Danielle Murphy

WrldTradeRomance

my names Dani;
and i'm the bitch that egged your house.
alone is steriods because it made me strong. i'm your average little girl. i want to be somebody's hero. i will only ever be good at serving coffee. my best friend can make me smile by the way he answers the phone. fuck love. i'm probably cooler than you. i'd like to believe that despite everything the world really is a beautiful place. i like the streetlight colors. i don't like having to justify myself to people, so fuck what you heard. i like laying on my not so comfortable floor instead of my not so comfortable bed. my eyes aren't just blue, they are blue with specks of gray. i like taking stupid pictures of the awesome people in my life. i also like taking useless pictures of myself and posting them on here. i love shell necklacesand im always wearing one. i love myspace and i spend too much time on it, oh well. my favorite shoes are uggs and nikes. other then that im wearing flip flops.

"sometimes you wake up.
sometimes the fall kills you.
and sometimes, when you fall,
you fly."

i love being able to forget about everything else and just spend time with the people i love. if you buy me a gecko, i'll be your best friend forever, i mean it. i am a pack rat and almost everything has some sentimental value for me, even the stuff i have burnt and buried in my back yard. i have a hard time walking away from the people i care about, even if i'm really mad or upset. if i don't want to do it, i won't. when i get bored, i change my hair. i am spontaneous and i never have plans. when i want to boost my confidence, i wear sexy bras. autumn, sweater weather is my favorite season. but i do love the summer and i love waking up with sand in my sheets from the beach. secret handshakes are for cool kids only. i love kisses.. anytime.. anywhere.. from anyone. rock paper scissors settles everything. I kiss girls. and i'm not gay. my favorite colors change with my mood but the number one, is always green. i'm too sensitive, but i don't always show that, i usually cry alone. i love 'first kisses' but they make me nervous. i remember the first kiss of any boy i kissed that actually meant something to me, which was only six including my first in fourth grade. i like to make people smile, it makes me feel awesome. my real name is Danielle but everyone that isn't family calls me Dani and i like it a lot that way. i hang out with kick ass people all of the time, and they always know how to have fun. i love photo booth pictures. i tend to Capitalize random words. i hate people that use money to keep score. i'm a terrible liar but i don't mind because i don't lie very often. i don't like to talk on the phone unless the other person is actually talking, i'd do love texting (so text me). i love the feeling of knowing there is always someone there for you. i hate when people are mad at me, even if i don't really care about them. i like painting my nails, i like to think i do really good. and i love having someone else paint my toe nails, but i won't paint yours because feet are gross. i love going on random road trips. it bothers me when people get mad at someone for poor spelling or grammar. the first thing I notice on a boy is their eyes, then their shoes, then their hair. I hate wen ppl type lyke dis. i like how if i think about something long enough it's in my dreams. when i was in second grade i was the only person who knew how to spell ALIEN in my whole class. I love big sunglasses, mostly brightly colored ones. sometimes, I laugh in my sleep and it wakes me up. my room is a mess, always. I can't wait until tomorrow. i hate when people dick me over. I like when people play with my hair. i wish i had wings. roller coasters are fun and my favorite is nitro at six flags. i love photo albums and making scrap books, i have about fourty. my toothbrush is green. I hate the word nevermind, so don't say it to me. i have more guy friends then girl friends. I use song quotes religiously. I don't think when i do things. I two geckos named Leonardo and Mater, they both died (RIP). I had a beta named Ricky Bobby, but he got flushed. then i won a beta on the boardwalk in wildwood, but when i went to fill his bowl with water, the water must have been too cold because he died within ten minutes. so i laid him to rest at sea. i had a fat lab named Sandy who died in May 2009, i miss her so much. i still have a dumb basset hound named Tattoo. I had a chinchilla named Wall-e who died also. i love them all. along with all animals. i change my mind like I change my hair- very often! there is one reason i don't change my cell phone number, that's because there is one phone call i'll always be waiting on. I give the silent treatment as if I was five. I'm so afraid of losing something I love that I refuse to love anything. Kissing is my forte. I'm not sure what that means, but it sounds good.

"sometimes i wish that i was a bong hit,
you'd take me in and love every minute
and tell the room the things i did to you."

There was an episode of Married With Children thats all about the word forte. I love spending time at the beach, i love the drive, and taking pictures there. I hate people who think they are better than everyone else. i like piercings and i have had more then you can see pierced. i took out my belly button, one nipple, monroe, clevage, one side of my nose, and my septum though. so i still have my nose, snake bites, and one nipple (yeah, just one and i did it myself haha) and no, you can't see it. i talk too much. I hate having too much free time. i am extremely outspoken and i really don't care if you like that or not. I love dressing up and being silly. I'm a very jealous person, i can't help it. I don't let anything go. I love romance, but only with the right person. I love to laugh. i like to have the last word. I do what pleases me. I don't do what pleases you, ever. i like tattoos and so far, i have fourteen, but i want more. When it rains, i go outside and jump in puddles. I am friendly and I get along with mostly everyone. If I don't like you, you will know it. I'm a motha fuckin P-i-m-p. Jealous? I am very random and I daydream roughly 87% of the time. My little brother, Jimmy is my hero. If you knew him he would be yours too. I like to build forts with blankets and sleep in them. I am open minded. I don't talk about people unless they give me a reason to. I am a sucker for anything acoustic. there is nothing to live for if you are sleeping alone. i love to drink apple juice and peach ice tea. i like the sound of hoarse scratchy voices when people are sick. red noses are cute. It bothers me when people type in all caps. My friends and family are the most important people in the world to me. I was once told I had beautiful eyes, but i have a feeling that was just a lame excuse to get in my pants. it worked. I don't care if you like me or not. i don't like chocolate, but i love oreos. I like going to shows and watching bands play, but not ones in my town because everyone there just annoys me. boys that sing to me or know how to play a musical instrument make me drool. it's nice to swear your favorite songs were written about you. i don't like having my heart in someone elses hands. i tell myself it's for my own good. one time i was in love, then i got dicked over and everything about me and my life changed. now i don't give a shit. i think it was for the best, though. i like when boys wear fitteds, and stripped shirts with collars.

"I'm battling monsters;
I'm pulling you out of the burning buildings
and you say 'I'll give you anything'
..but you never come through."

i go out of my way to step on crunchy leaves and acorns. if you read this far, or even all of my about me, tell me because that's awesome. i don't understand my own emotions, so stop trying to get me to explain them to you. i have horrible timing. i hate silence. trust is really important to me. but hard to gain from me. i have a dream.. and that is to every night, sleep in a race car bed. I dye my hair too much. I fear being alone and losing the people i love. I hate narrow-minded people. I keep secrets. Most girls hate me and that is just fine with me because i hate most girls. i've been told that once you meet me, you will never forget me and i'd like to know if that's true. I like to scream lyrics when the music isn't on. I am not a slut but i am not a virgin, get over it. I dream with everything in me. I love the rain, mostly when it pours. and i would love to find someone that wouldn't mind playing in it with me anytime i'd like. i like eating at Friendlys, so if you want me to fall in love, take me there. I sleep with a blanket no matter how hot it is. I find a boy most attractive in pj's. I'm a big believer in hand-holding. "The boy of my dreams" never has his shoes tied. I have more little boy shirts from the thrift store than I care to count. I've sent someone a coconut in the mail. i love goodwill, i used to work there but i quit before summer so i could spend more time at the beach. when i meet new people i have a hard time saying goodbye to them. i'd like to live without regret, but since that's hard, i just never look back. it makes it easier. i tend to get shy in situations in which no shyness is needed. otherwise, i'm not shy at all. i like people that can make me laugh, nothing else really matters. if i could have anything in the whole entire world i think it would be a time machine. i get more attached to animals then i do to people, and if i stop hanging out with a person, i really want to go over there just to see their dog, or kitties. i love being outside on those days when the weather is just right. when I don't want to tell you something, leave it alone. i like to take walks in the woods, but not alone when it's dark outside. horror movies are my favorite. h2o is sweet. i rarely admit to being wrong.. even when i know i am. i hate wearing a bathing suit but i love to swim.

"looking back at sunsets on the eastside,
we lost track of the time.
dreams aren't what they used to be,
some things slide by so carelessly."

i got attacked by two dogs in two different summers and now when i walk around alone i get paranoid. i like stickers. most of my dreams are really weird, like once i was on a ferris wheel with gumby and he kept trying to kiss me, then the ferris wheel turned into cheese. i'll never forget that dream. i love to swing, and play on the playground or just go to the park. video games are awesome and crash bandicoot is my all time favorite. its funny that sometimes you think people will kick you while you are down but they turn out being the ones helping you up. i like cartoons, spongebob is my world. i love laughing so hard my cheeks hurt. i like having water fights. i like living where i do for one reason other then my friends, and that is the lake near my house that i sit at and watch the stars. i love taking chances. i talk too fast. i believe that signs are everywhere, sometimes it just takes time to notice them. surprises are nice as long as you don't tell me about them before they happen. i used to always wake up early, no matter what time i went to bed but that stopped after i graduated high school. "I have this amazing best friend and we are inseparable. I do not know what i would do without her, she is my better half." (i wrote that part about liz hannah, who i thought was my best friend but recently i found out she is just a liar and just one of the reasons i trust no one.) I used to be engaged but thank god not married because it turns out he was so wrong for me. and he had sex with my "best friend", maybe some of us are just meant to be alone. when i was little i always wanted to grow up, but man was i dumb to wish that. if you went barefoot to the school i went to(Delsea), you would probably get AIDS. i used to have an imaginary ape that would swing from power line to power line when i was driving with my parents. we'd have races to my house.. he usually won, but would swing back to make it fair. i loved that ape. im a hustler. i was cool once, when i played with pogs. my ex boyfriends mom gave me a pog for my 20th birthday, i still haven't opened it.

"My father told me there are two types of girls:
the ones you grow out of and the ones you grow into.
I hope I'm the latter.
I may not be the one you love today.
I'll let you go for now,
hoping one day you'll fly back to me.
Because I think you're worth the wait."

i got married when i was little on the playground a few times. when i get my own house i want to sleep in a blanket fort, every night. I like to cuddle but only with the right person. i like gum and blowing big bubbles. i like alcohol but it makes me emotional and i really don't like that. i love how some songs can really get to you. don't tell me you will call me if you won't. i'm a cry baby. i'm right handed but it looks like i'm left handed because when i write everything is at a slant. i love writing letters, stories, and notes. also i have a lot of pretty nice blogs, read them. i love when friends visit at three in the morning and knock on my bedroom window, even if it just scares me at first and i think it's a monster. my friend, jonny used to do it all the time but he passed away 9/11/08 and i miss him a lot <3. i wear my heart on my sleeve, my pain on my collar, and my joy in my eyes. i can't sit still for more then 5 seconds. i yell at scary movies, when something is behind a door and someone goes to walk in, im in the theater like "NO, DON'T DO IT". i hate disappointing people. i love hoodies and i wish i could wear one everyday. i'm too indecisive. i don't like it when people can't look me in the eye when they talk, it makes me think they are lying. but i know that i don't always look at people while i am talking to them. i hate when people open birthday or Christmas presents really slow, i know i rip mine open like a billion dollars is inside. i wish i knew what people were thinking, but i'd probably end up heartbroken that way. i like watching people. i always have chap-stick with me, im addicted. old people are adorable. i love getting back rubs. i hate not having someone to talk to. I laugh at all the wrong times. I always change the channels on the tv really fast.

"i hate myself more than i ever let on.
i’m burnt out at twenty-one.
i lived too fast and i loved too much
and i’ll die too young.
but i chose this cup that i drank from,
knew what i was getting into.
i couldn’t let out what I had to keep in.
i’m ashamed of myself and
the unspeakable sins that i’ve committed."

I draw on my hands, mostly reminders. i spend my weeks waiting for weekends. i love car rides, specially if i am not driving. dont get me wrong, i love driving, but i like relaxing and listening to music while staring out the window more! i have every birthday card i have ever been given, the homemade ones are the best. i don't believe in soul mates. i'm attracted to things that are completely opposite of what i ideally want. my dream job is to be the "twist and smile girl" on oreo commercials. i could care less how much shit you talk about me, i know who i am, as do my friends, your comments about me don't hurt me. i don't have a big ego. i just think you don't have a life if you spend time talking shit if you don't know me, or even knew me two years ago. i talk like i'm eight. I don't like boys with attitudes. I hate when things get under my finger nails. I looove drinking out of juice boxes. i like the old nickelodeon shows like doug and roccos modern life. I love the way snowflakes look in peoples hair. I think a lot of people look better in the rain. I really like how my hair feels right after i wash the conditioner out of it. one time i was watching "are you afraid of the dark" and it was the one where this guy was in a pool, and this invisible thing, came and drowned him, 'til this day, every time i go in a pool, i feel like hes there, so i rarely go in a pool by myself. I love the music at the end of forest gump when the feather floats away. I hate how some mirrors make you look better than others. if you are one of those people that never laugh, then you must have AIDS or some other kind of STD. My first kiss was unexpected. I love Play-Doh. I like getting stuff in the mail. i should learn to see the world from a more realistic point of view, i usually get my heart broken because i keep my hopes up too high. i always ask questions, probably too many. i hate people that want all the attention and always have something wrong with them or their life. sometimes i need to feel useful to be happy. i hate solving problems and 'guessing what'.

"I'd sure hate to break down here
Nothin up ahead or in the rearview mirror
Out in the middle of nowhere knowin
I'm in trouble if these wheels stop rollin
So God help me keep me movin somehow
Dont let me start wishin I was with him now
I made it this far without cryin a single tear
And I'd sure hate to break down here."

i'm not a very forgiving person and i'm not one for second chances unless it's worth it. pinky promises mean a lot to me, if i make one with you, i don't break it, and if you break one, we are not friends. fake people are the stupidest ones out there. i know stupidest isn't correct grammar. i LOVE coloring books. i don't care how fat you think i am, because i probably think i'm fatter. i think wearing overly padded bras is cheating. but wearing no bra at all is gross. i love looking at fish and sharks at the aquarium. i am a hypocrite. i have ADD, bad. i think cheesy pickup lines are cute. i used to pretend i was the little mermaid when i took a bath. i like to break the rules. i still like spin the bottle, but i won't kiss you if i don't want to. i get excited when i see empty refrigerator boxes. i hog the covers in bed. i still like playing truth or dare. i don't care how big your muscles are. i go out of my way to save slugs on my front step. i don't play sports but i love watching the phillies, they are my favorite. i'm probably jerking off to your myspace pictures. i pick my wedgies in public. i would love to go to the zoo more often than i do, watching the polar bears is my favorite. i like to play hide and go seek and marco polo. if you don't like who I am, chances are I don't like you either. i realized that lying to yourself makes the situation ten times worse, so i stopped. i wish i knew what was going to happen in 5 minutes, but at the same time, does it really matter? i tend to back away from everything that goes wrong, and don't try and fix it. I have made some not-so-smart choices. Lots of them, actually. I don't know if I'd ever do one of those "I have genital warts" or "Even people like me get constipated" commercials, unless the money was reallllly good. I make weird faces and I don't even realize it, sometimes people think im being rude and giving them dirty looks. i repeat myself. i have the worst memory, of all time. the first CD I ever owned was M.C. Hammer. I hate movies about dancing because there are so many, and they are really all the same. I watch porn. I think geeks are hot. I am still a hardcore Backstreet Boys fan. i wish the pennies that you throw in the wishing fountains actually made your wishes come true. i always seem to fall for those who bring out the worst in me.

"Love is never easy,
But seeing you leave is always hard,
And time didn't heal my wounds at all."

i love mooning people out of the car window and more then 3/4 of the people in my town have seen my ass weather they know it was mine or not. the things i complain the most about are the things i care most about. i'm immature. i don't think it's easy to understand why memories hold our hand, but people let go. i have realized that there are certain people who aren't meant to be in your life, no matter how much you want them there. it's depressing that small mistakes can change everything. i lost a part of myself, and i won't ever get it back. i sweat like a man but it's okay because my friends thinks it's sexy. i don't always show affection in front of people. mostly because i hate when people are making out all over the place in front of me. i hate being at home alone and it seriously brings my mood down. i don't like grape jelly but i love the strawberry kind. i like having the windows down. i want to learn to play piano. once i smashed a jar of mayonnaise in the street. i have it on tape. im un-interesting and detaching. i laugh, i cry, i mostly cry. i always, always, have my hopes up. i used to wear leg warmers on my arm. i bite my bottom lip. did you ever watch a long movie and it makes you cry at the end? i want my life to be that movie. once a few people that i used to call friends and i stole a water melon, rode our bikes to wawa, and smashed it on the ground so we could eat it. but it was warm and nasty so we just left. if you see me, put your arms around me. i judge on first impressions, deal with it. i like the window seat. i have no sympathy for stupid people. i hate gross teeth. not a lot of people get my sense of humor and i'm not here to explain it to you. if you don't have a clue, i'm most likely sitting back laughing at you. when i get old i'm going to have a lot of wrinkles since i laugh a lot. i don't like cows, actually they scare the shit out of me. i like to read. i like finding secret spots that I only share with special people. i'm stubborn. be fucking original and don't copy me. monster energy drinks are so good. building a city would be easier than understanding me. i like to read about crazy murderers. i love beautiful things. i pee a lot, mostly squatting outside. i like getting out of the shower and writing in the steam on the mirror, but i can't stand when people write in steam or dust on my car windows! i'm sarcastic when i love you, kind when I don't. i hate people who remind me of myself. my glass is half full, but it tastes like shit. it's amazing the things you realize when you lose someone, you get mad at yourself for not saying the things you could've a million times, you take for granted the days spent doing nothing when you could have been with them. anyone can leave, at any time in our lives, but we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to before.

"You've had an apology in your mailbox.
since last July.
Funny how when you find the words
you get no reply."

when i sit i swing my feet cause they usually barely reach the floor. most of the time, there is no explanation for things i do or say. i love rainbow sherbet ice cream. i hate when people hit me, push me, or pull me, even just kidding around. i hate when people force me to wake up. you'll never change me, so stop trying. i think too much, especially when i'm alone. i'm prone to accidents. you probably won't change my mind. i am lazy but i get things done. i like to draw, but that doesn't mean that im good at it. don't just tell me something i want to hear, MEAN IT. I love hugging the right person, and you can feel them squeezing like they don't want to let go. i love when a boy my age has writing of a five year old. sometimes if something happens while i am tired, when i wake up, i can't remember if it really happened, or if it was a dream. im good at one thing, that's eating. i'm not down with sluts. i was once a big fan of cough syrup. i used to rub budda a lot. i'm afraid no one will ever love me as much as my dog does. when i was a little kid i pretended the windex bottle was the mother ship sending her army to destroy the world (which was the counter under the mirror) and the rag was the hero that stopped the drippy acid aliens before they reached it. i don't like toilets that flush by themselves. wet paper and sucking on wood (loli pop sticks) gives me the chills. sleep overs are my favorite. I want to kiss underwater, and float on a cloud. i hate having something for someone, like for christmas or birthdays, and having to wait to give it to them. I want to swim in frosting. I blow kisses at strangers. I want my dreams, to become reality. I want shoes that can handle my adventures. I want a magic wand. I want to bleed the color green. playing in the snow is fun. love letters are cute, so write me one. watching the stars from the roof of a car is amazing. my favorite thing to do with a boy is slow dance. i think little richard is creepy as hell. i have been arrested, more then once. i sleep with a night light on. i want to visit a nude beach but i don't want to be naked. Sometimes to keep it together, you've got to leave it alone. i'm a very picky eater. i consider scrunching my hair fancy. it's always up in a messy bun. i love not acting my age, even more when that pisses people off. i love the lion king and i cry every single time mufasa dies. i neverrr wear jeans. i'm not usually taken seriously. i'm hyper at 2 in the morning. i'm always late, but i hate when other people are always late. i'm really good at air hockey. i get annoyed that everyone on myspace lists every band they have ever heard a song by in an attempt to look like they listen to soooo many bands. i hate being copied off of; i hate when people try to act like me.

"I live in notes & photographs
and everything I'm holding back
but you're the words that weren't enough
you remind me of a song I used to love."

some people tell me i have a problem knowing what's right and wrong. i hate shaving, but i still do it. i hate girls who are constantly worried about nothing but looking good. my friends know how to party. when i was little i used to dial GRANDMA but it just told me the time. it doesn't work anymore. i hate hot sauce. i ramble, and don't pay attention to what i'm saying, it gets me in trouble. i wait until the last minute for everything. i hate being interrupted, but i know i interrupt people sometimes. i'm supposed to be washing dishes right now. i hate when people have a black background and write in a dark color like navy blue so i have to highlight everything if i want to read it. my favorite number is 9. i love first dates, i usually hate every other date after that. i have one of those down blankets with the feathers in them and it is the best blanket in the world, i bring it everywhere with me if i sleep out. i love evesdropping. Class of 06, yeah i made it. if it's 11:11 i make a wish (its normally the same thing.) i think maybe one day if i keep wishing, theres a chance, that it will come true. i used to leave random love letters in peoples lockers i didn't know. sometimes i feel almost positive that i'm bipolar. i hope everyday he won't forget what it was like to be 100% head over heels, in love with me. when my friend died, my mom suggested a vacation to 'get away', but we got cable instead. you know how some dryers eat socks? i think mine eats hope. i'd like to read a newspaper story that ends with "but she was just having a bad dream, really, she's okay". i like to think theres a whole world down in the ocean, with talking shrimp, and boys that call you back, but i can't hold my breath that long. i guess you could say im pretty fly. i'm a big flirt and i tend to flirt when i don't know im doing it, even with people i don't like. i think the new pope looks scary. take me as i am or fuck off. i gave blood, and cried, but not because it hurt. i wish i was a lesbian so i didn't have to deal with boys, but then id probably wish i was straight so i didn't have to deal with girls. i am a hedonist. i whisper 'i love you' when i know you cant hear me. everyone deserves a chance but not everyone deserves a second chance. i don't have money to travel yet, so i flirt with forgein boys instead. i like when my clothes dont match and i like it even more when that pisses people off.

"once you've learned to be lonely,
and lonely is the only thing you've known.
it begins to feel like home,
it becomes your comfort zone.
once you've learned to be without someone,
and settle for the silence of an empty room,
it changes you.
there's a lot you have to undo,
once you've learned to be lonely."

when i was little, i dropped out of ballet to stay home and watch the ninja turtles. bill-nye the science guy was once my hero. i miss my best friend. i ramble when i'm nervous. i'm bored with life. you most likely wont hear me say the word "love" unless i'm talking about taco bell. i'm a coward, when things get tough, i bail. i push people that love me away like it's my job. i run to see if people will chase me. before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean. i spend time helping solve other peoples problems, so i don't have to think about mine. i once got teary-eyed to a Duracell commercial. life is a garden- dig it! someone once told me that i'm only happy when things are going wrong, i'm starting to believe it's true. i want a hippie van, badly. i always get shotgun. i sleep in my bra. i twist my hair, bad habit. i love to go fishing but the only live thing i can hook is worms, i feel bad if it's a little fishy. i don't know what i want to do or be, but i know i'll be amazing. i dwell way too long. i always write letters i don't send, most are typed as blogs. i want to get away. i wish superheros were real. i have enough friends. i'm not the kind of girl to wait by the phone. i'll do fine without you. i have a problem buying my own things, if you're ever with me i'll give you the money and you'll have to buy it for me, i have this crazy phobia of cash registers or something. i love life. i don't like being forgotten. i hope that everyone takes time to run through sprinklers like me and my friends do. if you pose half naked on myspace, don't add me. i have finally stopped trying to outrun my shadow. i'm a really light sleeper. i had the shingles once, it wasn't fun. you can live your life drawing lines, i'm living mine crossing them. i hate waiting in line. the weather has a big impact on my mood.

"But I'm the only one to blame.
Because I'm always saying:
It's okay, it's alright.
I put the pain away and let it slide.
I forgive and forget it.
Then you promise me I won't regret it.
But I do, it's not right."

i hate my phone bill. when i was 6, i promised myself that i'd jump off of a cliff on my 84th birthday. i get mad when i don't win. i don't like dealing with situations that will bring my guard down. running away? that's what i do best. love is most scary because one wrong move can change everything. when i was younger i threw away my values just to spite my friend. i'm the kind of girl that when you talk to me, i stare off and think about what i ate for lunch. i'll reply with a "yeah?" then talk about something completely off the subject. i used to think my whole life was a television show and that i was the only one who didn't know about it, sometimes i still do. i cry for peoples hate-filled hearts. some people dont realize that a stalking obsession is not love. i like playing board games, and jailbreak. but not monopoly, worst game ever. sometimes i hurt people- and i really don't care. i used to party A LOT, i still like to party, but i'm now content with just hanging out with my friends too. i can feel it when people are forgetting me. if you want to piss me off, bluntly don't listen to me while im speaking to you. sometimes, i look at old photographs and still believe its happening. exact change makes my day. i really hate people that get off on making other people feel worthless. im down with G O D. i love guitar hero. i had a kitten for three hours, i named her Pinky Promise, but my dad made me take her back, so i got a beta fish instead and named him Ricky Bobby, i mentioned him before, he got flushed. fake tans are only good to a certain point. if you look like burnt toast, you are past that point. i'm for gay people being able to marry each other, i think it's beautiful. i can't wait until this "i have to be skinny and make myself throw up and starve to be beautiful" thing is over. junk in the trunk is definitely hotter to me, and i have it. one of my favorite sounds is my little brothers laugh. sometimes i get in these moods where i think i can do whatever i want and just completely fuck up my life, because i can always simply start over again- then i realize i only have one chance. i'm horrible at trying to figure out if people will be in my life for a while or not. i still play dress up. i will automatically hate girls that look easy, not because i'm jealous. but because i hate girls that look easy. when it comes to my clothes- i'd take comfort over cute any day. i used to drive a tan 2006 kia rio, but now im car-less. reading the Poland spring water label calms me down.

"She's got a scar on her chest
in the shape of a badge.
Now it's rusted and cracked,
it meant someone once believed in her,
but that time has passed."

i like tanning at my favorite place in the world, imagesun. i hate when people look through my shit without asking. i hate people that have something you want so they rub it in your face. if you are here to try to make me jealous, fuck off. i like long shirts, and polka dots. i constantly over-react. i'm a hypocrite, but at least i can admit it. sometimes i think i dont have a conscious. nothing heals a broken heart more then an ex with a bad haircut. I'll keep my love for the world, even though it beats me down everyday. i have a besttt friend named Jimmy that is in the army and he means so much to me. if you are two-faced, i realllly hate you and please don't bother trying to be in my life. i don't split poles- it's bad luck. i don't mind hanging out with a couple, as long as they aren't sucking each others faces every time i turn around. i don't like when people don't know what they want, or who they are. i wish my heart was as big as my moms, she is beautiful. i hate when someone treats me like a liar, so if they do, i start becoming one (just to them). i avoid cracks in the sidewalk, they will break your moms back, you know? i love watching jerry springer, and spongebob. i want to fly, but i'm afraid of heights. my phone gets shut off every month. i feel safe in someones arms, even though it's emotionally the most dangerous place to be. i feel more beautiful when i stand near the ocean then anywhere else. when I was little, my uncle used to say that inside of the cars air-bags was uncooked popcorn. when you wrecked the popcorn would pop and you would have a snack until help came. life is more beautiful when i'm sad. i always trust the wrong people, and don't trust the right ones. if i could lay in the grass and watch cloud shapes go by all day, i would. half the time i ask questions, i don't even listen to the answers. i love to fall. i like to believe that i'm not a coward by any means, but it's probably not true. when i was little i was convinced our bath tub came out of the bathroom at night and danced with the blue leather recliner. i think flaws are BEAUTIFUL. i love sunflowers. i love camping, unless it's hot and sticky. the last time i put my past in a box- i threw it away, where will you put your past? i love swinging bridges. it doesn't matter where you have been, only where you are going. sometimes i have nightmares and i really just want someone to talk to in the middle of the night about them until i can fall back to sleep. i booty dance in the shower.

"even though we've made mistakes,
i believe those are just things you've done,
not who you are.
you hurt me very badly.
But if you want forgiveness, you are forgiven.
Who am I to judge the type of person you are?
the consequences for your actions will affect you and me
for the rest of our lives.
Trusting people these days isnt easy,
and this punishment you face wont be easy either.
but you have to decide whether you want to accept responsibility and deal with the punishment
or continue living like you dont care when we both know you do.
You are not the things youve done,
but you only get so many chances in life.
Dont wait to change until after you're out of chances."

i love strawberry coolatas from dunkin donuts. i actually love anything strawberry. i regret caring, but that doesn't mean i'll stop. graffiti is beautiful. i'm awkward. i'm always shaking. i want someone to spill my secrets to. my temper scares me. mistakes are my company. i like taking the back roads. i can't stand feeling helpless. i'm tired of being told how to feel. most people have no reason not to believe in themselves, i'm not one of those people. cheap romance novels turn me on. i don't belong in new jersey. i want to be the reason someone wakes up in the morning. i want someone to read to. the perfect life for me would be waking up every night in a different city. i don't want to grow up, but i can't wait to start a life on my own, and have a family. i'm scared of being insignificant. i live in fear that everything i do in life is wrong. i crave visibility. i clip coupons like it's my job. i buy things i don't need and will never use just because they are on sale. i think i was the tin man in a past life, because i too, have no heart. i killed my old life in search of something better.. why can't i find something better? i want to die with the sun on my face. old time photos are fun. i don't want to be lonely. i sleep a lot during the day because i work nights. i idolize Billie Holiday and her tragic lifes story. one time my grandmother thought she vaccuumed up a quarter so she made me open the bag, dump it out on her front lawn, and dig through it, no quarter. i live off of icees and microwavable food. i could care less about politics. saying "thank you" is extremely important to me. there should be a network that airs "i love lucy" re-runs all day long. i have never had braces. sometimes, i want to look the way i feel. if popping pimples was my profession, i'd actually like my job. age really is just a number. love is compromise. i like getting charlie brown christmas trees. the song to best describe my life is "i got 99 problems but a bitch aint one", and i'm not even kidding. i wish i hadn't burned so many bridges, i guess i'm pretty hard-headed. i hate watching people waste their time on other people, be with somebody who realizes what they have when they have you. probably because i have wasted so much time on the worst people. sometimes i want to stand in traffic just to see if cars would stop. no one should ever forget to share their happiness. i'm always the last one to give up on people. life blows so enjoy the breeze. i don't even want to try seafood because when i see it, i think of the little mermaid and her underwater friends. I want a love like cory and topanga. i always say to do what you want, and act on impulse and do what your heart tells you to, all that crap, but i truely believe to never walk away, because you really don't know how much you might regret it later. We are all addicted to something that takes away the pain. I always let people get the best of me. I hate feeling weak. Sometimes I don't know the difference between feeling content, and settling. No one should ever settle. I hurt a lot of amazing people along the way, I'm sorry. I break my back with the weight of peoples hearts.

"lets make a list of what we need
then throw it away.
because i don't need anybody."

I would love for edward scissorhands to be the monster under my bed. Sometimes all I really want to do is understand. I believe an eye for an eye, even though that makes the whole world blind. I wish someone would come into my life and make me believe in love again. Someone recently told me the reason I can't hold a relationship is because the walls i have built around my heart are unbreakable. It's mostly true, but if someone cared enough they would tare down those walls. I guess what I'm saying is, my exterior is hard, but all I want is someone that will say, "She is crazy, but that's why i love her more then anything." I think sleeping is a waste of time and I hate doing it, but I have to. I don't let people talk to me like shit. dreams are free, never forget that. I always wonder which, if any, people that told me "i love you" in my life actually meant it. i wish someone would make me feel something, im tired of being so hollow. I miss being overwhelmed by someone. you wear your heart on your sleeve, i throw mine to the sky. i have cried wolf a thousand times. i love the feeling of being scared, specially if someone is there to hold me. sometimes i get so mad, i can't even think. i would rather read, then watch tv, unless spongebob is on! i would rather have a broken neck then a broken heart. christmas and the holiday season makes me want to fall in love. i googled "romance" to see where it would take me, i learned that i'm no latin lover, i can't afford gold watches, and i'd probably run if a lion was eating someone i loved. sometimes i worry the world will run out of mysteries. Goodbyes hurt, but only mean forever if you let them. pictures never replace having been there. ladies, theres no point in kissing a man who's never told you that you're beautiful. as a matter of fact, i have just deceided that i will never again kiss a man that has never told me i'm beautiful. sometimes i stop talking to people out of no where because i feel like they deserve better. sometimes you have to stand alone, just to prove you still can. once i was driving and i stopped to let a pinecone cross the road because I thought it was a hedgehog. i wish my cell phone had a breathalizer. i wish i weren't so intense. i hate sharing special things with people because when you don't talk to them anymore it doesn't ever mean as much. i love stealing hoodies from people. mistakes aren't always regrets. most people in my phone are only in there so i can hit the ignore button when they call. you don't have to support the war in iraq, but if you don't support our troops don't even bother talking to me.

"I keep waiting for your love to save me
And tell me that we'll find our way
I think we're lost."

i have learned that when you move on, you don't close the book, you just turn the page. a new chapter begins and you will never forget the old pages, no matter how hard you try to tare and burn them. you never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have. it's not important to me to have a bunch of friends, only real ones. the wall i built is not to block anyone out, it's to see who loves me enough to climb over it. i have the worst luck ever. for me, every time one good thing happens, ten bad things follow. i like watching puddles gather rain. if i want to cry, i'll cry. don't let yourself be so angry that you stop loving because one day you'll wake up from that anger, and the person you love will be gone. i hate the traffic lights that count down. know that feeling you get when you're sitting on a chair leaning back on two lets and you almost fall but catch yourself at the last second? i feel like that all the time. i wish ex's would disappear into a world where we never have to deal with them again, and they can just create drama for each other. Then if they wanted to talk to us, they would have to apply to get a "visa" to come back to our world. i don't cry in front of people often, but when i do, i feel like telling all of my secrets. i can't stand when people leave time on the microwave! it is never a mistake to say goodbye. i've mad a cop pinky promise not to ticket me before, and he kept it. I have a drunk sixth sense to lyrics of songs i don't know. It only works when i dance.



"You can't be dumb enough to dream so big."
"Are you serious? This is Dani you are talking to."
"You're right, yes you can."




"How good it felt to kill the memory
of nights spent holding your shirt for the smell,
I heard you used to cry when you made love to him"