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Page by page I slowly and lucidly reread everything I’ve written, and I find that it’s all worthless and should have been left unwritten. The things we achieve, whether empires or sentences, have (because they’ve been achieved) the worst aspect of things: the fact that they’re perishable. But that’s not what worries or grieves me about these pages as I reread them now, in these idle moments. What grieves me is that it wasn’t worth my trouble to write them, and the time I spent doing it earned me nothing but the illusion, now shattered, that it was worth doing.
Whatever we pursue, we pursue for the sake of ambition, but either we never realise the ambition, and we’re poor or we think we’ve realised it, and we’re rich fools.
What grieves me is that my best is no good, and that another of whom I dream of, if he existed, would have done it better. Everything we do, in art or in life, is an imperfect copy of what we thought of doing. It belies the notion of inner as well as of outer perfection; it falls short not only of the standard it should meet but also of the standard we thought it could meet. We’re hollow on the inside as well as on the outside, pariahs in our expectations and in our realisations.
With what power of the solitary human soul I produced page after reclusive page, living syllable by syllable the false magic, not of what I wrote, but of what I thought I was writing! As if under an ironic sorcerer’s spell, I imagined myself the poet of my prose, in the winged moments when it welled up in me- swifter than the strokes of my pen- like an illusory revenge against the insults of life! And today, rereading, I see my dolls bursting, the straw coming out of their torn seams, eviscerated without ever having been…
Pessoa- The Book of Disquiet
So di kingbee yn gweld y pwynt mewn sgwennu adroddiad hir ar ei hun a'i gerddoriaeth: creuodd albym o demos wedi'i bweru gan goffi yn bennaf, a fe ddaw fwy yn y pendraw er bod wedi symud i fyw i Tseina am y flwyddyn. Bydd amser yn dangos sut fydd Tseina yn gallu delio a t ffync.
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The Scarlets, Blues, Ospreys and Dragons have each released a single with the aim of getting into the UK Top 40 on Februaty 8th (The day Wales begin their 6 Nations defence against Scotland)
Which region will get the highest chart posittion?
Please support your region by pre-ordering their single NOW!
The Scarlets - 'Yma O Hyd' Text 'SCARLETS' to 78789
The Blues - 'Delilah' Text 'BLUES' to 78789
The Ospreys - 'Cwm Rhondda' Text 'OSPREYS' to 78789
No Borders South Wales organises against migration controls and fights for freedom of movement for all. Keep any eye on our blogposts and bulletins to see how you can help resist the border regime!
Yeah was gutted we couldn't make it, I'm sure it was quite brilliantly drunken! Made up you like Amputated Leg so much. We've done it live a few times but I get put off by Vicky wincing at my bum notes. How's things out there? And where are you guys gonna be at Xmas?
Diolch am y geiriau man, album yn dropio yn hydref blwyddyn yma along with a tour / wicked guest spots on the album / feature ar bandit on ni..n mynd allan i LA / seshc2 / various radio sessions, keep the eyes peeled for more!! Lecio..r tiwns fyd, good stuff!
Hi kingbee, Don't forget Fathers Day - 15th June! The Official Album of The Welsh Rugby Union is available from the Official online shop - click the cover for details. Wales In Union - The Ultimate Welsh Rugby Supporters Album, available from Tesco - click the cover. Shine - The New Album from Paul Child, available from Tesco - click the cover.
wel diolch... ddim yn siwr am y brenhinol, ond mae'r hanes yn nuts! dwi'n mynd rownd i tarmnacio drives bobol rwan. Guinness unrhyw un? Licio dy stwff di, kingbee. prys
i had never actually sat down and listened to this, and for that i am sorry. not for your sake but for my own: i've been missing out - i REALLY like it. And the blurb is utterly hilarious.
dude the strings in all i needed are so nice, and then the beat reminds me of snoop dog which kina cracks me up. But really impressed love what youve done with these songs, and if they sound fresh to me, they must be pretty fresh!! nice art too, how? :-)
