CRistel

About me:

Okay so I'm bored again. so I can't stop thinking. You'd think that if, in the very end, all we ever wanted was love, we'd work a little harder to keep it. But I guess, somewhere along the way we lose sight of it and forget that that was the whole reason any relationship ever began. Or maybe, sometimes we so desperately want it we throw ourselves blindly at anyone who seems like they're giving it to us and realize a little too late that it isn't, in fact, as pure and wonderful as we thought it'd be. Is it just that, we want someone to love us completely, but we're a little more selfish and don't want to give anyone else too much of our love? But what good is it if that bit of love is so brief that it hardly counts? Is it really worth all the pain and time and effort only for that short feeling of happiness? The things we'll do for happiness, the sacrifices that are made and will continue to be made, it seems like there is nothing we can do but try and try again until by accident we stumble across a love that will last a life time. The sad part of that is, not everyone will find it. And so for those who want it so much, it's always so terribly depressing watching them go through the same heart break over and over again and come out of it only with a new string of false hope. Sometimes I think it hurts me more than it hurts them, because although you wish you could tell them to stop, you too understand the deep yearning for just, one person to love you and to care for you. I don't have the heart to tell someone that it isn't worth it because it would be hypocritical to me. Not that I would go to the lengths that some might but...I can still understand why. My point isn't, however, how hard it is to find love, but how some people will so easily give up in the process of finding love with whoever they're currently involved with. To see how quickly they're thwarted by the process of falling in love is so disheartening. They move on fast, all in the hopes to find another, quicker love that they can enjoy. But once they have it they throw it away like it's worthless because nothing but the chase is appealing. It breaks my heart to see couples come and go and then flash back to them and wonder if they were ever sincere, ever genuine. How cold and mechanical we've become, to not have the patience and time for something so important like love. How distorted our image must be in order to think that something so beautiful can happen within a second of meeting someone. I guess that's what they mean when they say our society is obsessed with time. Anything that takes too long is automatically deemed a waste of time. But why? Do we not live with the understanding that, for some things that truly matter, it does take that extra bit of effort but can't they see that it'll be so much more worth it in the end? In my opinion, the world needs a little more love, that's all. ..