thinks it might be a long long weekend...Mood: anxious
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I'm 22, and my life has been interesting. Some would say I've lived a pretty easy life full of opportunities that others were never given. They would be right. Others would say that my life has been a constant struggle to overcome my background, and circumstances. They too would be right. I need to be more serious about work, and responsibility, and I need to make more time to play.
I stuggle with my emotions. Bi-polar disorder and depression run in my family. I have dreams... Some of them are simple, like having my own space, owning a house, or renting my own apartment. Other dreams I have are more complex, being loved for exactly who I am faults and all, getting married and raising a family, or finding a job that I can feel good about, maybe becoming a writer, a photographer, or getting into the film industry. While some of my dreams are simply fantastical, such as becoming filthy stinking rich, or inventing the first hover car that is also solar powered.
Which reminds me... I'm an enviromentalist... Not the kind that chains themselves to a tree (unless it was my tree), but if you throw away a pop bottle when the recycling is in the same room, then your just lazy, or stupid. The trash company will pick it up at the curb for goodness sakes. I love the idea of solar power, and I love to garden.
I sew, I knit, I cook, I clean... I'm a pretty diverse individual. I played rugby, and hopefully will start again soon. I have a gym membership, and I USE it, maybe not as often as I should though. I love cats, kids, music, being outdoors, and crafty stuff. I love riding into the city to go shopping, and I love growing my own vegtables.
I'm that girl... The one at the bus stop with headphones on so she can ignore you. The one on the bus with with the knitting project. The one wearing hippy clothes that she made herself. The one that gives everyone home made fudge or a hand knitted scarf for Christmas. The one who everyone tried to cheat off of in high school, and who got picked last for soccer in gym class because she was a girl, even though she always led her team to at least seconed place. The one who could have been anything, and still doesn't know what she wants to do with her life. I'm the one destined for greatness, but getting there with out a GPS...
But sometimes, most of the time, I'm in a good mood, and I want to meet lots of people. I might not like everyone I meet, but meeting them is half the fun.
I would however really like if I could expand my circle of close friends. Because being lonely sucks! The problem of course being that I've been hurt bad, by "close friends" and tend to not trust people. Not to mention I hold a rather high standard when it comes to who I hang out with, and who I go out of my way to be nice too. At least in the real world. Online I don't care... As long as a person isn't a dick-weed I'll probably "friend" them, and talk to them, at least for a little while.
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