Lisa

About me:

“If I didn't define myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people's fantasies for me and eaten alive.” - Audre Lorde

"La vérité vaut bien qu'on passe quelques années sans la trouver." - Renard

"May she be granted beauty and yet not
Beauty to make a stranger's eye distraught,
Or hers before a looking-glass, for such,
Being made beautiful overmuch,
Consider beauty a sufficient end,
Lose natural kindness and maybe
The heart-revealing intimacy
That chooses right, and never find a friend."
- William Butler Yeats

NO MEN PLEASE! I AM NOT INTERESTED IN MEN! I am 100% lesbian. I am a transgendered / transexual female, taking female hormones for almost 6 years, 5 ft 5 in., 120 lbs, 34B/C-26-33, blue eyes, living full time as female now since January 2004. For the most part I am living in stealth, although a few close friends know. My body is now feminine, with rounded hips and thighs, a prominent derriere, small chest and shoulders, and still growing breasts, which are a large B/small C cup. Because of the female hormones, they are very very sensitive. My voice was always high, for a male, and now is not detectably anything but a woman's. I was always androgynous in appearance, and have never had a prominent adam's apple, and my hands and feet have always been rather small. I recently ended a period of intense electrolysis, as female hormones do not decrease the size of hair follicles. Fortunately, I never had much body or facial hair in the first place.

Everyone at work assumes I am just a genetic woman. In fact I am constantly getting asked out and hit on by men, who I always turn down, of course. Every once in awhile, another woman, not realizing that I'm transgendered, flirts with me, which I love. I have always looked very effeminate, even before starting my female hormones. My hair is now long - down past my shoulders. I love being very femme, and always wear high heels and stockings, and prefer classy clothing. I prefer wearing silk blouses and black skirts. I date women and love making love to women, but have been with an occasional couple, and have several very close lez friends. If I had to, I would probably classify myself as a femme or lipstick lesbian. I enjoy flirting, and being admired.

I have always felt I was really a woman inside, and always identified with women. I never liked playing with trucks and playing sports as a boy, and preferred playing with the girls. I had what is now described in the medical literature as "gender dysphoria". I never felt right in a man's body, and yet have always been attracted to, and identified with women. When I was young, after my dad left us, my mom used to dress me up as a little girl because she was disappointed that I wasn't born a girl. She let me grow my hair, and sometimes even took me shopping with me dressed as a girl. When she was alive, we were very, very close. Because of her I came to appreciate the love between a mom and her daughter. I am so happy with my woman's body, because now my appearance matches my internal identity. I am definitely a submissive, although I have been a domme on occasion with some subby lez friends.

My friends call me a survivor, in that I have lived through some terrible events, yet remain emotionally intact. In fact, I am probably one of the most optimistic and positive thinking people you could ever meet. I have always looked past adversity, believing that better times lie ahead, and that more joy and happiness are in store for me. I am not the type to hold a grudge, and truly enjoy people and the experiences of life in general. I almost always have a smile on my face, and I am forever eager to greet the next day and the next adventure in life.

I love shopping, and have a large collection of high heels, lingerie, and classy evening gowns. I am in a professional career, and I usually wear conservative, but stylish, clothes at work. I believe that my legs and feet are my best physical assets.

I would describe myself as being an extemely passionate person. I feel passionate about many specific issues, but I am passionate in general in whatever I do. I am an extremely loving person, who feels instant empathy and compassion for people I meet. I play classical piano and violin, and love to hike and bicycle in the Sierras. I love walking along the beach, and traveling to Europe. My favorite countries are Italy and Greece.

I am definitely an incurable romantic. I love sentimental, romantic movies, and I always cry at them. I am part Danish, part Russian, and Jewish. I lost family members in the Holocaust, in pogroms in Russia before and after the war.

Although I live in Incline Village, Nevada, I work in Northern California, where I also maintain an apartment. I travel quite frequently as part of my job, and work long and sometimes unpredictable hours.

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superflous."
- Ingrid Bergman

"CRAZY BUT PROUD SHE HOLDS HER HEAD HIGH, STRAPPED AND WAITING, SO SLEEK N SO SLY, " MAKE ONE WRONG MOVE.." SHE SAYS WITHOUT A BLINK OF AN EYE, " YOUR NOT SO TOUGH NOW ARE YOU BIG GUY ? " SHE PULLS BACK HER LONG COAT -N- EXPOSES HER THIGH, HE HAS A PUZZLED LOOK ON HIS FACE AND WONDERS WHY, " THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU .. DISREPECT WOMEN- CHEAT -N- LIE.. " SHE TAKES A DEEP BREATH -N- LETS OUT A LONG SIGH... SHE REMOVES HER COAT COMPLETELY AS SHE STRUTS ON BY.. SHE QUICKLY DRAWS THE 9 -N- .45 WITH TWO 38's ON EACH HIP, THIS WOMAN IS ... FAR FROM SHY! A WARNING TO ALL MEN.. "DON'T DOUBT ANY FEMALE EVEN IF SHE'S SWEET AS PIE, IF YOU DO.. BE FULLY AWARE AND READY 2 DIE!"
-Written By: "K.L.M." aka ~K E L Z~

"The history of all times, and of today especially, teaches that ... women will be forgotten if they forget to think about themselves."
- Louise Otto

"From this pain rooted in me like a wedge, at the center of my purest reality, at the point of my sensibility where the two worlds of body and mind are joined, I have learned to distract myself by the effect of a false suggestion."
- Antonin Artaud