rswfire

About me:

Who am I?  That's a fair question, but one that I cannot answer, for I do not always understand myself, or the choices I make in life.  And for me, that is one of the greatest treasures that life has to offer, the continued exploration into one's own soul.  Metaphysics aside, however, I can honestly say I am one of the more unique individuals to grace our planet.  I'm not extraordinary by any means; I'm just not average.  Those things which interest most others have little appeal to me.

I am a genuinely kind and thoughtful person, but I am not the easiest to get to know, at least in the real world.  I can be rather shy around people I don't know and I have found it takes a special kind of person to see through the shadow and to have the confidence to forge a relationship with me.  And please do understand that by relationship, I do not necessarily mean love, though that certainly applies, for if you do not love those whom are within your inner circle, it is hard for me to imagine why they are in it to begin with.

I choose my friends carefully.  I do not party.  I gave that up more years ago than I could count on one hand.  I do not go to the clubs.  And I definitely do not subscribe to the gay doctrine that so many of my fellow counterparts do; this is said without any judgment, however, as I, like so many before me, have been there, and done that.  I simply find I have little patience for what I perceive to be shallow or fruitless endeavors.  Substance, depth, these are the things that move me.  But even with all of that said, I do find great enjoyment in music and atmosphere, and given the right circumstances, I would enjoy spending time in such settings, if only occasionally.

As far as interests, they are rather simple.  I enjoy the outdoors, somewhere you can find me every single day, no matter the weather, no matter the time of year.  My favorite activity is hiking, and I hike an average of six miles in a wooded nature preserve every day, with the exception of the many trips I take to other places to explore other natural surroundings.  For me, being beneath the trees, to see them souring high above my head, to smell the flowers and the forest, to be an observer of nature, to interact with such an environment, these things bring me greater joy than almost anything else imaginable.

As for work, I own a corporation that is primarily focused on website property development.  I started programming at a very young age, somewhere around eleven or twelve, and I have been doing it ever since.  My work has evolved to the point that I manage several popular destinations on the web, an activity which keeps me busy, but also free to explore those things which matter most to me.  And at some point in the future, I hope to further my professional goals in a way that blends well with my personal ones.  I hope to one day have explored all of our state and national parks, to hike every trail there is, and to make these places available to everyone through a website that can take you on the journey with me.

As for my dreams, they are lofty, but not at all unattainable.  I hope to one day own an island; not a small one, but one that is large enough that I can build a large tower on it, made out of black marble and dichroic glass, which will serve as the base of my corporation as well as my living quarters, and much of the island would be full of a vast forest setting, where I could create a unique trail system for everyone to enjoy.

And if you've made it this far, then you deserve to at least know my interests as they relate to love.  I am a very passionate person, and I have loved deeply twice in my life.  I have had other relationships as well, all of which have ultimately caused me a great deal of pain, but pain that brought with it many valuable lessons, and so I do not regret any of them.

My heart, like so many others, does long for "true love."  But the subject is a complicated one, for I have indeed experienced just such a thing.  I love to be close to someone, to cuddle up with them and feel the energy surround us and bring great warmth and comfort.  I do hope there is someone else out there for me, but I am not searching for it.  I believe the act of seeking only propels that which you seek further from your sight.

To put it succinctly, I simply won't settle for anything less than my heart's desire.  Below is a poem by Oriah Mountain Dreamer that I have always found to be incredibly insightful and profoundly meaningful and encouraging.  I strive to be the person in that poem.  For me, the betterment of self is a central part of my character.