"there's blood on the moon and the summer is cold, there's love in the room but baby that's gettin' old, there's blood on my face sittin' on a dead shore, a highway of emptiness and i'm gettin' bored."
Female
20 years old
jimmytown, New York
United States
Contacting
abra abracadabra, i wanna reach out and stab ya!
MySpace URL:
http://www.myspace.com/thedecline018
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abra abracadabra, i wanna reach out and stab ya!'s Interests
General
oh y'know...a lot of commonplace things like LOUD fucking music, fantasizing, stimulation, staying up all night being watching movies and being fatasses then sleeping all afternoon naked with my boyfriend, coffee, tea, taking photos, enjoying photos, being awake to watch the sunrise, being comfortable, rock/metal/punk concerts, rocking the fuck out, adrenaline rushes, cartoons, cats, playing my bass, utilizing my voice, rocker fashion, non-cocky/non-manwhore boys, girls that are more than just annoying/dumb/vanity-stricken/obsessive hoes, body art, piercings, tattoos, living the good times, reminiscing the good times, laying in grassy fields under pretty skies, rollerskating, creating and living my own preferred reality, music festivals (woodshock, the great blue heron, sherman barn dances...), ebay, freedom, not giving a shit, giving a shit, then not giving a shit again sooner or later, giving a shit about things that are worth giving a shit about, those mornings i wake up and feel content and energetic, even if for no reason at all, making a statement wherever i go, hotels, self-discovery, lengthy delays in your exodus, sexual tension, rapture, bliss, experience, lack of experience, peace, inspiration, hope, unauthorized ripping of the media, heavy rain and wind, rain and fog, personality disorders, walking around town late at night and early morning, the light from streetlamps at night, making frigid people uncomfortable and intimidated, never knowing...but always hoping, dissappearing for days,
making fun of people i don't like for the amusement and personal satisfaction it produces, the beach at night,
being amused by awkward sexual situations, low-budget home film making, tea parties, grabbing privy parts, smashing shit, abandoned places, industrial decay, cemetaries,
producing humor from even the most dramatic of situations,
laughing when the "appropriate" thing to do should be being concerned and/or traumatized, laughing so hard i cry,
laughing at everybody and everything, armadillos, body paint, being alive...even though i have yet to live much.
Music
i'm a big him whore.
you should support your local music...and your friends' bands. even if they suck.
i love rock and metal shows. live bluegrass is pretty fun too. i love when people rock the fuck out and dance. i hate when people just stand around and barely move to the music. i'm usually the chick goin nuts and rocking out while all the 12-year-olds give me weird glances.
you should also support some of those unappreciated geniuses. like thomas dolby and moby.
my favorite is the deep/dark/heavy/melodic/powerful stuff. i love unique instrumentals. i love hearing a new song for the first time, falling in love with it and listening to it until the feeling wears out. i love a lot of 80's and 90's music too...and a bit-o industrial, metal, trance, rock, psychadellic, electronica, techno, old school pop, rap and hip-hop before it went retarded. i usually manage to make it right in front of the stage for a lot of shows.
these aren't all necessarily my favorite bands (the first few mentioned are), but groups with songs i listen to frequently include (x)=bands i've seen live:
(x) him
velvet acid christ
(x)
the sound of animals fighting
killswitch engage
30 seconds to mars
(x) linkin park
(x) taking back sunday
coheed and cambria
cradle of filth
modest mouse
machine head
eminem
the 69 eyes
lacuna coil
(x) mushroomhead
hollywood undead
deadstar assembly
(x) creature feature
prodigy
powerman 5000
(x)
the cranberries
deathstars
(x) mindless self indulgence
(x) discidium
(x) aniasin (R.I.P.)
tom petty and the heartbreakers
prince and the revolution
(x) placebo
limp bizkit
arch enemy
kmfdm
tegan and sara (so jealous mostly.)
fatboy slim
paul oakenfold/perfecto
the cure
brand new (the devil and god are raging inside of me only)
armin van buuren
dj tiesto
otep
flogging molly
deftones
rusted root
underworld
infected mushroom
zeromancer
insane clown posse (old shit...like great milenko)
frou frou/imogen heap
sdema
aiden
the postal service
i also love a lot of the music i remember growing up with in the 90's. tlc's crazysexycool, savage garden, will smith, aqua, notorious b.i.g., bone thugz n' harmony, the goo goo dolls, soul for real, xscape, aaliyah, the now that's what i call music albums (went downhill after volume 13, i think.), coolio, and yes...backstreet boys, britney spears and christina aguilera's old stuff, the spice girls, n'sync and such.
i've probably spent more time just listening to music in my
life than you have. take my word for it.
i promote upcoming shows for western new york in this space. send me a flyer if you want me to post it here...
Movies
i mostly love beautiful drama, but not depressing drama, tragedies, chick flicks (except mean girls haha) or
sappy romantic shit. romantic comedies are intolerable. i like funny shit. i like shit that makes me think and feel inspired and/or motivated. i like shit that leaves me guessing and assuming. i like suspense. i like psychological thrillers. i like movies with sex, passion and obsession. i like some 80's movies. i like most movies with old school actors like ryan phillippe, katie holmes and joshua jackson. i like most johnny depp movies too (except the pirate movies, i think they're really overrated.)
a walk to remember is one of the worst movies i've ever seen. why?
1. one of the main characters is dying of cancer. that's depressing. if that kinda shit entertains you, go down to your local hospital. you'll see plenty.
2. too sappy/romantic for my taste.
3. jamie and landon don't fuck. and landon doesn't leave her for not fucking him.
4. how unrealistic it is that a character such as landon...an aimless, wreckless, moody, attractive guy that surrounds himself with the same in-crowd falls for such a homely, strict, conservative girl such as jamie and ditches
all his friends for her. relationships with people that are that different don't make it.
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Television
roseanne, scooby doo (only the old cartoons, new ones suck.), cops, judge judy, old school nick shows that may rerun (all that, are you afraid of the dark?, and such.), the wonder years, the howard stern radio show, robot chicken.
Books
uncle john's gigantic bathroom reader (bathroom readers' institute), ordinary people (judith guest), the virgin suicides (jeffrey eugenides), house of leaves (mark z. danielewski), to kill a mockingbird (harper lee), the beach (alex garland), american psycho (bret easton ellis), anything konstantinos, i'm also re-reading my r.l. stine's 'goosebumps' series that i dug up in my attic, i loved those books growing up
if the only books you have listed are ones that you were mandated to read in highschool, you're stupid. people should appreciate books more often out of their own free time and will.
Heroes
batman (i'd hit.), kat von d, roseanne barr, timothy olyphant, lester burnham (american beauty), otep, pink, gwen stefani, donnie darko, judge judy, randal graves (clerks), angela gossow, liz. :)
uhhh...i'm a whore for batman, and joker in the dark knight.
i'm a pretty big fan of beavis and butt-head too. they're funny motherfuckers.
"excuse me, sir?"
ok. listen up, fuckface. you'll know me by the name of shelly.
i'm taking my time with life, i don't really have any future plans: only gradually collected hopes, ideas and dreams that i'll live anything but a life miserable, stressed, lost and broke. i want to live the american dream, the ordinary life ain't for me. people tend to look down on me, but i think someday i'll surprise them.
i dissappoint myself frequently. i haven't been a very motivated person my life, and i hope one day something'll hit me and i'll be able to change that.
i act different around different people. certain people stimulate my personality, and others almost seem to abate it. there's probably sides of me you won't see.
bitchiness is 1 thing you won't experience with me. i seriously never get angry, i just chill.
i'm not interested in hooking up with you or dating you, you won't get too far with me, trust me. hangouts > hookups. your 'womanizing' and "i fuck all these bitches" attitudes disgust me. if you're overconfident and arrogant because of the constant love, devotion and flattery of girls, girls are fucking sheep and obsess over how "omfgHOTT" anything with the least minimum of sex appeal is, so you can take your bullshit to them, i won't open up to you at all in a sexual or affective manner. i have a boyfriend, anyways. i'm not one for advertising that all over my page, but we were best friends for a couple years in nothing more than a superficial brother-and-sister manner. he's the last person i ever would've expected to hook up with, but we are fantastic together and i see us lasting because we know each other and get along so well.
i have a high tolerance for human flaws...i'll only judge you for judging me. i choose my friends and aquaintances and how close i'd like to keep them based strictly on how they treat and percieve me, and not how they treat and percieve others and lifestyle choices they may or may not make, and i'll demand you do the same with me. very few don't like me, and if you don't your hate stems from jealousy and ignorance. i respect everybody until you fuck up bad. it takes a lot for me not to have it in my heart to forgive you. i usually just don't care enough to get pissed off, dissappointed or hold grudges.
i have my drivers license and a car, but i have a horrible sense of direction and if i don't know exactly where i'm going i get really confused, paranoid and high-strung. i won't even drive to certain parts of town i'm unfamiliar with unless i have someone with to navigate me. on that note, i lack too much experience driving long distances. i also suck at parking and avoid areas where i'd have to parallel park.
i love spring, summer and warm weather. i despise the cold and long-lasting winters in western new york, they have an overwhelming and dramatic effect on me. i hope to move to florida or the carolinas someday.
my laziness will often let you down, i'm stubborn when i don't wanna do something and i can be pretty selfish sometimes when i want something. but i'm fun, and i'll be more loyal to you than your golden retriever buddy if you're worthy of it. i'd like to get to know people on more than a superficial, "i'm well, and you?" level. let me know if you want to talk. i'm open-minded, deep and you'll be able to relate to me in one way or another.
"hear me now
words i vow
no fucking regrets
fuck these chains
no god damn slave
i will be different
i'll stand here defiantly
my middle finger raised
fuck your prejudice."
Who I'd like to meet:
people that like to talk about themselves. i like people that have a lot to say about most shit, because i know i do.
intelligent, open-minded people that can fluently carry on a conversation...non-intense personalities usually bore me, especially in dudes. if you don't excite me, you'll probably bore me.
somebody that realizes they're a big enough piece of shit that they aren't constantly highlighting flaws in other people.
you ladies and gents with edge (meaning your characteristics seperate you farther away from what's socially acceptable to the older generations).
transvestites.
people that aren't constantly negative, nor constantly happy and announcing how much they're in love with life. it's just extremely unnecessary and annoying. somebody that's just usually content and pleasant to be around.
-"a pessimist is just somebody that's listened to
too many optimists."
bands that'll let me be their roadie. preferrably ones that'll pay for all my shit.
random ameteur artists.
if you have over a 3-digit number of friends, don't add me.
if you're a bulletin whore and post one every 10 minutes just to announce insignificant shit like you're going to bed, don't add me.
if you're a band from the jamestown/warren/buffalo music scene, i'll most likely accept your friend request. even though i recieve copious friend requests from bands/musicians everyday, i try to give them all a listen. and 95% of the time, they suck. if, however, i do
happen to like your stuff and you have it up for download,
i'll probably just download your stuff but not support you.
X THE LADYKILLER (private buddy list, though. ask first. if your introduction starts out with, "damn u look good..." or if you're in your late 20's or older and message me with: "hi i'm a nice guy i like the outdoors i'm
trying to make some new friends would you like to chat" then i'll probably assume you're creepy and you ain't the hussla you's attempting to be.
also. if all your photos feature your hair covering your face with only your lip ring showing, i'll assume you have an ugly face. your 90 pound tight gap jean cladded ass isn't 'gorgeous'. that has to be the most overused compliment on the pictures with 257 comments. i'll exchange personal satisfaction with you, sure. but i only leave sincere satisfaction.
abra abracadabra, i wanna reach out and stab ya!'s Calendar
ya I made it to work but when they see you in the bathroom puking your brains off in the first 15 min they like to send you home... I dont understand why
It looks like you guys had fun at the Blue Heron =/ I ended up working Friday and Sat. but that's when I got my sweet hawk haha.
I don't know. I wish I got to play more =/ I have a friend coming from SC soon, but I'm pumped for that batman movie sooo maybe we willl see it together.
hiya love (: sorry i couldnt do anything tonight work was extra long because tomarrow some big people are coming to expect it and shit. you will definately have to come to one of the future parties i host (:
you shouldve sent the cigarette one in a message, my sister would kill me if she knew i smoked but damn that shit was super fucking fun, we gotta camp closer to each other next year
wear what you would consider to be your most astonishing outfit for the shoot. we should go find a big white ass dress, and go to that spot, and wrap the bottom of the dress around the chair, and do your hair all crazy, and make you look like some kind of dead girl.
i work tomorrow then i have a week off because i requested it off because i THOUGHT melissa was gunna be coming here but she has to go to school for a month, and i'd rather just chill for a week rather than tell my work that my plans fell through. yamean?
X THE LADYKILLER (private buddy list, though. ask first. if your introduction starts out with, "damn u look good..." or if you're in your late 20's or older and message me with: "hi i'm a nice guy i like the outdoors i'm
trying to make some new friends would you like to chat" then i'll probably assume you're creepy and you ain't the hussla you's attempting to be.
