No body know's what it's like to always cry at night.
And nobody knows what it's like to live in this constant fear of life.
I am always missunderstood and lonely.
The only thing I can do is pray for someone to save me.
Save me from this, from what I'v become.
Save me from myself, and my content feeling of being alone.
I can't do this, I can't live like this anymore.
This constant embrace of pain and sorrow.
It never stops. It never just goes away.
The sane and insane games my mind loves to play.
I hate this life and the world I create.
I have created this world of missery and hate.
I hate everything and even others.
Why do I do this? Why do I even bother?
I don't get why everything has to be so hard and never easy.
They don't get it and they'll never believe me.
That inside I have faded. That inside I have died.
I am falling fast. Uncontrolled feelings of present and past.
I'm trying to pick up the pieces of this heart that is broken.
Confining this emptyness with these words unspoken.
The thought of love. It just makes me sick.
I have been there and done that. The false words that made my heart skip a beat.
How could this happen? How did I deserve this?
I am so foolish to think I could live in heavenly bliss.
My pain is what haunts me, with these thoughts that just stalk me.
Oh how I yearn to be whole and free.
But no one can save me. You cannot free me of this.
I have learned to except and somehow handle it.
I will never be whole. I will never be free.
My mind screams and pleads for my life to just leave.
Leave and be gone to never return.
With emptyness and nothing of my lessons unlearned.
You only see a fake smile, a fake person, a fake child.
You'll never see who I really am. You'll never see this heart unbroken.
And I will never tell anyone about the thoughts I have not spoken.
I will never come out, out of this shell that keeps me safe.
I hate coming out knowing I'm only being fake.
I'm sorry I'm like this. I'm sorry I can never change.
This isn't just a stage, this isn't just a phase.
I am who I am and I can never be saved...
By: Kylie Shalee...