Thom Collins

Who I'd like to meet:

AN HONEST HUMAN BEING.. ACT 2: At a glance I will intrigue, if I am able to keep you intrigued don't be shocked if my ideas/thoughts provoke or offend. If you can exist with you and I the right to agree to disagree...then I am your guy. WARNING: Grammar, some Spelling, and the tragic misuse of Quotations in personal posts than I may not be your guy. I am an Online Veteran AOL 1.5 1995, my own domain name a dot.com along with a very dated html web site. Went up late 1995 and all this prior to "The Inter-net's" becoming part of our Mainstream Culture. Thom Collins is my handle for every Social, Web-ware 2.0, Visual, and any if not all "beta" sites which have come and have since gone. Take responsibility when reading one of my more political posts, do remember to read at your own risk. From Spiritual, Emotional, Debatable, lovable, Political, usually all posts have nothing in common. My Mission Statement is simple: Entertain 1st to hypnotize your Eyeballs or for my deaf readers Eardrums fascinated, intrigued, or even angry. Then the 2nd and final step or the most crucial part keeping you coming back inviting your "cliques" sorry I mean Networks.Label Makers belong in the Republican and Religious organizations. They need this machine which prints out sticky labels to remind them who everyone else is, I bet if they labeled or attempted to try to use it on themselves honestly would have to go to therapy, have a date night, join Exodus, or maybe even AA when faced with the very fear of being grouped with others who embrace, accept, and live with what God dealt them. Not always easy to have in my case 8 plus health issues when broken down can then be sub categorized into smaller groups or labels like your Gay, Depressive, or my personal favorite Sinner. Adjectives and I are best of friends. With homosexuality some not all are mellow dramatic, creative, and quick witted, but all Interior decorating style is in my mouth. I hate people but love crowds? Loving both was exhausting still trying to learn how to be a good friend one on one. When I have tried in the past I have come to the conclusion my lighthearted naivete' didn't serve me well and my early twenties had a ball and a ton of "friends" which I would sadly discover was either being used, stolen from, or lied too causing me to misjudge good people from the bad ones. Have you ever been a person who was the "it" or "fun" person to be with or know but out of say 20 individuals wanting your attention and want to be friends, you find out just one person at this imaginary function just doesn't like you and has no reason just isn't impressed. Like clockwork everyone who said they were liking me or cared I would then blow off and spend endless amounts of energy trying to convince this "label hater" to like me and then my neurotic behavior kicks in and next thing you know I am demanding answers, pulling the plug off the music at a party, and by that point so hung up on WHY this person had such power over me I would be so high as a kite my left eye would be half closed, jaw going side to side, chain smoking and suddenly realize when it is way to late to drop it I have somehow morphed into this obnoxious ass hole who would later be gossiped in La's gay rags and tabs as The character Neely O'Hara made famous by Patti Duke in the cult classic Valley of the dolls. This was my punishment as it read, Thom Collins Ala flashback from the many ingested drugs since childhood channeled Neely O'Hara begging someone or for that matter ANYONE to pay attention to him, as you have figured out the him would be me. But I didn't look for negative attention it was one of many insecurities I would later learn to grip but until now I am trying to rejoin the Planet just for now minus one precious ape. I could not have made any of my dreams come true, along with my emotional, physical, health and understanding these past 25 plus years without my partner David with whom I am with and being 15 years younger and just loosing Rolex having a partner in today's day and age is something to be proud of which really goes without saying. We both been to hell and back but my FAITH since a young child is why I am not dead or insane, neurotic maybe but I am the real deal no bullshit, games, or the need to be in the center of those involved attention. To make new contacts it has to be honest, with respect allowing friendships to flourish with the attitude for all parties included it is okay to agree to disagree without taking someones beliefs, feelings, or opinions personally. I no longer truly hate anything or anyone but I would much rather keep company with a 12 year old capuchin monkey named Rolex. So I am a bit wiser but learning something new everyday or at least try too. I was just going to cut and paste my profile to a web site and started an hour ago and instead of pasting I am adding. This is how my brain rolls and I have to get it out of me otherwise it sits in my crowded thoughts and can cause me pain or issues like God forbid drugs or drinking to deal. Keeping a journal be it private or public is how I get by and move on. Thanks to your eyeballs for giving me a second glance.