Josh

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  • Josh

  • 28 / Male
  • ALTOONA, PENNSYLVANIA, US

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About me:

.... .... Welcome to my blog. Please do not leave until you have become offended, inspired, or humored. Thank you.


I'm a geek at heart. I love all knowledge and if I would live for 1000 years I would spend at least 100 of that in educational institutions. If I lived that long I would eventually live in every state of every country for at least one year (not sure if that adds up mathematically, but I would get as close as I could). I'm pc software and hardware savvy. I research alternative, sustainable energy sources in my free time, and research nanotechnology, smart materials, and new types of solar cells during my work time. I'm a hopelessly poetic ass. I'm a lover AND a fighter. Some would say I had a rough childhood. I say the things I've experienced have shaped me into the person I am today, which surely has its faults, but I happen to generally like this thing I'm becoming, something yet crude and somewhat undefined. I am the type to speak the truth whether you want to hear it or not. I eat healthy when I can afford it. The amount of color, hair, modifications, ink, and flesh on my body are variables which have been known to change without warning. My psychic mind is awake. I have lucid dreams. I can read palms, tarot, interpret dreams, play the drums, and sing well enough to harmonize, but not all at once. I am well versed in the astrological, western zodiac, and chinese zodiac. I am somewhat antisocial--not because I don't like people, but because I don't like most people.


A glimpse of my life philosophy:
"What we see is limited by our beliefs, experiences, and assumptions."
--Unknown
"A human being is part of a whole we call the universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separated from the rest--a kind of optical illusion of his consciousness. This illusion is a prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for only the few nearest us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living beings and all of nature." --Albert Einstein
"Dream as if you live forever, live as if you'll die today."
--James Dean
"A love of form is a love of endings."
--Louise Glück

Postings of my older poetry can be found here . I havn't written in a while because I've been busy. Nearly all of that poetry was written many years ago and I have changed profoundly since then, so please do not mistake that which was once written for an accurate reflection for who I am now. It's there mainly as a ode to transcension. These days I occasionally write for the political blog Two Steps Left.

I am an ordained clergy for the spiritual humanist church,.. and am willing to perform weddings for those who want to be wed but cannot find a liberal clergy to perform the ceremony the way they wish it to be done. Email me if you want to discuss this. I do not charge for this service, as such things should not be profitable.

For those interested in gay rights and/or LGBT issues, check out this website.


RAVEN EYES
Positive Traits: Intellectual, Wise, Experienced, Honest, Trustworthy
Negative Traits: Pompous, Condescending, Withdrawn, Pessimistic, Depressed
Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?..


It only takes one misguided ram to lead the entire flock off a cliff.


My World Visitor Map!

Who I'd like to meet:

..Not only meet, but carry a lengthy conversation with (as they come to mind): Jesus, Siddhartha, Confucious, Lao Tzu, Muhammed, Anton Szandor LaVey, Friedrich Nietzsche, Alexander Pope, Edgar Allen Poe, Robert Frost, George Washington, Thomas Jefferson, John Adams, Benjamin Franklin, Albert Einstien, Ghandi K. Mojhandas, George Washington Carver, Dr. Martin Luther King Jr., Dr. Tim Leary, Dr. Richard Alpert/Ramm Dass, Alex Grey, Jello Biafra, George W Bush, Carl Jung, Brian Warner, Jim Hayward, Jeordie White, Charles Manson's Family, Sam Berkowitz, Hannibal Lechter, Albert Fish, Jeffery Dahmer, Ed Gein, Nikola Tesla, Sun Tsu, Franklin Roosevelt, Henry Truman, Salvador Dali, Adolph Hitler, Napoleon Bonaparte, Joseph Stalin, Sigmund Freud, Aristotle, Hippocrates, The Mad Arab (author of the Necronomicon), Loki, Dion Fortune, Adolf Hitler, Richard Cheney... There's more but that's a good starting list.

Interests

  • General

    ..Fav Quotes: "What we see is limited by our beleifs, experiences, and assumptions."--Unknown

    .. "I might disagree with what you have to say, but I'll defend to my death your right to say it."--Voltaire

    "The most incredible aspect of all: These totalitarian elements will not be forced upon the people--the people will demand them. For the social manipulation of society through the generation of fear and division has completely detached humans from their sense of power and reality, a process which has been going on for centuries, if not millennia. Religion, patriotism, race, wealth, class, and every other form of arbitrary separatist identification and thus conceit have served to create a controlled population utterly malleable in the hands of the few. Divide and conquer is the motto, and as long as people continue to see themselves as separate from everything else, they lend themselves to being completely enslaved. The men behind the curtain know this, and they also know that if people ever realize the truth of their relationship to nature, and the truth of their personal power, the entire manufactured zeitgeist they prey upon will collapse like a house of cards."--Zeitgeist

    "A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects.-- Robert Heinlen

    "Think for yourself, question authority. Throughout human history, as our species has faced the frightening, terrorizing fact that we do not know who we are, or where we are going in this ocean of chaos, it has been the authorities: the political, the religious, the educational authorities who attempted to comfort us by giving us: order, rules, regulations, informing--forming in our minds their view of reality. To think for yourself you must question authority and learn how to put yourself in a state of vulnerable open-mindedness--a chaotic, confused, vulnerability to inform yourself. Think for yourself, question authority." --Timothy Leary

    More Quotes: "That is the tragedy of language, my friend. Those who know each other only through symbolic representation are forced to imagine each other. And because their imagination is imperfect, they are often wrong." --Orson Scott Card

    "Beware the leader who bangs the drums of war in order to whip the citizenry into a patriotic fervor, for patriotism is indeed a double-edged sword. It both emboldens the blood, just as it narrows the mind. And when the drums of war have reached a fever pitch and the blood boils with hate and the mind has closed, the leader will have no need in seizing the rights of the citizenry. Rather, the citizenry, infused with fear and blinded by patriotism, will offer up all of their rights unto the leader, and gladly so." --Julius Caesar

    "Our grestest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall." --Confucious

    "I think our country has always had a pretty robust immune system. I think our country's also been tremendously ill at times, and this is one of those times. But there seems to be this capacity in our culture and our society for things to get really shitty, and then for things to right themselves through the efforts of, and the eventual coming around of, the idiotic American people. American people are dumbfucks, but eventually they get it. I love those polls that say, "A majority of Americans" agree on the gay-marriage debate, as if that's the conversation-stopper, as if that wins, proves that it's not the right thing to do. A majority of Americans has been so wrong, so often, on so many issues, that a majority of Americans supporting something should be cause for as second look at its rightness. A majority of Americans supported slavery, a majority of Americans supported the internment of the Japanese, a majority of Americans supported denying women the vote, a majority of Americans supported the Communist witch hunts, a majority of Americans often have their heads up their asses. And then we're embarrassed 10 years later when we realize we have shit all over our faces. And I think we have shit all over our faces on gay rights, and we will come around. People will feel embarrassed one day when Mexico has gay marriage, Canada has gay marriage, the whole world has gay marriage. America will be last. Pakistan will have gay marriage before we do."--Dan Savage

    "I must not fear.
    Fear is the mind killer.
    Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration.
    I will face my fear.
    I will let it pass over me and through me.
    And when it has gone,
    I will turn the inner eye,
    to see its path where the fear has gone.
    There will be nothing.
    Only I will remain."

    -The Litany Of Fear, from Frank Herbert's Dune

    "What is in us that turns a deaf ear to the cries of human suffering?" --a lyric from Sad Statue by System of a Down

    "Non-violence leads to the highest ethics, which is the goal of all evolution. Until we stop harming all other living beings, we are still savages." --Thomas A. Edison

    "Peace is not merely a distant goal that we seek, but a means at which we arrive at that goal." --Martin Luther King, Jr.

    "I object to violence because when it appears to do good, the good is only temporary; the evil it does is permanent." --Mohandas K. Ghandi

    "Tolerance implies no lack of commitment to one's own beliefs. Rather it condems the oppression or persecution of others." --John F. Kennedy

    "Whatever you do, you need courage. Whatever course you decide upon, there is always someone to tell you that you are wrong. There are always difficulties arising that tempt you to believe your critics are right. To map out a course of action and follow it to an end requires some of the same courage that a soldier needs. Peace has its victories, but it takes brave men and women to win them." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

    "It is easy enough to befriend one's friends. But to befriend the one who regards himself as your enemy, is the quintiessence of true religion. The rest is mere business." --Mohandas K. Ghandi

    Fav Artist: Alex Grey

    Other Fav Artists:
    Zdzislaw Beksinski, Chet Zar, Hiermonymus Bosch, Salvador Dali, Vasily Kafanov, Mark Ryden, Odd Nerdrum, Joanne Karli, Skettch, and Velia Specchio.
  • Music

    ..I listen to a wide variety of music, but I prefer industrial, metal, progressive rock, folk, classical/symphonic, jazz, and the unclassifiable such as Soul Coughing and Mindless Self Indulgence (MSI is self-classefied as Electro-Industrial Pussy Punk). I also enjoy Tori Amos and similar styles, though I know not their genre.

    Music keeps me going. It has served as a vital source of inspiration for me in times when I would've otherwise been lost.

    I play the drums for Heavy Radio (formerly Heathen & Harlo). Our style is eclectic and progressive.

    When I practice myself I like to play: Tool, Opeth, A Perfect Circle, Primus, Pantera (RIP Dimebag Darrel), Killswitch Engage, MuDvAyNe, In Flames, and more. I typically enjoy playing complex rhythms and patterns more than simpler ones, but I will play just about anything.

    I have played the bass guitar, throat, coronet (a small trumpet), set drums, various hand drums, and would like to learn how to play the piano, cello, violin, and several eastern instruments such as the tabla, kuquin, and xiao
  • Movies

    ..Fav Non-traditional American Film: Waking Life
    Fav Traditional American Film: The Rules of Attraction
    Fav Foreign Film: The City of Lost Children (French)
    Fav Play: Moulin Rouge
    Fav Animated Series: Aeon Flux
    Fav Anime Series: Cowboy Bebop
    Fav Anime Film: Ghost in the Shell 2
  • Television

    ..It's not often that I am driven to turn it on (oddly, I built my own TIVO out of old computer parts), but when it is: Discovery Science, History, Discovery Health, Turner Classic Movies, C-SPAN 1, 2 and 3, and the local PBS channel. I used to watch Tech TV before they merged with G4, but their channel has since devolved into one huge flashy ad who's once objective technological view has been replaced by the subjectivity of the sponsor with the largest checkbook.

    Did you know that watching TV is the closest thing to brain death which a healthy human brain can experience? In fact, the brain is less active while watching television than it is while sleeping.
  • Books

    ..Many of my younger years were spent with my nose in books. I mainly read mysteries and science fiction. I read every Star Trek book, every Hardy boys book (I estimate that the old and new Hardy Boys books alone total at least 120 books), nearly every National Geographic mag between 1985 and 1999, and anything else I could get my hands on. I'm now glad that I read so much as a kid because it served as a supplement to the poor primary education I received (go Donegal!). Today I rarely read fiction. Most of what I read today is informational, educational, occult, esoteric, philosophical or theosophical.

    Fav. Occult Book: Psychic Self Defence by Dion Fortune
    Fav. Sci Fi Book: Enders Game by Orson Scott Card
    Fav. Magazine: A hard decision between Discovery or Bizarre
    Last Book Read (not counting my school books):Field Notes from a Catastrophe by Elizabeth Kolbert
    Book In Progress: The Passive Solar House: The Complete Guide to Heating & Cooling Your Home by James Kachadorian
  • Heroes

    ..Albert Einstein:
    Albert Einstein succeeded in the face of adversity even though he was flunked out of school in the third grade. His scientific contributions need not be mentioned. His approach to life was compassionate and spiritual. Even the way he slept was ideal: he slept for 15 min every 3 or 4 hours--a sleep schedule which he upheld for many years! One thing you should note is that Einstein had a SOLID physics background. He indeed had two (or was it three?) degrees in physics. The common misinfo is that Einstein had a poor education. THIS COULD NOT BE FURTHER FROM THE TRUTH. He studied at one of the best colleges in the world at the time: Cambridge University.

    George Washington Carver:
    George Washington Carver also succeeded in the face of adversity, but in different and, arguably, more difficult ways. He was born as a slave in 1865, yet persevered through that great barrier and achieved his Masters of Science (while being the first African-American to do so) and completely revolutionized the fields of agriculture and biochemistry with his extensive experiments with peanuts and various other foods. Today we take many of his findings for granted, but the fact is that food would not be nearly as "easy" to grow and produce these days without his innovations. He was a person of pure genius who truly cared about the common, working human--a perfect example of the ideal scientist... ..

Details

  • Status: Swinger
  • Here for: Networking, Friends
  • Hometown: I moved around alot, but I consider it: Maytown,PA
  • Height: 5' 9"
  • Ethnicity: White / Caucasian
  • Religion: Other
  • Zodiac Sign: Leo
  • Children: Undecided
  • Smoke / Drink: No / Yes
  • Education: In college
  • Occupation: Student
  • Income: Less than $30,000

Schools

  • Pennsylvania State University-Penn State Altoona

    • Altoona, PA
    • Graduated: N/A
    • Degree: Bachelor's Degree
    • Major: Science (jack of all trades in physics, chemistry, biology, and math)
    • Minor: Chemistry and Mathematics
    • Clubs: Bell Group (Nanochemistry) Research Associate, Co-Founder of the Gay-Straight Alliance, Student Activity Fee Board, Being United for Social Transformation (BUST), Black Student Union, Penn State Pride Alliance, Diversity Committee, MOSAIC Committee, Tau Alpha Pi National Engineering Technology Honors Society, Alpha Lambda Delta Freshman Honors Society, PSUA Honors Group, Omicron Delta Kappa National Leadership Honors Society, Dean's List, Kid's Science Outreach events, and plenty more.
    2006 to 2010
  • Pennsylvania State University-Penn State Altoona

    • Altoona, PENNSYLVANIA
    • Graduated: 2007
    • Student status: Alumni
    • Degree: Associate's Degree
    • Major: Electrical Engineering & Technology
    • Minor: Semiconductor Materials
    • Clubs: Bell Group (Nanochemistry) Research Associate, Co-Founder of the Gay-Straight Alliance, Student Activity Fee Board, Being United for Social Transformation (BUST), Black Student Union, Penn State Pride Alliance, Diversity Committee, MOSAIC Committee, Tau Alpha Pi National Engineering Technology Honors Society, Alpha Lambda Delta Freshman Honors Society, PSUA Honors Group, Omicron Delta Kappa National Leadership Honors Society, Dean's List, Kid's Science Outreach events, and plenty more.
    • Greek: Alpha
    2003 to 2006
  • Donegal Shs

    • Mount Joy,Pennsylvania
    • Graduated: 1999
    • Student status: Alumni
    • Degree: High School Diploma
    1994 to 1999

Companies

  • Bell Research Group

    • Altoona, PA US
    • Undergraduate Research Associate
    10/05 - Present
  • U.S. Army

    • Ft. Indiantown Gap, PA US
    • Chinook Helicopter Mechanic
    9/98 - 9/00
  • Too many to list.

    • All over, PA US
    • More examples:computer repair guru, server...
    10/96 - 9/03

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  • TISANE-RAINER

    Oct 17 2009 2:34 PM

    Three things. 1) Your "about me" section just made me fall in love with you. 2) I especially enjoy Louise Gluck myself (missing umlaut). 3) I would really, really like it if you joined me in Pittsburgh on the 31st... though I am sure you have alternate plans for such a big holiday.
  • Oct 17 2009 4:05 AM

    real love
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  • Winter

    Oct 6 2009 5:42 PM

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  • The Embalmed

    Sep 18 2009 8:59 PM

    Aldos 9.19.09
  • Fat Bottomed Girl

    Sep 3 2009 5:32 PM

    oh!!!! got ya! i just knew it was on a homepage somewhere! sounds complicated... have fun with that! :)
  • Fat Bottomed Girl

    Sep 3 2009 5:01 PM

    b/c i can't find it in your status posts and i thought i'd lost my mind.

    so what carrier do you have now? you diggin the phone?
  • Jeannette

    Aug 20 2009 11:11 PM

    Sounds like a plan to me.  Just text me or something.  I'm usually free most evenings.
  • Aesma Daeva Symphonic Metal Band

    Aug 20 2009 1:31 PM

    Happy Birthday Josh!
  • Jeannette

    Aug 19 2009 12:09 AM

    Soooo...how did grad school shopping go??
  • The Embalmed

    Aug 16 2009 2:14 PM

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  • Jul 19 2009 10:08 PM

    is your computer set to a different time than mine? because i see that it's after six o'clock and you're still playing your video game....
  • The Embalmed

    Jul 3 2009 6:44 PM


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    Jun 19 2009 4:40 AM

    Hells to the yes!  Call me!
  • Author J. J. Hebert

    Jun 18 2009 3:52 AM

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  • Alline Mathin

    Jun 7 2009 9:53 PM

  • Weird Val

    Jun 5 2009 5:49 PM

    You should come visit. We can have a swell camping party at the criver!
  • Alline Mathin

    Jun 2 2009 2:28 AM

  • May 29 2009 1:34 AM

    im on ur futon, watchin ur tvees, eatin ur apples
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    May 27 2009 1:20 PM

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  • Janet

    May 26 2009 9:14 PM

    HIIIIIII JOSH!!!!! When are you coming to visit?????