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KOBE ALLEN CLARK
MAY 22, 2001 - DECEMBER 18, 2001
"I died of a broken heart CHF"
Congenital heart defects are malformations of the heart that occur before birth. Put simply, some part of the heart did not develop properly in the womb and the functioning of the heart has been affected. Congenital heart defects, also known as congenital cardiovascular malformations or CCVMs, are rare. Although they are not found only in premature babies, some heart defects may put a baby at risk for premature birth.
Despite advances in ultrasound and other imaging technologies, congenital heart defects usually only become apparent after birth. When premature babies are born with these types of heart problems, treatment is often complicated by the baby’s immaturity and small size, the relative fragility of the premature baby, and other coexisting complications of prematurity.
Congenital heart defects have varying degrees of severity. Some malformations are minor and only mildly affect heart function. Others are more serious.
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Bipolar
This writing is very special
To make you all aware
To teach you of a disease
Most people don't like to share
Bipolar is what I speak of
It's more common than you know
For most of us that have this
On the outside, It doesn't show
We're not all crazy
We are really alot like you
Just some of have trouble
Contolling things we do
We keep ourselves in counseling
Medication is a must
The most important part of treatment
Is having friends we can trust
If you have a friend
Who suffers from this disease
Try to be more patient
Be understanding of their needs
One minute they may hate you
The next they may forget
They always manage to do things
They often will regret
Just please hold on
For it's a roller coaster they ride
Always be a true friend
No matter what they decide
© 2004 Denise Clark
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I am a disabled mother of 2 and I have always tried to do what I could no matter how small to support breast cancer, St Judes, animal cruelty and domestic violence. These are just a few of the many causes that need your help. This MySpace page is for posting events you can help and to show the many causes I support. I am a survivor of domestic abuse, although the events in my life were not as serious as some it still affects you for the rest of your life and it could of potentially been fatal to me and I hope you will do all you can to help. Whether it be spreading the word or making a donation (no matter how small) to a charity of your choice.
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I am going to try to tell you all a little about me and then I will eventually get everything typed in here. I am a 32 year old that has battled depression, anxiety and suicidal tendencies since I was about 11 years old. When I was 17 I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. I made many bad decisions in my life that turned out to be triggers for my depression and suicidal thoughts and attempts. In my mid 20's I finally got an officially diagnosis of Bipolar and was placed on medication to control it and it does help to a point. I was also a cutter and have many scars and anyone out there has been through this understands the reasons of inflicting pain to oneself. I have attempted suicide about 6-8 times and NO it was not for attention I truly wanted to die and I occasionally have thoughts especially when things get to hard to deal with. I will explain more as I add to this there is so much to tell and so much to talk about I honestly do not know where to start. I like to make people aware of these things and try to make them understand the reasoning and the thoughts behind suicide. A lot of people say Why didn't they talk to me? , I didn't even know anything was wrong or do not recognize the signs or they choose to ignore them even though I am still dealing with my own emotions and still trying to deal with mistakes I have made I hope that I can help at least one person. I think it helps me to speak out about it because I am afraid to talk to my family or friends because their reaction is, your stupid and I just want them to understand how hopeless and helpless I feel at times and some of my family will probably read this for the first time on here. i have lost several members of my family to suicide so I have been on both sides. I am still dealing with the "cutting" issue but I do try and control it but it is hard sometimes. If anyone has questions or comments or just wants to talk you can send me a message on here, now on to the next issue.
These events are not in the order of which they happened in my life I just wanted to tell them and explain why I try to help what I can and what I have been through and what I am going through now. When I was about 20 I had a mail friend that I had known for a while and went out with him occasionally, he supplied me with drugs that I was doing at that time, don't get me wrong I did not have a serious addiction where I was spending all my money. Everything I did I got for free but I still developed a problem with speed at one point in my life it started at about 15 yrs old. Anyways I had moved away and had not seen him in a while so decided to go for a visit, No drugs this time, i had quit just wanted to visit an old friend I stayed all night because I lived a couple hours away, it ended up being one of the biggest mistakes I ever made, he raped me and I never spoke to him again, when I got back home I talked to a counselor about pressing charges and he said "No one will believe you" . You dated this guy before so no one is going to believe he raped you and I have had to deal with that for the rest of my life it is scary that someone so close to you that has never shown any type of violence or anything would just out of the blue force himself on you and i hope no one ha to go through that ever but unfortunately it does happen a lot, more often that you think.
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I am going to be be somewhat brief in this section because there is so much I could type here but I am just going to tell a little about each situation. First let me say I do have a bad temper and anger problems sometimes, a short fuse however that was no reason for me to be treated like I was. The first abusive relationship I was in was I think around 16 yrs old. The guy I dated then was much bigger than me and he would pick me up by my neck and push me around he was also somewhat sexual abusive (forcing me to do things I did not want to do) and mentally abusive, when he would go to work he would lock me in his room because he didn't want me talking to his room mates, I couldn't go to the bathroom, eat, drink or anything until he got home. Then at 18 I started dating a man that was twice my age and he ended up being very controlling and jealous, there is so much i could tell you about this relationship but a I am just going to tell about a few instances. the first sign that I knew he had a really bad temper was we were at a hotel with my family celebrating my mothers birthday and there were some people outside that made him angry and he pulled out a gun and flashed it at them, of course he got arrested and the gun was confiscated. I eventually found out he was married and had 2 kids but this wasn't until later his wife lived somewhere else for some reason. I ended up pregnant and we were really having some problems, at the time my friend lived next door to him and I had started seeing someone else. He knocked n the door and when we opened it he hit me so hard I flew into the kitchen and it was like the lights went out he was mentally and physically abusive to me. While I was pregnant I had pulled up to my friends house and he came outside, there were probably about 10-15 people over at my friends house, he proceeded to hit me and he slammed me on my car a few time busting my knee up and also ripped out my earrings. Then here comes the gun, he pointed it at me and everyone ran, my friend called the police and when he heard them coming he ran in his house and locked the door and the police said because he wouldn't answer his door there was nothing they would do about it, no one helped me at all I went downtown with the blood on me before I went to the hospital and they said there was nothing I could do about it, I could not get a restraining order. i lost the baby because of this abuse and he had the nerve to show up at the hospital, I had to stay a couple days because I had to have a DNC, I eventually moved a couple hours away and he found me, luckily he came to my new home one time and he never came back and I never heard from him again. I went through a lot of abuse with this man. I then got myself involved with another man that liked to punch, slap and choke me. He was also mentally and physically abusive and very controlling I went through a lot with this man also I finally met my first husband who never laid a hand on me he was so different than anyone I had ever dated he was a very good man but things happened and we separated and I began dating my husband now. At the beginning of this relationship there he did lay his hands on me and I hit him too a couple times, he took of with me on the hood of a car because we were fighting and I jumped on the car thinking he wouldn't leave but he did anyways. this went on for about the first 3 years we were together and one night we got into a huge fight I had enough and was going to leave him and I was walking over to his moms house to let them know what was going on I had never said anything to them about him laying his hands on me and then he got me on the ground and started choking me and I really felt my life flash before me I had never had anyone ever choke me that hard where I felt like I was going to pass out and couldn't breathe, I was screaming when I was screaming when I could I finally got up and told his mom and dad what happened and from that day on he has never laid his hands on me again, he sometimes says things to me that I feel are mentally abusive he thinks are jokes but it hurts me. I want my marriage to work and he has made effort and we still have problems but nothing like it was before I do believe a man can change, but only if he truly sees what he is doing is wrong and wants to make that change.
I have also suffered the loss of a cousin to ovarian cancer, a cousin to luekemia, a nephew to congential heart failure, grandpa to cancer, other members from heart disease, suicide and drug abuse. So many things run in my family I like to stay aware of these diseases and try to help as much as I can with them.
Now to tell you where I am now I am disabled do to my Bipolar and sensory nueropathy. I also have fibromyalgia,, problems with high blood pressure, diabetes, kidney stones, high cholesterol, severe lower back pain and neck pain and other things I have wrong with me. i am still going through pain therapies to help get some relief but everyday is a battle. some days I feel like a million bucks and some I don't want to move. It is really frustrating to not to be able to go to a mall or a fair. I can't enjoy things with m kids like I used to and I want to so i am fighting everyday to get my life back. Hope this sums it all up for you. THANKS FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ ABOUT ME.
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I went to a party,
And remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mom,
so I had a sprite instead.
I felt proud of myself,
The way you said I would,
that I didn't drink and drive,
though some friends said I should.
I made a healthy choice,
And your advice to me was right.
The party finally ended,
and the kids drove out of sight.
I got into my car,
Sure to get home in one piece.
I never knew what was coming, Mom,
something I expected least.
Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
the kid that caused this wreck was drunk,
Mom, his voice seems far away.
My own blood's all around me,
As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
this girl is going to die.
I'm sure the guy had no idea,
While he was flying high.
Because he chose to drink and drive,
now I would have to die.
So why do people do it, Mom
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
like a hundred stabbing knives.
Tell sister not to be afraid, Mom
Tell daddy to be brave.
And when I go to heaven,
put " Mommy's Girl" on my grave.
Someone should have taught him,
That it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had,
I'd still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter,
Mom I'm getting really scared
These are my final moments,
and I'm so unprepared.
I wish that you could hold me Mom,
As I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say, "I love you, Mom!"
So I love you and good-bye.
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