Jay Williams

About me:

its been a while, i guess the only way to keep people from guessing where i've been or what has transpired is to write it out...
if you knew me before, you dont know me, i'm not the same..this is not a cry for help or a stunt to grab other's attention...i should have listened to alot of you, friends, family, others...bottom line is, i let her use me, and strip me clean of my own identity and earthly wares...shame, i am out of, i really dont give a fuck, period. i let someone who never should have even had an opportunity to know me, defeat me, with the help of ignorance, underhandedness, hatred, evil, selfishness, and deceit...One of my children was aborted sometime in may, and the next day the dirty bitch was fuckin' her dude...my other 2 children were taken away by the country due to her claim that i abuse them, and i am not fit to raise them.

she cleaned my account out...used me for stability, and killed one of my children..and in turn, killing me. she took away my best friend, and segregated me from all that i knew and loved...it pushed me to a failed suicide attempt...something that NO one ever expected, including myself...my own parents aren't even defending me..so its just me...broke, childless, and homeless...my best friend saved my life, but was it really worth saving? i'll let the cards play this one out...

yes, we all knew amanda was a dirty bitch...but who knew she was that dirty..i wonder how many people she had in on this...im actually amazed at the complexity and the perfect execution of her devious plot...i mean, not even i, one of the more intelligible people on this earth, especially when its a psychological or manipulative situation saw this coming...
to get someone to believe that they care for you, make you move them in your house, get pregnant, beg you to marry them (for the simple reason, that if i did re-marry her, the child custody would be reset, so all she would have to do is re-divorce me), get them to let you back on all their accounts, plan their mother-in-laws birthday and the kid's summer vacation, all while keeping her boyfriend on the side(i'm sure if you check her page, he's there) completely aloof of what she really was doing behind his back, lying to the military about her fraternization with said boyfriend/squad leader/had no fuckin' clue she was pregnant, hiding the pregnancy, piss off my own best friend, trick her into feeling sorry for her, getting abortion money out of her, at the same time, turning her against me, lying to both sides of the coin, while waiting for the perfect opportunity to strike, and take what's hers...incredible.

so it is what it is, if anyone was worried about me, i apologize, wait, scratch that, i don't apologize..the way that i feel, i don't have to apologize for..if you are wondering why it took me so long to update or contact anyone, it took me 3 weeks of serious suicidal contemplations/attempts, before someone (and your efforts and love is not to go without regard chris) who does care got me to go to an inpatient treatment center, then back to the arms of the military...you don't have to talk to me, if you don't want, because i really don't talk anymore, just putting the word out before someone else puts anymore false information in the streets....

if you don't like what i wrote, or believe it, that's on you, after you put a plastic bag over your head while od'in heavily on medication and stop breathing, its hard to lie anymore...
the streets is watching homie....