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T's Blog
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Sometimes, things needs a revamp
When it comes to anything and everything really, change is inevitable. Slight or significant, better or worse, it doesn't matter. At different times in our life, different things in our life need some revamping because of the pure monotany of it. You have to reaccess and do something about it. Otherwise, it gets either stagnant or changes from other sources outside your own.
In relationships, you got to be more creative since we live in the expected monogamous society where you find a mate, latch on and go through your whole life with that person. After a while......long while, it's not as easy to go on to something new. You've made a commitment to that person and yada yada.....The hard thing is to keep coming up with shit that's different to liven it up.
What if by default, you're not all that creative and either is the other person. That can turn it to a sorry route of 'same ole same ole' and stuck in a plateau for a good while. Don't get me wrong, you can always breakup and move on but really, even if you find your soulmate and you're super compatible in every way, there will be a time that the honeymoon is over.
Back to my point, when it come to anything, over time... things will change. It's best if you have control over it. In order to do that though, you make the initiative, put forth the effort and try to create change for the better. If you go into uncharted territory, who knows the outcome.....could be bad, could be good. Just make sure you try.
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Tampa FL my new homestead....semi-temp
Sorry it's took so long I have just needed to acclimate (new word used frequesntly down here) to my new surroundings. So, I'll start by telling you about the beginning of our venture across the states. All I have to say about packing up our apartment is we should have done it weeks before. A little bit here and there after work or something because we had to stay up all night long the night before we had to vacate and we were hustling. Our friend helped us that morning and we miracuously pulled it off somehow.
So sunday 5/21, we were running about 9 hours later than schedule. We had my car, Jim's truck and a 6x12 uhaul trailor attached. We picked up our friends in Lynnwood and headed out to Couer D'Alene, ID @ 9:30pm. We got there @ 4:30 am to sleep @ this elaborate resort suite. We were out of it entirely. We got like 6 hours of sleep and headed for Wolf Creek, UT. Didn't quit make it there. We went through Montana and then the bottom part of ID had then Starta (the name of my car) gave me problems. There was an electrical storm and all of a my power sterring went out, decculerate and then shut down. We were in no-man's-land so I keep trying because my engine was still good. We tried to get as far as we could and finally gave up @ a shell station. Just so happens that there is mechanic there @ 2am and is the only one in a 60 mile radius. Lucky, huh. There was also an attached motel for $37 for the night and he had the car ready by 10 am. It was my fuel pump that went bad. By now it's Tuesday and we are behind schedule and haven't covered much ground so we get into Utah and it happens again. $800 later, I got a fuel pump. So we go through Wyoming which is the most boringest state the US has and then thru Colorado by then it was 2 am and the resort that we had booked was an hour of hilly maze out-of-the wayness. When we woke up, we understood why the venture out. It was beautiful Estes Park. THe mountain range summit was unforgettable. That day, we went through Denver and into Kansas. All the way through Kansas to Missouri. Kansas was actually a whole lot prettier than I thought. Very pictureque with the trees, wild horses and lakes. Kansas City was pretty big. That's when the bugs started to appear more so. We ended up @ Lake of Ozarks, MO. Gorgeous big lake in three directions and we had front side access. Again an hour out of the way but still.
Thursday, we went through the rest of Missouri thru top part of Arkansas to Memphis, TN. That was a highlight because we stopped in the city to get a bite to eat and found ourselves in bright lights, big street. bearle and 2nd street was the spot to be. Closed off and music in the streets. BB King and Elvis Presley are still being remembered there I tell ya/ Big lights and signs everywhere and everyplace you turned looked fun. We dined @ this outside restaurant, kind alike an irish pub. There was live music (jack johnson type doing requests) and a big billy goat in a castle who drinks beer. It was amazing. That night we stayed on the road with one roadside pass out session.
Friday, we were so determined to get to FL and knew it was in reasonable reach. We went thru Mississippi and Alabama and that's where most of the accents came into play. "Hey Darlin' that type of thing. We went straight thru Birmingham and Montgomery,AL into FL and got here @ like 10:30pm. We were exhausted but filled with scenery from across the US. Now it's a three weeks later and pretty much getting aquainted with our surroundings. Jim got a job (yeah) and I'm still on the hunt. I started school 6/8 and have already had a final, 2 quizzes and a test in 1 week. It's pretty intense but I'm excited to get into the core classes. Well I shouldn't run on with this any longer or no one will have the energy to read it so I'll end it know by saying that it some road trip but the destination spot is a great change for us and there's more adveture to come, I'm sure of it. -
RIP Bogart
Well, my fish, Bogart died today and I'm having some real issues about it. To start off, I am an animal lover. I've always had or taken care of animals growing up and for a while there, I was lacking. Plants simple do not cut it.
So, I got this gorgeous Betta fish at Walmart like 6 months ago, if not longer. He had vibrant coloring of metallic blue and red. I thought is was very symobolic because I'm a water sign and Jim is a fire sign. Horoscope mambo jumbo stuff but it's totally me. Anyways, I named him Bogart because his frumpy grin reminded me of Humphrey Bogart. So, big deal - it's just a Betta right? Well it's all I can really have right now because I knew I was going to move and just apartment living with their guidelines. Besides, every now and then, I'd see his tail glisten under the lamp of his fish bowl that stood right on top of my speaker and zoned out on it.
He comes clear cross-country with us from WA to FL and makes it fine. I got a little weary a couple times because it was uber hot in the car but he got through it. So know we're in Tampa and I had to downsize his bowl into a traveling cup with vents. He's larger than the typical sized Betta so I made sure to give him fresh aquafina water about every other day. Maybe I was to harsh changing the water on him by letting all the water out and holding him back by the lid and then filling the water up. I don't know but today when I got home from my first day of school, I found him floating upside down in his bowl. I'm sad. He was fucking cool! No really, he was a happy fish with his fin and tail fully spread all the time and was coo with what he had. His coloring was so vibrant and by now, I sound like a dork knob. Listen, if you start to take care of anything, doesn't matter what it is, a plant, a pet, a car, a baby, you start to get attached. It had meaning and purpose to you because you did something about it. Well, that fish was cool, I hope I didn't kill him by changing out the water today. He was fine this morning. He was one of one-of-a-kind alright. It's inevitable but wish I had him longer, you know.
A friend of mine (whom you know) showed me this quote a few years ago and I've adopted it into my life. It is by far my favorite quote.........
"Some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity...." -Gilda Radner
I absolutely believe in this quote and live by it. No matter the situation or circumstances that I'm going through. This quote relates to all aspects of my life.
I know exactly what your talking about.........I've made significant changes in my life over the past few years and especially this past month. Although changes can be scary and unknowing. They can also bring out the best in you. Challenging you to overcome your worries and distress and make it into something positive and energetic. I believe patience is key to change. Change can never happen over night and if your patient enough you'll see results in the change. It'll get frustrating and sickening at times when you don't see results come as fast as you like. But no one ever said that dreams come true over night. Stay determined, keep your eye on the prize and never, never give up on full filling your aspirations. You and only you control your own destiny so it's up to you how you route it. Life is to short to worry about the what if this happens and what if.......who the fuck cares? Carpe diem!
Hug you, kiss you, miss you, absolutely fucken LOVE you!
~BFF