About me:
Aşk Me Not. For I am not to be loved at all.
This is me. dunno if i know you, and i don't know what you think you know about me. if there is anything to need to know, it is that i live and learn from everything around me, the good times and the bad. both fortunately and otherwise, it is in suffering that we learn the most about ourselves and the world around us. and i take that to heart. We are meant to live this life, not for others, and not for anything more than to learn who we are, what greater purpose than to know ones true existence. but truly an individuals self is never to be truly comprehended if we so devote ourselves to absorbing every moment and shifting with it. Its evolution baby, and we are making it our own. And if it isn't worth loving yourself for, then it isn't worth having. I choose to love everyone, and only resent in people the resentment of themselves. We live in a beautiful world, and anyone not willing to put forth the effort to make change, honestly isn't worth my time. I'm sorry if I offend you, I just tell it like I see it. Self Awareness isn't something I focus on. I don't deny regret, but I also do not idealize in the idea of trying to do something that is impossible. If I could change so many things in my past, I would, but I can't and so I live with the scars, and they remind me who I have been, and who I am becoming in spite of it. I adore art, and creativity, no matter the canvas. There is creation in painting and singing as much as there is in war. I may not say it often enough, but I love and appreciate you for who you are, and you can tell by the fact that I associate myself with you. Because as egotistical as it may be, I choose to only surround myself with people who matter. I'm sorry if I love you but don't manage to get around enough to prove it. I have this undying unconditional love for my family that you will never see, and I wont apologize for it since it can't be changed. Blood is thicker than water, and I was raised on blood, we are warriors, we are intolerant of injustice. If something doesn't suit my fancy, I change it, and make it so. Thats all there is to it. I want to write, I Want to Run, and I want to tell the world all about it someday, so if you feel that I've neglected the truth, or the whole story, just be patient, and someday you'll get the whole novel. Until then, I abide by the three rules of life, Keep Smiling, and Never tell all you know.
Who I'd like to meet:
If you are willing to bleed for insight, to suffer for knowledge, and sit in silence for clarity. You are all i will ever need.
