the complications are quite simple.
the mysteriousness of it all.
Not everyone knows how much it hurts to love someone who doesn't love you back. Not everyone knows how much it hurts when someone you love has died or disappeared from your life. Not everyone knows how much it hurts to be alone, without friends. Consider yourself extremely lucky in the world to not have felt the pain of losing loved ones or to have felt the pain of being alone. There are many more reasons to have felt the hurt, but those are some of the most common ones that bring about the
most pain. And yet... no one ever realizes how much that person standing next to you in the elevator may be hurting. It doesn't take much effort to simply watch, ask a few harmless questions, and determine the degree of damage that has been done. It doesn't take much to make a difference in someone's life -- whether it be a good difference, or a horrifyingly bad one.
the mysteriousness of me.
I'm a person who will talk to anyone and everyone. I'll talk to the quiet people and the obnoxiously loud ones. I'm a person who will put trust, honesty, and loyalty into you the moment I meet you. And yet.. that is how I get hurt the most. I've learned that friends are not always forever. Lovers are not always forever. I may be young, but I've had enough experience and I've observed enough people to figure out that eventually... you will be left alone. Or you'll leave others alone. Unintentionally, perhaps. But maybe I could be proven wrong. Give me a happy marriage in the future and I will take my words back. Give me a life, long-lasting friendship that isn't broken or betrayed and I will take my words back. Because I'm scared of getting hurt more than anything in the world. Because I've had enough of it.
I'm harmless. :) Unless of course, you push it to the point where disrespect has gotten the better end of my short-temper. Never disrespect me, my family, or my friends. I may be little, but I can do harm in ways no one can imagine. :D
I'm shy. You might not think it, since I've changed since I was little... but I've still got some shyness in me. I'm not very talkative, so it's frustrating when there are awkward silences that are often my fault. However, I can be pretty crazy, weird, and outgoing if you get to know me the right way. Overall, however, I'm pretty mellow and laid-back. On the outside.
listen carefully, now.
I originally loved rock music. Lately however, thanks to the influence of some of my
dearest friends, I've taken a vague liking to hip hop and r&b. My favorite band was and forever will be Linkin Park. I also listen to Yellowcard, Fall Out Boy, Panic! At the Disco, Evanescence, Skillet, Tokio Hotel, Big Bang (Korean), Breaking Benjamin, Lifehouse, Maroon 5, Nickelback, Seether, Sugarcult, etc., etc., etc. I have a broad range of music I'll listen to that goes from rock, to hip hop, to indie, to classical, to country, to rap. Not the greatest mix, I know, haha.
the oddities of a person.
Everyone's got something they like or like to do. I always loved drawing, even when I was little. Unfortunately, I didn't do enough of it to become really skilled. I can produce something really good every once in awhile, though. ;) If I'm in the right mood, anyway. I'm also a computer geek. Not a huge one. I know basics of website design and graphic design and random things like that. I also like photography; but I severely suck at it, ahaha... D: My favorite thing to do is sit outside and relax, no matter what the weather, time of day, or where I'm at. I also love reading books; I don't have a particular genre I like reading, though. Anything from sci-fi, to horror, to fantasy, to romance, to comedies and adventures... anything and everything. Hmm. I'd tell you more but I've already written ridiculously enough. :)
break down the walls. see if you can make me smile.
I have AIM.
paragon plume
I have Yahoo! Messenger.
cryptic_simper@yahoo.com
I even have a FaceBook.
http://facebook.com/svpness
I have a cell phone, too. But I'm not stupid enough to put my number up here. :D
If all else fails, just message me or talk to me face-to-face. Like I said, I'm harmless.