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  • my tony's got an owie.

    Current mood:optimistic

    summummab*tch. yeah, i got into an accident *AGAIN* last saturday. other than the fancy BIG ass bruise on my shoulder, the slight black eye i had for 3 days, the busted lip, various bumps and bruises elsewhere, and all together soreness...i am OKAY.

    i figured i wouldn't answer any questions about what happened and just post a blog so i wouldn't have to repeat it fifty million times from here to eternity. i was already on that plan for the previous accident. lol.... so long story short, (because we all know my stories can get damn long), after clubbing with hiyasmin, marc, ray, nicky, aileen, pam, and alfred (btw i had fun guys... i miss ya'lls. ); i was driving home by myself (don't even trip, i wasn't drunk, i was ACTUALLY wearing my seatbelt, and i wasn't sleepy...but unfortunately i was looking off to the side when i hit somethin in the road and started fishtailing... couldn't stop till i hit the center divide, which tony ended up diagonal his left tires up on the white divider thing. MIND YOU this occured slightly north of the place my LAST accident happened. (it's right before the 94-54 connector, for those of you who weren't around for my first crutches) haha when i called marc i looked to my left and saw the divider right outside my window. it was an odd feeling. and out of panic i broke the windshield wiper handle thing. so my wipers were going on and wouldn't stop unless i turned tony off. *sigh* i'm so sorry tony. he was sitting there on my street this whole week, barely got it towed to the shop on thursday. so everyday i'd come out of the house, look up the street, frown, eyes start to well up, and i sigh. trudging off to work with a heavy heart and sore ass. (no really. i have a bruise on my hip (from my belt buckle) and my ass (from who knows what.) this bruise on my shoulder ain't no joke. it stings like a rug burn and is straight up dark purple hahaha.... on sunday joe said i looked like my baby's daddy dun checked my ass. muahahaha.... all jokes aside... i'm thankful that i'm even ALIVE. if i had been going faster i could've flipped over or worse yet, there could've been other people in the way that i could've ran into. man...i'm too young to use up my nine lives. i need to hire a driver.

    THANK YOU SO MUCH... marc for coming to the rescue, makin' sure the towing truck guy and i made it to my house ok, talkin' to joe, chris, and yas - letting them know i was okay and tellin joe to bring me chicken haha, and for checkin' up on me... i really, really, really. appreciate it. Thanks Joe for the chicken on Sunday, for bringin me to work mon an tues, and for that doctor's appt hahaha.... ekg even. i'm still laughing at that... it's like i was in some bad comedy sitcom on tfc. lol.... just when we thought we could get past our stupid car accidents i had to go and have another one. hahaha... you know i gotta be one up on ya hahaha.... thanks for listening to me rant about my stupid drama with my mother. FILIPINO parents swear to bob. argh. haha they never say the right things, right marc?! *sigh*.
    and chris. throughout this unnecessary situation you have single-handedly calmed MY nerves, supplied my sense of humor with endless material, and managed to put up with my stubborness. you really are where i get my strength. plus you've really taken my mind off of all of this by having me look forward to your visit.... ah yes, the silliness can only get worse. hahaha....
    THANKS best friend Rex for the mini green giant shirt and all your great gifts... i wish i could've gone with you guys... all good though.

    overall. i'm ok. this too shall f*cking pass, eh?
    2:29 PM

  • when the going gets tough

    the tough goes thrift shopping. hahaha.... and what did i acquire? let's see.... Image hosted by Photobucket.com
    a monsters, inc. tully costume!!! i also found a copy of 'the more than complete hitchhikers guide' THE complete and unabridged compilation of douglas adams' books. HILARIOUS. i'm all about collecting good books. anywhoo... here's my horoscope for today... This looks like a lovely day -- startling and surprising, but lovely nonetheless. Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to keep your legendary calm, no matter what the stars or other mere mortals toss your way. hrmmm today includes seeing old friends...a new friend...and 70 adult stars! LOL
    5:45 PM

  • nothing harder.

    Current mood:depressed

    i suppose march is going to be my least favorite month for some time to come.

    i had to give up something without giving it a chance.
    i was left alone by someone i thought would be around for years.
    and now
    i've lost someone i've seen as a second father since i was 3.

    my cousins carolyn and cathy soltes lost their father on sunday, march 20th... it's only tuesday and i feel like a month has passed. i haven't had a moment to stop and grieve by myself since i woke up on sunday. we had gone straight to the hospital since we got the phone call from uncle steve saying that uncle leo was gone. i'm glad he was with the whole fam on saturday night... in such a good mood... i'm glad i had the chance to say good bye to him on sunday at the hospital... even if he was gone already i'm glad i didn't have to wait another week to see him...

    see our father's are like best friends... well more like brothers. everyone knew they'd always debate issues anything from politics to parenting to the military to the community... but they loved it. only because nobody argues with them the way they can with each other. you know how that is... the friends that can be blunt with you and tell it like it is are the ones you know will be your friends for life. we aren't even blood related but this family has been a part of my life far more than most of my blood relatives. carolyn's been like a little sister to me and cathy's been like a slightly older sister- one that's only like a year older haha... old enough to respect her like an elder but not old enough for you to not be able to relate to...

    and you know... they've been everywhere with us... we met them when we were first stationed in san diego... separated when we moved to guam but met up with them again in okinawa, where we were all together for almost 4 years. even though we separated again when we moved to the philippines they'd still visit us. then we saw each other again when my family moved back to cali and they were living in the bay... only for all of us to end up in san diego again. uncle leo and i even worked together for the charter school and served on the executive board for the bicol club when he was president and i was secretary while my dad was stationed on the east coast. we all knew i couldn't be on the board if my dad was president bec that's just too much drama. haha... when my dad and i couldn't see eye to eye i was always able to talk to uncle leo and tell him my side because i knew they would talk about us daughters... i was always hoping uncle leo would voice my concerns to my dad hah... and i'd try to talk to him about issues he was having with the girls when they couldn't understand each other.

    so my cousin's right when she says the world has lost a great man... many people loved him and many of us counted on him for so many things... i hope he knows how much we all appreciated him. his heart was so big and just tried to take in more love than it could carry... things just won't be the same without him...

    ... and i'd like someone to know that if there was ever a time i needed someone that understood me more than anyone now is that time.... i've asked barely anything of you and i've been your support through your trying times... i've never needed anyone so much as i've needed you and you are not even remotely close to being available... which is crazy being that this past week you're even closer to my area than you normally are... i'm in this limbo where the person that calls is never the person you'd wish would call...and people don't say the things you'd wish they'd say... and people who were once familiar faces seem so foreign to you... i'm not even saying i need you 'in that way' but as my friend... but i suppose i should prepare myself to realize that you'll think that is too much to be asked of you because it might be too much for you. i guess i'll just have to be ready for that...

    thank you everyone that has been there though... i might be a bit distant with everything going on but you're all in my thoughts always...

    i am so tired...
    7:16 PM

  • neverending cycle.

    Current mood:disappointed

    can't believe how detached i've been from the world. didn't notice HOW detached i've been and how i've led myself to believe i did it for particular reasons. now i'm starting to see that perhaps a couple of those reasons may not have been worth it...or at least not the right reasons... which is a most disappointing thing to realize. i suppose now i've got to gather my remains and head back... only thing between me and that comfort zone is that limbo in between, filled with the confused, the angry, the sad, and the empty monsters. unfortunately, people find that they have to make that trip alone. which is usually the hardest part.
    10:57 PM

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