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Name's Freya.

You won't get too far with me by reading this, the blogs are better for 'getting to know me' I think.

It's pretty sad how people are moulded to their beliefs by society, and fucking humanity itself... and that some of them (or a majority) are either not intelligent to look beyond, think outside their tiny box etc. or are just plain ignorant. Age is just a number, and you'll mostlikely judge me by it, which makes me sad but it's fine because we obviously all do it. We all label and classify eachother. I do it myself, way too fucking much. I'm quite a hypocrite really (in that sense). But I'm aware - I'm fucking aware of myself, and to some extent, this mad yet beautiful world in which we live and belong to.

Let's just say theirs different levels of intelligence. If you are one of these beautiful, creative people, I want you. I need you, for I am alone right now lol there are few who understand, and who I'm able to connect with on the deepest of levels. Maybe I'll meet like-minded people within the next few years or longer? I hope so, I really do.

I have a lot of dreams and goals, all I do is fantasize. I wanna be in a band, I want to create. I want people to enjoy my art just as much I do, I want people to know me. Art/music is my main passion, if it wasn't for creative intelligence, and all those stars out there who shine so brightly... the inspirational heroes of mine, I'd have nothing. Well nothing to do with my future, no dream, no hope, no escape. So thank you, I love you.

I find it hard to conform/live day to day life. But I plan to do it, and if I want to reach my goals, I'm gonna have to get my act together. Its all about the mind, its all about our own choices. Everything you see and feel is down to your own mind.

To some me up in a number of words, I'd say... sincere, open-minded, fun, neurotic, loving, passionate, aware, hedonistic, hungry, ugly, angry, kind, obsessive, compulsive, paradoxical... I'm sensitive, self-conscious, ugly, deep, complex, funny, somewhat unique, sensitive, loving, affectionate, well-spoken, soft-spoken, polite, quiet, loud, vulgar, rude, crude, shy, foul-mouthed, sometimes opinionated, bright, observant, kind, caring, passive, agressive, negative, positive, strange, suicidal, vain, honest, real, knowledgable, hyperactive, self-absorbed, emotional, intimate, obsessive, compulsive, limerent, aware, analytical, eccentric, partly insane, exaggerative, repetative, clumsy, idealistic, frustrated, spiritual, poor, fortunate, euphoric, ecstatic, ethical, autobiographical, anxious, scared, mature, juvenile, hypocritical, stupid, self-destructive, silly, sad, wistful, political, sexual, bisexual, musing, pensive, reflective, virtous, sinful, witty, romantic... and so on - I do love words/the English language.

What I want more than anything is contentment. And until then I'll continue to numb my mind with useless medication, and try and have more control over my own thoughts with meditation.

I'm don't mean/want to appear stuck-up in anyway, arrogant, or deluded. Because deluded is one thing I definitley am not. I'm obessed with the human mind, the universe, ecstasy (the feeling mainly), and our perceptions of it all.

I have strong opinions on what I consider right and wrong, I tend to express them through my brutally honest blogs/journals... figure me out.

There're always these imaginary boundaries holding us back - these non-existent walls that're ever-present throughout humanity. The key is to simply let go - let love, compassion and empathy for others be your cradle. Your fucking so-called "God", Goddess, higher power etc. we can't live without love, as we can't live without the sun.

The thing is, this consciousness happens to be quite selfish. It must be our righteous goal to suspend these natural laws by expanding this torch of love; of goodness inside of us, to have compassion, understanding and empathy for all other percieving and living cells, for each droplet of water that arises and falls from the ONE sea of existence.

I'm a nice girl. I just have a lot of wants and fears. I wanna know people like myself. So if you feel like it, please do leave me a comment or a message. I need somthing to satisfy my ever-present bordem... and someone to relate to, eaven if it's just on the internet. Also, any grunge, punk or riot grrrl bands - make sure to add me!

xx

"Punk is musical freedom. It's saying, doing and playing what you want. In Webster's terms, 'nirvana' means freedom from pain, suffering and the external world, and that's pretty close to my definition of Punk Rock." - Kurt Cobain

"A human being is part of the whole, called by us 'Universe'; a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest -- a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and affection for a few persons nearest us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole nature in its beauty. Nobody is able to achieve this completely but striving for such achievement is, in itself, a part of the liberation and a foundation for inner security." - Albert Einstein

I got my Myspace layout from pYzam.