brenda!™ [r.i.p jace <3]
Brenda Wickham
i am the atom bomb; i am your chosen one.

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17 years old
[316] El Dorado, Kansas
United States



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General
"Who are you to judge the life I live? I know I'm not perfect, and I don't live to be. But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean."
-Bob Marley [r.i.p.<3]




living & loving.
it's what i do.

i'm in ravenclaw!

[my fanfiction]
[my photography]
[trainor_fans co-mod]
[great advice]

[me on the news] [may 16, 2004]
Music
Green Day is my most favorite band in the entire world. I really don't care what you think of them, because it doesn't change how I feel. Yes, American Idiot was my first album by them, but I'm working on collecting the rest of their albums. You don't have to have been a fan from the beginning to be a true fan. They literally changed my life and made me who I am today, and they help me when I'm down or confused or whatever. I don't care how old they are, how they dress, how they look, who they're dating; to me, they're Green Day and they're fucking amazing. No, I honestly don't think Billie Joe is all that "hot." But I do think he's an extremely respectable and amazing guy with a wonderful talent. Personally, though, I do idolize Tré Cool, just because I can relate to him so well. I love all three members of the band equally, though, because they're all amazing and inspirational in every way possible. And if you wanna hate on them, you might as well block me now.
Fall Out Boy, My Chemical Romance, Atreyu, The Used, and Chiodos are my second favorites. Call me emo, I don't give a shit. Their words touch my heart and their music keeps me sane. I really don't care what they look like, or about the latest drama on them. I don't give a shit if you think they've "gone softer" over the years or whatever. What their words have done for my heart and for so many others in the world is what will stick with me forever.
I have all the respect in the world for those six bands.<3
?(+44)
-2Pac
?3OH!3
-12 Stones
-30 Seconds To Mars
?Across Five Aprils
-A Day To Remember
-Against All Authority
-The Agony Scene
-Aiden
-AFI
-Angels and Airwaves
-Anti-Flag
?Atreyu
?Avenged Sevenfold
-Bayside
-The Beatles
-Billy Talent
-Black Sabbath
-Bleed The Dream
?Blink-182
?Bloodhound Gang
?Blue October
-Bowling For Soup
-Box Car Racer
-Brand New
?Breaking Benjamin
-Bullet For My Valentine
-The Casualties
?Chevelle
?Chiodos
-The Clash
-Cobra Starship
-Coheed and Cambria
-Crossfade
-D-12
?Dance Gavin Dance
?David Melillo
-Death Cab For Cutie
-Dethklok
-The Donnas
-Drowning Pool [when they had Dave Williams]
-Eagles of Death Metal
-Eighteen Visions
-Elvis Presley
?Eminem
?Escape The Fate
-Evanescence
-Eve 6
-Everclear
-The Exies
?Fall Out Boy
-FeFe Dobson
-Five Finger Death Punch
?Flyleaf
?Foo Fighters
-Fort Minor
?Framing Hanely
-Good Charlotte
-Greeley Estates
?Green Day
-Gwen Stefani
-Gym Class Heroes
-Hawthorne Heights
-Head Automatica
-Hellogoodbye
-Holiday
?Hollywood Undead
?Hoobastank
?Incubus
-Jay-Z
-Jimmy Eat World
-John Mayer
-Johnny Cash
?Jon Lajoie
-Kanye West
-Kelly
-Kelly Osbourne
-Kill Hannah
-Kittie
-Lil' Wayne
-Lil' Wyte
-Limp Bizkit
-Linkin Park
-Lostprophets
-Ludacris
-Marilyn Manson
-Me First and The Gimme Gimmes
-Michael Bublé
-Mike Jones
?Mindless Self Indulgence
-Missy Elliot
-Motion City Soundtrack
?My Chemical Romance
-MXPX
-Nelly
-The Network
-Nickelback
-Nirvana
-No Doubt
-NOFX
-Oasis
?The Offspring
-Ozzy Osbourne
-Papa Roach
-Paramore
-Paul Wall
-Pink
-PlayRadioPlay!
-P.O.D.
-Puddle of Mudd
?Rancid
-The Rasmus
-Red Hot Chili Peppers
-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
?Reggie and The Full Effect
?Rise Against
-Seether
-Senses Fail
-Sevendust
-Silverstein
-Simple Plan
-Skillet
-Slipknot
-Snoop Dogg
-SPM
-Stain'd
-Story Of The Year [first album]
-Straylight Run
-Stutterfly
-Sum 41
-t.A.T.u.
?Taking Back Sunday
-Taylor Hawkins & The Coattail Riders
-Tenacious D
-The Color Fred
-Thalia Massacre
?Three Days Grace
-Thrice
-The Transplants
-Trapt
-Underoath
-Unwritten Law
?The Used
-Usher
-Velvet Revolver
-Yellowcard
-Zombies Ate My Neighbors



Movies
Television
&
Books

poets:
william shakespeare.
sylvia plath.
Heroes
besides spider-man, the joker, & steel ralph;

<3
"He did that for us."
Forever <3.

My Sister & Nephew, Angie & Ryan
My Sister & Nephew.
These two mean so much to me. My nephew is more like a little brother, and even though Angie has been like a mom to me for a long time, I appreciate it all. She's always been there for me and been trying to give me what's best, and I can't ever repay her enough for that. When there's hardly no one left, Angie and Ryan are still there. And that's why they're two of the most important people in my life. I love them to death and I'd be so lost without them. They'll never know how much I love them.

My BFEAH [Best Friend Even After Hollywood], Abby [Crabby]
My BFEAH, Crabby.
We're Crabby and Squishy,
[or Abby and Brenda.]

This girl means the world to me. We may be 1,200 miles apart for all but once or twice in the year, but that doesn't even matter, because we're still best friends at heart, and we've always got each other's backs, no matter how far away we are from each other. We have so many inside jokes, we can't even remember all of them half the time. She's always there for me, and I'm always here for her. We go through our own battles when we're apart, and our own struggles, but we talk to each other and every single time, we realize how alike we are and how much of the same stuff we have to go through. We may seem like total opposites, but we're actually just alike if you get to know us. We bring out the crazy side in each other, and it doesn't even matter what we're doing, we always make it fun. We've been best friends since 8th grade, and always shared the same dream of becoming famous one day, even if it doesn't happen. Which is why we're Best Friends Even After Hollywood. We have so many good memories together, and we have bad ones, too. We've cried together, laughed together, beat the shit out of each other, shared hangovers, shared bongs, shared boyfriends & ex's, and shared beds. But through it all, nothing ever changed. We may change as people, but when we're together, we're just as close as ever, no matter how long we've been apart.
I hate that I only get to see her once or twice a year, and that her mom hates me and won't let me talk to her (even though she does anyway :]), but I love her to death, and I'll never have another best friend like her. I don't care how close I am to someone, I'll always be closest to her, and my feelings for her won't ever change. When we're together, we're inseparable. We'd do anything for each other, and if you hurt one of us, you'd better watch out for the other. I'd kill for her, and I know she'd do the same for me.
I know that, no matter what happens, we'll always be BFEAH. I love her. =] ?

my other half, levi <3
Levi ?
? since 10.05.08 ?

Levi is my boyfriend, my best friend, and my other half. Without him, I honestly feel incomplete, like I'm missing something. I tell him everything, and he listens. I've cried to him, and I've laughed with him. We went through a lot together in the 5 months we knew each other before we started dating. I think I always knew I'd end up with him eventually. He waited for me through some tough times, and somehow never gave up on me, even when I fucked him over time and time again. I can never thank him enough for that. He picked up the pieces of me numerous times, and has always accepted me the way I am. He's never asked me to change anything about myself. I put him through some hell for a while, mainly because I didn't believe he'd stick through it, or that he'd really stay. But he did. And that only proved to me what I already knew - he loves me. He treats me so well, and he'd do anything for me, even when I'm bitchy and don't deserve any of it. He gives me the attention I've always needed, and the love I've always longed for. He makes me feel so loved and needed and special. He can make me laugh when no one else can, and he makes me laugh like no one else ever could. I feel so comfortable around him, like I can be myself without hesitation. We have so many good memories and have so much fun together. We're alike in enough ways that we kind of just complete each other. And yeah, we've been in fights... tons of fights. We've said some pretty harsh things, and done some even dumber things. But they only ended up bringing us together even more. We've been stupid, but we forgive each other for it, and we try to just forget about it. Because that's in the past. People may question us, but that doesn't matter to me. I don't care what he looks like or what you think of him; I like his image and I love everything about him and he's perfect to me. Right now, we're truly in love. And it's real.
I want to be with him for a long time. I'm tired of getting hurt and left by people I trust, and for now, he's the only person I feel I can trust. He's the only person I can go to about anything. He's the only person that isn't going to turn his back on me.
I know I don't treat him right sometimes, and I'll always be afraid that he's going to find someone better and leave me for someone who deserves him, but for now, he's mine, and I'm going to show him that I love him the best that I can, even if times get rough every now and then.
I think we were made for each other. He's my other half, and I wouldn't trade him, or a moment with him, for the world.
i love him.

two halves make a whole ?


our song: "my never" by blue october

My favorite crew to hang with.<3 [Dakota & Jace]
My Favorite Crew:
Dakota & Jace <3
These are two of the coolest kids you could ever meet. They are my best friends in Eureka, and the times we had together will always be remembered. I miss being around them more than anything.

Now that Jace is gone, things will never be the same. Thank God I still have Dakota, though.

Jace
Jace was so amazing. He was always the kid to be responsible; sure, he was the class clown, but he never drank or smoked... He thought that stuff was stupid and pointless, but he didn't criticize others for doing it. He lived life to the fullest every day and loved every second of it. Yet his life was taken away from him. It's not fair, but I believe it was his time. Everyone wanted so much more time with him, so many more memories and laughs, but all we can do now is cherish what we have and remember what we had and be grateful for it. I deeply regret not taking any more action than I did to see Jace before he died, but I know he knew I loved him to death, and I believe he still knows that. He was so amazing. He could make anyone laugh, and that was all he wanted to do. He could cheer you up in the worst of times, and he was just a joy to be around. He didn't have any enemies; he didn't even have any kids who didn't like him. He lived life to the fullest and took advantage of every moment of every day. He will never be forgotten, and we will never stop missing him. This kid was one of my best, closest friends, and there's no way I will ever forget him or ever stop missing him and loving him. Most of my best memories are of things with him, and those are what are going to stick in my heart permanently. I know for a fact that he is in a better place now, because there's no possible way he couldn't be. Things will never be the same without him.

ily & imy, jace, and that will never change. i'll see you again someday...

r.i.p.
jace derick ross
7.7.92 - 6.20.08

Dakota
But until then, I still have Dakota, and he's cool as hell and amazingly fun to be around. He does stupid shit sometimes, but who doesn't? He's hilarious and cool, and when he wants to do something, he does it and doesn't let anything get in his way. He's determined and smart, and he can make just about anyone laugh. Not to mention, he's hella talented. He's always been there when I needed him most, and I couldn't have gotten past the hard times without him. Most of my best memories involve him. He's a great friend and a good guy all around, and his friendship means more to me than anything. I'd be pretty damn lost without this kid. :]

My Idols: Green Day, Fall Out Boy, & My Chemical Romance
My Idols.
Dane Cook. =D
Dane Cook!
Sam & Spencer! (Jennette & Jerry)
& spencer and sam, of course :]



& all my friends,
who keep me going each day:
from eureka to el dorado;
the late nights,
and the long days;
the phone calls,
and all the texts.
the inside jokes,
and the outside laughs.
i'd do anything for you.
you know who you are.
thank you<3



[signs = squishylove]

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Status:In a Relationship
Here for:Serious Relationships, Friends
Orientation:Straight
Hometown:Eureka<3
Body type:5' 3" / Average
Ethnicity:White / Caucasian
Religion:Christian - other
Zodiac Sign:Scorpio
Children:Expecting
Education:High school
Occupation:McDonald's Crew & Student
Income:Less than $30,000

   brenda!™ [r.i.p jace <3]'s Schools
El Dorado High
El Dorado, KS
Graduated: N/A
Degree: High School Diploma
 

2008 to Present
Arkansas City High
Arkansas City,KS
Graduated: N/A
Student status: Alumni
Degree: High School Diploma
Major: not fitting in.
Clubs: Coping with Foster Care (yes, it's really a club here)
 

2007 to 2007
Eureka Jr/sr High
Eureka,Kansas
Graduated: N/A
Degree: High School Diploma
Major: slacking.
Clubs: Drama Club; S.T.O.M.P.
 

2004 to 2007

   brenda!™ [r.i.p jace <3]'s Companies
McDonald's
El Dorado, Kansas US
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January 2008 - present



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About me:
& just when i think i'll never feel whole again.
it took me this long to realize
i love you, i always have, and i always will.
ily, baby!







November 18, 1991 at 11:04 p.m.:
Charm, Child, Originator, Perfectionist, Enigma,
Imagination, Ruler, Determination, Intensity.








My name is
Brenda Kay Wickham.
& i miss jace more than anything.
Many people enjoy calling me:
• Squishy
• Brenda-Over
• Fuckin' Brenda!
Call me whatever the hell you wanna call me.
"I believe whatever doesn't kill you, simply makes you... stranger."
I'm 17 and you may or may not be able to tell when you talk to me.
My best friend lives in Vegas and I miss her like crazy. No one could ever replace her.
I have an amazing boyfriend who I love with all my heart. ♥ since 10.05.08 ♥
I'm a junior at EHS, but my heart remains in Eureka.
I've been working at McDonald's since January '08. It's a love/hate kinda job.
I'm a stoner.
The only thing I'm good at is writing. I'm okay with that :]
It's what I spend the majority of my time doing currently.
I also watch iCarly religiously.
I'm sarcastic so much it often times gets me in trouble.
& I really don't care about much at all, which also gets me in trouble sometimes.
I have a website for all my writing now: squishycoolfiction.webs.com !
Wanna know something else? Just ask.

there are nights
when i bump into strangers
on empty streets;
where i need you to take my hair
in your fist
or a car to hit me.
anything.











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"i'll tell you the worst in me, and try to give you the best of me...
because... you don't deserve any less."

[reflections of a skyline]
i love you.



....

..

Who I'd like to meet:
I've already met my other half.<3
[ ♥ 10.05.08 ♥ ]
I'd like to meet more girls that I can stand
and more boys that crack me up.
Some more rad-as-hell stoners.
More of the kids who are themselves,
and who don't take shit from anyone,
or give a fuck about what others think.
Someone that needs me as much as I need them,
& that will never leave me.
I just love meeting new people
So give me a chance.
i just don't want to be alone.

[one down, Tré Cool to go.]



& jesus christ.<3






This is my nephew and guardian angel, Tylar.
One day, he and I will meet again,
and we'll play House and eat Jell-O all day long.
God, I miss this boy...
"And I will see you someday again in the clouds."

R.I.P.
Tylar Dee Brown
April 28th, 1998 - March 10, 2002
..
R.I.P.

† Jayne Knight - 10.31.03
† Lloyd Wherrell - 5.14.04
† Elizabeth Wherrell - 10.18.04
† Mikie Colonnese - 6.11.07
† Rachel Yost - 7.15.07
† Jace Ross<3 - 6.20.08
† Mr. Ford - 9.24.08




"mad girl's love song"
sylvia plath


I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)





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Mar 19 2009 3:15 PM

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Mar 19 2009 3:14 PM

hi thanks for accepting me.. my name is Erika i live in Devils lake ND... i like too do alot of things for fun like hang out with friends, and my ex that lives with me.., watch movies, listen to music, camping, fishing, playing sports, swimming, concerts, video games... texting...

i like too chat with new people and try too get too know new people... if you want you dont haft too but you can text me too chat 1701-351-9180
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Mar 10 2009 8:20 AM

Thank you for adding us to your Myspace friends. If you haven't already, come by our site and join up.

-Liz from Nimrod Street
Heather Horror™





Mar 2 2009 7:02 PM

it was really nice. it just started melting today. our schools didn't get out for the roads, but I stayed home anyway cause I still feel like crap.
Heather Horror™





Mar 1 2009 5:32 AM

haha, it had to happen at some point.
it's just a stupid cold.
dude, it is snowing so much here right now. it's ridiculous.
lol
-lovebear♥!





Mar 1 2009 4:56 AM

I'm sowwy.
I don't/can't work cause I'm to yunng.
I wan't to though
but from what I hear, I'm not going to when I do start [if that makes any sense]

So you work at Mcy D's righht?
Heather Horror™





Feb 28 2009 7:30 PM

Sounds awesome. :]
I don't think I can do that at my school. I still have three years to go. middle school went by pretty fast, and just these past couple weeks have gone by really quickly.

but anyway, I'm sick atm, and it really sucks. I've only been sick like twice this whole school year.
lol
-lovebear♥!





Feb 28 2009 10:39 AM

ha yeahh no problem i would of cmmnted more but my computer is fucking shitty as hell and was taking foooo evur to load.

thats where i get all my spiderman shirt ahah XD that shirt is amazing though, im jealous >.
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and I'm actually getting ready fer bed just got done talkinng to my frann Jawsh O'roke. [[: tieeeurrhhhhhhhd as fuhkk.

What about you?
daniellasaur





Feb 28 2009 6:41 AM

okay seriously...i love that you have spongebob's extra credit assignment as your comment box text XD is it me, or has spongebob not as good as it used to be? D:
Heather Horror™





Feb 26 2009 3:12 AM

oh yeah? how do you get to do that?
Heather Horror™





Feb 24 2009 11:14 PM

Well, mostly I mean the school year. lol
I'm sick of ninth grade tbh. I'm pretty sure sophomore year will be much better.
I have a long distance boyfriend too that I get to meet next year.
:]
Heather Horror™





Feb 23 2009 10:30 PM

Really great actually. I'm just ready for this year to be over, seriously.
Heather Horror™





Feb 23 2009 8:01 PM

How have things been for you lately? :D
Heather Horror™





Feb 22 2009 3:06 AM

hell there.
:]
janelle♥





Feb 21 2009 4:45 PM

aw thanks girly =]!! hows ecology by the way haha, i dropped that class
Kaitlin





Feb 16 2009 11:01 PM

I mostly like how it makes me not think about shit that's bothering me. It's so nice. My brother had been trying to get me to do it for a while but I didn't want to, and then stuff happened and I wanted to be able to feel better... so I tried it.
ksu_fan01





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Feb 13 2009 4:24 AM

So I figure Myspace is a whole lot easier than Twitter, haha. I've been smoking since a week or two before Christmas. I love it now, hahaha.
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Feb 10 2009 11:31 PM

I love icarly too.
and ur profile its the shit!
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