I'm Lilly, and I love the taste of strawberry chicken. And I also give all my friends the chance to rag on me and get ragged on. Let the games begin people.
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Keep it refrigerated and it will keep for a while. I'm not really sure how long malt keeps. It's not like normal beer. Just drink it. Have a good time.
Of course we shall! After we press it the first time there will be no world. We will reset everything in the negatives exactly .011 degrees lower than the positive settings, and press it again, and create new life!
I hate kids. But I love them to death, they are adorable. Contradiction? Welcome to my world. The world is full of inconsistencies, and this is one of the lesser ones.
Honestly, though, I wonder about him. My parent's don't like him. he's an arrogant ass. But something about him is loveable. I'm not sure what. I know if I die I'm not going to heaven, if there is a heaven.
They do pay well. What I was doing before paid ten dollars an hour. To stand outside with signs two or three days a week. Good shit. And as for the church setting, I believe in God. It ends there. And everyone there knows that and they're ok with it. And a job is a job at this point, even if it's for volunteer hours, as I need them to keep my scholarship.
They think they can and still will touch it. Nothing I have is safe. And I have tried to get a job. I have had three so far. I tried to get another, but nothing is working with this stupid economy. And I leave in about five weeks anyway, no one will hire me for just that period of time. I will try one thing, because I've worked temporarily for Lifepoint church before. Pays well.
Oh, I see. My guy friend doesn't think he is cute because he is deathly ill. When he was the picture of health he thought he was but was never stuck up about it. But now he is so insecure. Now Blake, on the other hand, is ridiculous. He thinks he is awesome, and never lets a chance to show he thinks that pass by. Kind of annoying, that.
My brother overstepped his bounds and told my parents what was in my phone, which he shouldn't have been looking in in the first place. This drove my mother stark raving mad. Etc., etc., etc. Ridiculousness. The usual parent bullshit. Only x4658389493846834. You know.
Wow, we use our living room every night. Tonight, I don't know what I'm doing. But I'm not really feeling like I want to go anywhere, even though people are asking me. Since I had to leave things have changed. All while I was gone I was depressed, nothing seemed airy and light as usual. Now that I'm home, at the request of both my mom and dad, things are going ok. We're sharing things again. It will never be the same but I like it. I love my family so much. I hated not being able to be here.
So, paint two masterpieces on one canvas. Be a doctor, and play that clarinet. My sister went to therapy for several years. She needed help eating and doing some other things. The therapist used music. It worked magic. You could be both; you don't have to be the kind of doctor who uses needles and things that bother you. There's a whole world of medicine out there. And people will always need new therapists who really care. And music therapy is a wonderful way to reach a child and to influence them toward the arts.
Sounds like me. I cant stand needles. And I cant stand to watch kids suffer through things they dont deserve. Thats why I want to be a doctor. To try to fix them. To try to change something. Even if I couldn't do it all, which no one could, I could do something to help. Even if I didn't make any big discoveries, even if my name wasn't a household name, even if only my patients knew who I was, even if I never got a thanks, I would know that maybe I helped ease someone's pain. Maybe I helped them live a fuller life. Isn't that what's important, isn't that why most people become doctors, because they care and have a vision?
Stroke? Wow, it's scary to think things like that can happen at our age. But who's to say you can't be a doctor anymore? If you want it bad enough there's always a way. The only thing stopping us is us. You still could be. It might be extra work, but I bet you anything you could be a damn good doctor someday.
Music, very nice. What is it that you do? And I'm already on my plan B, so I might need a plan C. Plan A was BioChem. I wanted to be a physician but not really practice. Mostly I wanted to research. According to a good friend of mine I need to go to medical school; apparently that's my best fit. I think so too, but becoming a lawyer seems my only path at this time. I have no idea what plan C would be. Something to make me lots of money that will turn me into something I am not and probably don't want to be anyway, since that seems to be what careers are - judging by the examples I've come into contact with in my life. Perhaps Lit. I love writing. It's a passion.
Haha, like I said, stupid question. And I love watching TV with my family, even if it's something really stupid. I just like being there with them. And I'm going to Ave Maria University in Ave Maria. It's about three hours South from here, close to Naples and Immokalee. It's a Roman Catholic liberal arts college. I'm not going for the Catholic part. Catholicism bothers me. I'm going because I want to be a lawyer and their philosophy department is amazing because liberal arts is philosophy, and their ethics are great.
Stupid question: moving out with Blake or your boyfriend? And thanks, when I come home for college I might take you up on that.
No, no 'fun' time with Blake haha. Fun time with mom and dad sleeping on the couch through a James Bond movie we've all seen a trillion times is so much better.
Thanks a lot, really. But I am home now and we've more or less agreed not to talk about it any more. And mom's cooking steaks so things couldn't be that bad right now.
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No, no 'fun' time with Blake haha. Fun time with mom and dad sleeping on the couch through a James Bond movie we've all seen a trillion times is so much better.
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