Why Does it Always Rain on Me [RIP Mom & Jazzy]

-my name's Jen
-i think capital letters are over rated
-even if it doesn't seem like it, i love you
--this only applies to the maybe 75% of the people that don't piss me off
-the first thing that pops into my head usually comes out of my mouth soon after
--most of the time people think i'm retarded because of it
---other times people think i'm hilarious
-i've been known to have horrible anger issues *partially because i have an irish background and because both of my parents do too*
-i'm really open minded, even though it doesn't always seem that way
-i don't really judge you until i've been around you for a while because first impressions can sometimes be deceiving
-i don't believe a lot of things people say because usually when i do, they say "oh, i lied."
-i loved my doggie *RIP baby girl*
-i love writing
-i think it's stupid when you're talking to someone on messenger or in regular conversations and the most clever response they can come up with is "lol" or "yeah" or some stupid shit like that
--i like to have conversations with someone who can carry on a conversation and respond to what i say.
-i'm extremely random...i barely stay on one topic too long unless i'm interested
--i love it when people are random
-i doubt anyone will read this, but i'm bored
-feel free to add me or IM me if you're actually gonna talk to me
--unless you're a 50 year old weirdo stalker and in that case, go away as fast as you can
-i've been called one of the nicest people ever, but i've also been called the most self centered, conceited bitches ever
-i've also been told that i have one of the lowest self esteems ever
--most of my conversations are spent making fun of myself
-if you ask me if your butt looks big in those pants and it actually does, but you don't wanna hear it, then don't ask me
--if you didn't understand that or get what i was saying, it means that i'm not gonna lie to you and tell you that you look amazing when you don't and you could embarass yourself
--i won't be mean about it, though
-don't wake me up at 6am and expect me to be nice
-if i tell you something and tell you not to tell anyone else and you do, don't expect me to trust telling you things again
-if i tell you to leave me alone and i seem like i'm in a bad mood, then it might be a good idea to do that
-sometimes when i say i don't wanna talk about something, i really do wanna talk about it
--a lot of times i don't want to tell you because i know you'll judge me for it and make me feel bad about it
--there are times when i just don't wanna tell you because i know i'll get upset talking about it
-if i want your opinion, i'll ask for it. that doesn't mean when i tell you "well i'm thinking about blah blah blah" you say "omg what a dumb idea" right off the bat.
-i'm perfectly capable of running my own life--whether or not you people believe that--so don't tell me what to do and act like i don't know what the hell i'm doing.
-if you say "well if you need this or that sometime, i can help you" and you honestly say it and i tell you i'm gonna hold you up to it, you better keep your promise
-honestly, when i tell you to stop talking about blood or something or i will pass out, i'm not saying it to get you to shut up
-i would lay down my life for my family and my real friends and i would do almost anything imaginable for them
-i think i can remember more words to songs than math equations
-don't tell me you like me to try to get my respect or something you want because i hate fake people and i'll lose all respect i had for you and you don't wanna piss crazy people off
--don't tell me you like me when you don't
-- if i ask you, it's probably because you're being an asshole to me and i'm wondering if you're being honest
-if it's not obvious, it's hard for me to read people's real intentions sometimes
-do not message me if you're some 40 year old weirdo wanting to have sex with me and ask for it. even though i like older guys, i don't like them THAT old.
-i've also learned to never go to bed angry at someone because when they're gone, you can't take back what you said/did
--i learned that the hard way
-i respect your opinion, but i don't always agree with it
--this means i'm not gonna be a bitch and say "you're wrong" when you state your opinion. opinions are what someone thinks, not what was a proven fact.
-i will accept you for who you are and how you act, not what you have or what i can get from you
-i'm a Baha'i. don't know what it is, look it up
-i haven't gone a week without experiencing something completely and totally life changing
--all these things have helped me be who i am today
---therefore, i am not the same person you think you knew all those years ago
-i take life on a minute to minute basis because things always seem to get thrown in the mix that are unplanned
RIP Mom 1948-2007
i will miss you a lot
i hope there's a day when i'll see you again
even though we always fought, we both knew that we loved each other
i hope you're better off where you are now, whether there really is another side or if you're just gone and out of pain
RIP Jazzy 1997--2009
I miss you already, baby girl <3