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FAMILIAR ANTAGONISM(S)
Here we tighten our fists. The upper town is ridged while we raise our eyes up to the leaden sky. As to atone for mistakes and weaknesses.
Here we tighten our fists and look up to the blue stain in the sky – which is really never that blue – and we find ourselves deserting our lives for an instant.
Over there is that fuzzy silence where we can hear as deep as the jumps of our heart. Over there, love is not just a vain word – overused and banished from here : over there is a heart swollen with fresh blood spilling in countless ramifications.
Here, our heart is wringing and we are taught how to hate what we once loved.
Over there is a no man’s land but there is softness. No worries : our memories are barding and protecting us, and all is still to be done : quivers of excitement without a hitch, laughs without pain, and life in the combination of blood and tears.
…And there is that Music, oddly soft and repetitive, a languidness as after Love, streching and posessing us. And where that blackness coils up from dark to light flows, from light to dark flows, from black and white pictures passing before our eyes like out of a shaker, and grab our heart.
…Their world is within us, close and yet strange, antagonist and yet familiar, a world where a high perched musician who learned the ropes in classical scales blends with a DJ deaply rooted in the Dance Floor.
Plenitude merging with frenzy, sensuality with barbarian…
Enter their sensual and soft world, enter their hardline and pure techno, relaxing and feverish, haunting us like a fairy tale we would let someone whisper into our ear.
Enter this world where music slaps our heart, to lead us straight, soflty, from SIDE CHAIN to SIDE CHAIN until we reach artificial paradise and euphoria.
ENTER their world in order to enter another one : their music knocks down the borders between Here and Over There, softens stigmatas and reveals our fantasies.
A world remaining unexplored where one must listen, behind the notes, to our own heartbeats, delivered from their avatars.
AVATAR
…Each day I move about. Each day, my moving and staggering body cleaves the air and its invisible dusts.
Each day I mutate each day a little more… Neither Right nor Wrong. Like an avatar.
Often my spirit is over there and nonchalantly wanders through an unknown and too vaste territory ; my body remains here, my heart is a too heavy block. I wish I could carry it with my bare hands and offer it to the light, to those starry dusts. To where Music streches, mutates, acts, wild with freedom and power.
Like an Avatar, I have become those few music notes going in circles, vibrating and dull, those that can’t be compared, they hammer my heart and continuously live within me.
I am the mutating animal. The avatar echoing in me and eating my heart…
I have become that sound haunting and submerging me, and I turn a deaf ear to every other supplication… And no one can understand me.
I am an accident, a snag, an avatar… each day I move against the stream.
Each day I mutate, resembling that versatile and changing sound. I search for it beyond the walls of the ridged upper town.
I search for it beyond many adventures. I am the gold digger in a bottomless well, filled with obscure desires.
I search for that sound haunting me for ever more. Should I darken it, soil it, should I obstruct it like something wrong I must hide – Should I lighten it, make it mineral, clear as crystal. Relieved from its useless skins and parasites.
Should I leave it rough and just go. Go forward, without turning back. That sound which will remain Avatar and which disappears in curls of smoke when I try to catch it. For my own sake. That sound that’s for nobody’s sake.
I am the gold digger in a shiny black sound, a sound which is white and vibrating and puts me at peace with myself. After so many mutations, the end of the road. A light from afar, telling me to come, come and goes. Life is made out of wanderings and goings, out of a light that was once seen and then forgotten. Sound hammers the time that flies…Even though I’m only an Avatar.
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