is of course what I wanted to do ..the pictures and memories will keep me alive..when you get sad and are thinking of me..think of the good times..so many you see..the big bear hug and laugh you so miss..a few kind words or a gentle kiss..tears they do come, and for me they do to..but I am just fine i am here with you.. today is hard and nights seem long..tomorrow will be better and you'll get along..the day you are happy again, and you one day will be ..right now it is a hard one..but someday soon you will see...feeling so blue and tired of this ..keep your faith and you will find bliss..dear daughter I know it is hard to believe..the pain so so real that no one can relieve..I am in heaven it is so beautiful up here..I'm not alone..family and friends are near..one day at a time is all you have to do I am with God and we are looking after you........**I Miss You So Much Mom..I Love You, cheryl** ****DEDICATION I WROTE FOR MY DAD**** My Dad passed away on dec 27, 2005 after a a year long battle in icu due to medical errors caused by doctors from the first hospital he was rushed to on new years eve 2004. I thank westchester medical center in valhalla new york for taking him into their care and assigning him world renown doctors and surgeons and for all they did in trying to save my dad he fought such a courageous battle to live...dad i miss you so much, i miss your smile, i miss your laughter, i miss you strength, i miss your talent, i miss your wisdom,I miss your knowledge, i miss your intelligence, i miss your insight, i miss your unconditional love..i miss how you loved jazz music, you loved the ocean, you loved old time westerns, you loved football with a passion, i loved when we were kids and a fierce storm was coming in the summer piling us in the car at our cottage and driving us up to the lighthouse so you could film mother nature wrecking havoc on the ocean i recall being scared of the storms but being amazed at the wonder of it all and in a sense not being scared at all for i felt safe for you were with me , i love how when i was a child and learning how to ride a bike i couldnt let myself get past the training wheels and i remember you always taking me to the park and trying to encourage me but also letting me know it was ok it was taking me so long to get it..and i love how when i wasnt looking you screwed the training wheels up so i couldnt tell and when i started riding the bike still thinking my training wheels were down how you smiled and laughed that wonderful laugh of yours and told me i was riding and what you had done..i love the faith you always had in me that i could do those things that i thought i couldnt and i love how you made me learn to ride a bike the way you did..I love how you taught yourself photgraphy and developing your own as a hobby and i have all your slides all your films and hold them all so close to my heart..you left us so many memories with that hobby.thankyou so much..its well known you were an amazin' Trumpet Player in your younger years with your band so much so that you were called and known by the nickname "Gabriel" and i know my love for music is derived from you thankyou so much for that and i also know u are blowing them some amazin' tunes up in heaven :)...i love how you loved to learn and knew just about everything and if by chance (which was rare) you didnt know about something.. i loved how you could teach yourself and learn so quickly,i love how you loved mom so deeply and stood by her bedside when she fell so gravely ill in the last years of her life and you never left her side and you never felt she was a burden and i love the way you could never understand why such a beautiful soul had to endure so much pain in her final years, i love the way you stood so strong for her through it all, i love how you hated that we went into a war that you dont believe we are justified in being in and each day how you commented on how it angered you so that so many young men were being killed for no good reason..and i'm glad in a sense that you did not have to be aware in the last year of your life that we are still fighting that unjust war.i love how you showed me how to love so many things in this life, but how you also taught me about survival, you taught me about all the good in the world but also taught me to be aware of all the bad out there..i miss your hugs.i miss you loving your family so deeply..and i thank you for everything you sacrificed in your life to provide and care for us as we grew, you were such a gentle heart inside and so damn strong and tough on the outside, i thank you for calling me to your bedside months before you died and could still speak before they placed you on the respirator and telling me how much you loved me, you felt you had to tell me, dad you never had to tell me, i felt your love all through my life..i dedicate this song to you by anita cochran "daddy can you see me"....Momma gives birth to a little child, daddy waits with a patient smile. They tell him what he's brought into the world, They all can tell she'll be a daddy's girl. He hears a voice as she starts to cry, he looks through the window tears fall from his eyes, Overwhelmed with the thoughts of the day, He swears he hears her say..Daddy can you see me? Daddy can you hear the words I say? I've got your hands, Your eyes and your hair..And this thing you call a teddy bear..I'll do what I can to make you proud, Daddy can you see me now? He takes me fishing like I'm one of the guys..No one can break these ties that bind..We've got a bond that's precious and dear, and it's stayed the same through all these years. As I get older and time goes by, He's got a shoulder if I need to cry, And when I think that I'm going o.k..I look to him and say..Daddy can you see me? daddy can you hear the words I say? I've got your hands, Your eyes and your hair..and I still hold on to my teddy bear. I'll do what I can to make you proud, Daddy can you see me now? I look to the heavens for some kind of sign, for you to tell me I'm doing fine..and every night when I kneel down to pray, I wonder if you hear me say...Daddy can you see me? Daddy can you hear the words I say? My life has changed since you went away, and I need to know if I'm doing O.K. I've done all I can to make you proud..Daddy can you see me now? Oh I've done all I can to make you proud, Daddy can you see me now?..I miss you so much dad..I love you..Cheryl ..