The power to be and see so much more than that which is in front of me, it is something I've never experienced before. Where did this recognition come from? What is the direction in which I go? I have no answers, I do not know, but I stand up tall and consider the love I feel in my life and I no longer feel so small. I have a light, a shining star that was placed in my heart from afar. I am a good person and I know good people and the lives we have together are the most precious and spiritual thing that there is ... I smile because life is must too short and those around me are worth the effort and reward ... cause when I smile they smile at me.
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And as calm as the day begins, I've found that things happen despite my best resolve to remain calm and neutral and that shit splatters and people get dirty despite the precautions. But If you think I'm the kind of person who falls apart because of circumstances, I can assure you that I am made of tougher stuff ... make mistakes, am quite human but remain a loving and positive person who believes things happen for a reason even when we don't want them to ... Back where I belong, I continue to cruise with my shields up - safer that way. But don't count me out ... I'm happy to be a part of this wild and wacky life and have no intention of letting go of the rope anytime soon and I don't expect you to either.
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There are people I’ve met who are unique and wonderful just by the mere fact that they seem to be able to live their lives to reveal the fantastic in the ordinary. They see the purity and the beauty in the world and are surprised and confused when their visions are somehow ruined or shattered by those like myself who are much too jaded and cynical. I find that I might actually represent the underside of perfectionism – that some of these ‘pure of heart’ types are attracted to my dark side – to the emotional turmoil and corruption that I carry deep inside of myself. That being said I firmly believe that for each of us there is somebody who is unique to me/you only – a soulmate worthy of much and more because they are, by their particular nature, that one thing that makes me, you and us exceptional. My heroes are people who understand me, who accept me and who look beyond my trepidations, fears, and means of trying to keep others from knowing me ... they love and love unconditionally without prejudice and I do them. Don't judge me by the actions of a frightened person ... love me because I am capable of great things because of you and because life is short and few share deeply and with the soul of Angels.
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PATRICIA sometimes I like to look dull and respectable cuz it means no one follows me home and discovers the landing site ... Posted 52 seconds ago view more
Who I'd like to meet: I have discovered that SERENITY is born of CONFIDENCE. And that I can not change the past but I can reflect those emotions - good emotions - into my future and others. Love is the music of my dreams, the stealer of my heart and the healer of my soul.
I have a life outside of this forum. I am a complete person in my own world. But with everything in life there are glitches and mis-steps and awkward moments that conspire to trip and deform once golden moments. I am a woman-in-waiting ... a person living within an interrupted story. I have learned a hard lessen in life ... I understand and control so little and have power over things of small importance except my ability to breathe in and breathe out. Full of paradox and ambivalence; limpid and transparent I might appear to some but I have dimenions that beckon people into my little corner of the world because ... I AM GOLDEN despite my circumstances. Don't dismiss me as vulgar, uninspiring or vapid beyond the norm and please don't reduce who I am because of who you might think you are. I am worth more to me than a thousand diamond rings are to hollow marriages - who needs glitch and tinsel ... WAIT A MINUTE! I will do something I've not done since I was a little gurl ... I will put drippy, so-crass tinsel on my Christmas tree this year to celebrate my history, my youth and those who forever had a wicked sense of humour and whimsy despite our financial and/or personal circumstances. Viva la difference my beautiful ones!
WHY I'M HERE AND A LITTLE ABOUT ME: Insanity, comedy, intrigue, infidelity, promiscuity, ignorance, vice, and general bad behaviour – this is where I wanna hang my hat … MYSPACE! Now if you are looking for editorialists, political commentators, creative writers, dramatic and literary critics, fellow artists, friends and foes … well you might just find them like hidden gems in among my people. They are good people and I carry them with me like lucky talismans (I’d better get me a rabbits foot with the damned luck you guys have brought me lately … just kiddin’). My interests are very plain. I am always interested in keeping one foot in reality and still be able to touch upon fantasy with all it's intricate and engaging patterns that make life that much more interesting! I am happiest just outside of the spotlight but am not too shy to project a persona of a woman with different kinds of resonant and unsettling paradoxes.
I tend to think of myself as a 'postmodern masterpiece' that builds on its own little twists and turns - coming together to reveal a blindingly clear portrait of a woman with the 'spiritual' ramifications of constantly living in a disjointed society - a must read for all you in this wild, wild world! Overall - my background is CANADIAN mongrel! Here are the various parts: French Canadian, Scottish, Irish, Welsh, Canadian Aboriginal, obviously some Viking from wayyyyyyyyyyyyy back when. Canadian since Cartier came over from France ... 1600s. I am a friendly faced android excited by buttons and bright lights. I don't always operate in Earth's time zone or dimension. I am a woman/child with ambiguous sexual tendencies - loaded with charisma! I twitch with nervous energy and can be counted on to appear at the first sign of friends enjoying a good time together. Awww. I was born a redhead & have kinda allowed my natural burnished red/gold blonde to return over these past months as well as allowed it to grow long once again! It pleases me and makes me smile now - I can always don a wig or two to play a part for the camera - right now thought I AM GOLDEN! I embrace that which I once fought so hard to deny - the sun, the moon, the earth and the sky. All those marvelously wonderfuly things that inspire me and take my imagination into reality! I've learned to love again, I've learned to be a person I like because I don't see myself as a victim but as a strong person, who can make mistakes like anybody else but I won't allow myself to be a victim to other peoples interpretation of circumstances - I AM A GOOD PERSON & I prove it everyday I get up and open the curtains and smile into the light! I do enjoy people, although I am content to play on my own from time to time and like most people who are beginning to grasp hold of life once again, I’d much rather hold the strings and make the puppet dance than worry about somebody cutting the strings from above and having me fall flat on my face. This way I am responsible for my own efforts and I don't have to look to others for validation of who I am. WHATEVER haha. SMILE and remember that we only go around once (I'm shur we do come back again ... energy is ever forceful & transient ... life never ends truly) but let's make it count and take what is only the best of us, of each other and make it well worth the journey ... I said to my Mother over the phone the night before she passed away, "Grow old along with me ... the best is yet to be." An old saying but damnit it holds true in my case! SMILE
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John the comment was not directed at you but directed at a few others that have bin stupid lately and I wouldn't let them be 'friends' on my site ... sorry I'd meant that to be an open comment ... apologies to you my dear friend
"I am and will always be a LADY ... no dirty talk for this gal "
Where in the heck did all that come from? Next time around, try telling me something that I don't know ... are you fully awake or half awake sis??? ..haha
Hey there little sis...can't wait to hear from you all about the video shoot...how excited I am for you...have a wondeful day and behave yourself...haha :)
May the Love Of A Child Touch Your Heart... A Child's arms may hold you, A gentle touch upon your arm, Or just a cozy feeling inside... They will provide comfort in times of need and open our eyes to see... They give Love Unconditionally with no expectations in return... Soaked with the power of love, light and enough power to make the whole world we live in a better and happier place... Their simple ways will always open the world to a new understanding and a new hope...
Helen May Faith, Hope & Love always be your Treasures.... ~John~
Hello HELEN SAMMI! You are one heck of an inspriation to me! My mom in law is of scottish decent and father inlaw was british.. What a combination, but peple from the old country sure do know how to do life! Here's to you young lassie! xoxoxox
