i'm tassa. i'm 20 and i'm antisocial. i live in the internet world most of my time. i'm a afraid of the world, the reality. i'm scared being rejected, being a failure and most of all, being hated.
my boyfriend is naim, in case u're wondering. i'm not good in long distance relationship. but naim, he's almost 3 km near to thailand. i doubt we can make it, at first. but he sure lifted my spirit up, and said we're going to be just fine. i guess, i can handle that. hopefully.
frankly, i always make the wrong choices in life. like the time i gave up everything for food, so now i'm 20kg heavier than usual. and the time where i bitch about, i suppose, then, was my best friend. and also when i spent most of my high school years with a bad, bad friend. bad for influence i mean.
so, although i'm friendless at the moment, but i'm working on it. trying to make more of my time in the reality world, apologizing to people or a specific person for my mistakes, socialize more and so forth.
i need more support from you guys. honestly, i think about suicide all the time. and i'm scared. and i'm in malaysia, we dont seek for help from the professionals.
pls, help!
