"The show for this evening is not new, you've seen this entertainment through and through. You've seen birth, life and death, you might recall all of the rest; did you have a good world when you died?" -Jim

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Books. Theater. Writing. Music. My flute. Life. heavy metal. Video Games. Solitude.
I don't party like crazy, I rarely drink, I actually have fun reading and hanging out at home. Does this make me any less of a hard working student? Do we really want to fit these stereotypes?

AMERICAN PSYCHO
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I am really into Dominance/Submission but I also have a problem trusting people. Yeah, I'm a little backwards and I am kind of spatially challenged.
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Geishas are beautiful.
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HEATH LEDGER AS THE JOKER WAS FUCKING BRILLIANT.
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Bondage & Discipline.music.art.Video Games.World of Warcraft.books.writing.photography.hardcore music. VAMPIRES. I don't know, ask me.

KEEP YOUR BUTT IN THE CAR; THE EARTH IS NOT YOUR ASHTRAY!
I love Vampires.




Where to start?!
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As i lay dying.
Unearth.
OPETH!(I love them so much, you really have no idea)
Godsmack.
rammstein..
Bullet for my Valentine..
Our Lady Peace..
Three days Grace..
36 CrazyFists..
disturbed..
bleeding through..
enigma..
Bi/Rain..
THE DOORS..
Lamb of god..
Govinda..
Mudvayne..
The missing:..
Spineshank..
Ra. .
George Acosta..
Porcelain and the Tramps. .
Early Metallica..
80s hair rock..
David Bowie..
Dire Straits..
Led Zeppelin..
the Used..
Flogging Molly..
Edie Brickell..
A Perfect Circle..
Nora Jones..
Willie Nelson..
Alanis Morissette..
Ottmar liebert..
Govinda..
Credence Clearwater Revival..
Rob Zombie..
Avenged Sevenfold..
The Bloodhound Gang(in small doses)..
I actually like a little country, but i have to be in that 'lost my dog, and my woman now im gonna go drink myself into a stupor' kind of mood.
So this section is small, only because I had to keep it from getting too big. I am a HUGE movie fanatic.
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Brokeback Mountain[I liked it, ok? So stfu]
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THE SAW SERIES.
The Milagro Beanfield War.
The Hannibal Lecter Series. OH BBY.
The Doors, even though, imo it wasn't completely accurate.
Thirteen.
mean Girls.
Better Off Dead.
Bill & Ted's bogus Journey.
THE BLOB(Yesss!) I LIVE FOR LOW BUDGET HORROR FLICKS; 'B' MOVIES!
.The Punisher.
V for Vendetta.
The Breakfast Club and the whole brat pack collection.
Jack.
The Color Purple. The X-Men Series.
The Spiderman Series[sort of].
The Shrek Series.
1408.
Braveheart.
Dances with Wolves
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Waterworld was one of the worst pieces of shit I have ever seen.
The list is a lot longer...
I love comedy, drama and horror A LOT cause i was never allowed to watch it at home growing up. I cannot possibly name all of the films I like, and this is merely a taste.

friends. will&Grace. Ghost whisperer. The simpsons. family guy. futurama. House M.D. A love to Kill. America's next top model [it's an addiction. I can't help it]. American Dad. Anything on the History Channel. Don't watch a lot of TV.







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WAS IT ALL JUST A BAD DREAM?

DON'T FUCK WITH ME. I HAVE PLENTY OF FUCK TO GO AROUND JUST NOW, THANK YOU.

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Alright so I've completely cleaned this thing up, toned it down, now all you have, for the most part are my words. Let those who actually want to take the time to read about it, get to know who I am.
Let the Free-association "about me" rambling commence.
I am Amber and I enjoy a very wide array of things. I will piss you off, and I will probably do it on purpose. To test you, to test myself, and on a rare occasion to laugh at the reactions I get from it. I have manners, and like to laugh a lot at really stupid things. I am a completely diverse person and most of the things I enjoy are considered to be on opposite ends of the spectrum from one another.
That being said, I shall try to give you an idea of who I am.
I love lifting weights. A lot. Despite my outward appearance, and the fact that I resemble a female version of the doughboy, I really love lifting weights.
I used to play World of Warcraft, so I am aware of how it works, but lately I just don't have the time to pursue it.
I enjoy heavy metal music, this much is true. But that's not all. I enjoy a lot of Classic Rock such as The Doors(actually saying I just enjoy them would be a drastic understatement. I love them more than I can describe, but I digress), Credence, etcetera. Some trance, some country, LOVE LOVE classical, meditative new age music, I enjoy just about it all. See the music section for more info on that.
I enjoy any type of movie from horror, to comedy, to documentary, to tear-popping dramas, to foreign films, to Indi films. I don't watch much television, and I am a film fanatic. I enjoy marvel comics, ..A LOT... I have seen all of the marvel films and own almost all of them. ..The Punisher though, by far, the best imo. He will always be my favorite marvel character, and that is my favorite marvel film. Go Frank!.. Ahem, anyway.
I am funny,
I am smart,
I am impatient, fiercely loyal to friends and family,
and I don't get emotional most of the time. Product of being a divorcee. For more info in that, if you really want to know, inbox me. It's not some sort of secret, I am just tired of talking about it, and
tired of letting it define who I am.
I don't have any children. I don't have this desire that almost every woman and nearly every man around me is having, to reproduce. I was raised to believe that it is not a bad thing to want to establish a life and career for myself first. I don't have anything against children, I'm just not ready to put my life on hold and have one. However, now that I am taking a human development course, I am becoming increasingly fascinated with their mental development. Which brings me to my next point:
I am a bit of a nerd.
I can be very retarded.
And I am not ashamed of it.
Where's a good plague when you need one? Something to wipe a good billion people out. Maybe a nice strong virus. Ahem. People are breeding at way to alarming a rate.
Have I mentioned that I am slightly on the twisted side? I enjoy talking about gore, blood, socially unacceptable subjects, and bodily functions on a daily basis.
I am learning more and more about dominance and submission and am learning how to be a switch, as both ideas intrigue me. Depends on who you're with, ya know? I am very intrigued with the idea of rope bondage, and any type of bondage in general.
..NO, THIS IS NOT AN INVITATION TO WRITE ME AND ACT LIKE A RANDOM PERVERT AND EXPECT ME TO WET MYSELF...
Ballgags are sexy.
Riding crops are sexy.
Cat o' nine tails are sexy.
I have a tongue piercing, not to be extra-sexual, or anything of that nature, though should the opportunity arise it'll be a plus nonetheless. No, I got it because, as my sister says, it is a dirty little secret. I don't play with it, I don't clack it against my teeth (that's just tacky), and I don't flash it around everywhere. It just sits there to maybe occasionally peek out and make someone look and wonder "Hmm well if she has that, wonder what else she has..."
I got a lip piercing for the simple reason that I enjoy the way it looks, nothing more. Not to conform to some social view of people that have piercings, not to conform to anything. I did it for me. End of story.
I don't party hardcore, I don't drink till I puke, and I don't do a lot of the stupid shit college students do. I drink occasionally to relax and that's about it. Nine times out of ten I'll drink at home.
VIDEO GAMES!!!!!!
I love, love just about any video game I can get my hands on. I love fable and am hoping against hope that they release it for the PC. Metal Gear Solid is THE SHIT I love those damn games. I am hardcore gamer, so just get outa my way and hand it over. I'm not gonna give you the list of games I play, it's too long, but if you ask me if I like something I'll prolly say yes. I usually lend to RPG-style games but my tastes aren't limited to that.
I kick ass at Mortal Kombat Tetris.
I actually enjoy guitar hero, though I suck at it.
I still think beagles are cute as hell.
One day I will own a black lab.
My brother is in the navy and I miss him so much my chest hurts. I am so proud of him. One day I am going to get a tattoo of his initials, as soon as I figure out how I want it. XD
If you couldn't tell by this long crazy description, I enjoy writing very much.
I blog like crazy.
I am fascinated with Giant squids.
I still love horses, and one day I'll own one of those too.
I am not a cat person or a dog person. I am one of those rare finds that will gravitate either way.
I honestly hardly ever cry. In the year 2008 I only cried twice. This year, I haven't so far. In my "other life" I cried quite a bit. Since the big event, I really just can't anymore and don't see the need. I feel very awkward around weepy and emotional people, and I am much like a stereotypical man in that way.
I find people that have good grammar extremely sexy. They turn me on in a bad way.
Geeks are hot as hell.
I talk about sex...a lot.
I love, love, love Stephen King.
I read Nora Roberts; I think she's a genius and a superb writer.
I enjoy fantasy creatures such as Dragons and Unicorns, and I really think mermaids are out there.
The idea of zombies pisses me off, doesn't scare me, and the only zombie-related films I enjoy are Shaun of the Dead and...well so far that's the only one. SO if you talk to be about zombies, and you like zombies, I won't apologize if I piss you off.
Ottmar Liebert is a very talented guitarist.
I really do not understand this "Underworld" obsession that is sweeping the country. Yes, they were decent films. Can we move on, please?
On a similar note, pirates are cool and Johnny Depp is sexy. That being said, can we PLEASE move on? Kthnxbai.
I enjoy ranting.
I took belly dancing classes years ago, ans still consider myself to be decent at it.
I played the flute for eight years in high school and I still play it sometimes. Every two weeks or so just for fun.
Sometimes, secretly, I miss marching band. Still got a bit of that band nerd in me.
I didn't think the film Drumline was spectacular. Decent, at best.
That's all I can think of at the moment, but I am sure I will think of more later.
If you read all of this, then I think you are awesome and secretly love you.
I don't think I believe in love.

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..Anyone funny and insightful who can hold my attention longer than the time it takes for me to reject them...
Jung Ji Hoon(Bi/Rain)
My favorite adult film star: Stormy Daniels:

David Draiman, lead singer of Disturbed. *salivates*

Daniel Radcliffe(oh baby):
Robin Williams.
Stephen king.
opeth.
Rodney Carrington.
Dane Cook.
The wine Kone from Youtube.
Lisa Nova from Youtube.
Jim Carrey.
Eddie Izzard.
Stephen King.
Dita Von Teese.
Asia Carrera.
Rupert grint.
Nora Roberts.
Opeth
Jim Morrison
(I'm sure there are more but that's what comes to my head at the moment)

Comments
Nov 29 2009 5:05 AM
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Nov 13 2009 11:44 AM
hows things with your man goin? good i hope. and of course, i want all the squishy details... size, width, carpet color... etc etc. lol
Nov 13 2009 8:18 AM
*humps*
Nov 13 2009 3:40 AM
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Well I just wanted to wish you an early birthday..
Even though I'm not there physically, I'll be thinking of you on your special day
May it be a good one and may you get everything that you ask for, because...you deserve every penny.
Enjoy!!
Oct 26 2009 3:16 AM
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Sep 18 2009 2:56 PM
<3
Sep 17 2009 1:46 AM
Im not a psycho.
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>.>
Sep 16 2009 5:43 AM
I want to live and die in it.
Sep 16 2009 3:28 AM
I should just make that picture of your cleavage my background :3
Sep 16 2009 1:17 AM
I havent changed mine in 3 or 4 years.
Sep 14 2009 12:43 PM
i never really do anything on here anymore lol
Sep 13 2009 2:18 AM
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Sep 9 2009 1:42 AM
and e-lovers are NOT imaginary.. your sisters a hater.
Sep 9 2009 1:34 AM
lol
school person or just some rando you saw at walmart? lol
Aug 28 2009 3:12 AM
im sorry you felt like crap earlier, feelin better?
Aug 27 2009 1:11 PM
Aug 27 2009 1:09 AM
but you know that
what's been happenin!!!
Aug 24 2009 4:51 AM
Ill go get the rope and duct tape.
Aug 22 2009 8:23 AM