I enjoy being with my family, and friends. I love to take long walks and think. I enjoy shopping, going to the movies, out to eat, bowling, fishing, talking on my phone, watching late night movies, cooking, and cleaning.
Music
Beyonce Knowles,
Jay Z,
Kelly Rowland,
Salonge Knowles,
Nelly,
R Kelly,
P Diddy,
Danity Kane,
Jessica Simpson,
Mariah Carey,
Kelly Price,
Nancy Sinatra,
Alicia Keys,
Britney Spears,
Gwen Stefani,
Rascal Flatts,
Lil Wayne,
Amanda Lepore,
Missy Elliot,
Anita Baker,
Al Green,
Dianna Ross,
Patti Labelle, and more!
I pretty much listen to anything that catches my attention.
Movies
I would watch any movie, as long as It's worth watching.
Television
George Lopez is my favorite show, I think George is really funny. The show would really have you going, you should try watching it sometimes.
Books
I love all of the Harry Potter Books, Lies with in me, and Secrets. I read some books when I get the chance, but most of the time you might catch me in a SCHOOL NOTE BOOK!
Heroes
The only 3 people in my life. God, my mother, and myself.
I’m a billboard, advertising your aging confidence, self-destruction and sagging self-esteem. The appearance of my own body is cut and dissected every time I breathe. My horror of beauty is not when I’m laying naked on the bathroom floor, but when I’m staring at myself, wondering what’s underneath the painted-on feelings and made-up eyes. I’m not a fucking beauty queen. When I walk into the bathroom, I’m not getting pretty.. I’m destroying myself. Repairing myself from the damage I’ve done. Whether YOU like it or NOT. The ceiling of fear crashes down on me when I pick up the latest fashion magazine and find that no one else looks like me. But what is ME? Where has the word "real" gone to? Maybe reality is blonde hair, plastic body parts, tan skin and porcelain teeth? I think it’s sweaty skin, smeared lipstick and a big mouth, being afraid of nothing and truly LOVING yourself without BEING someone else. The vanity sanctuary will keep me safe and you can try to break me down but you’re only hurting yourself, just like you’re supposed to be doing. I’ll be dying in my makeup and you’ll be dying without it. Did you have a point? Because somewhere in your own special ugliness you lost meaning and I forgot what you said. So center the text and write some more, it’s all mine..and its all needneedneed. Memememememe. You’re famous last words were forgotten because no one was listening. Quite time now, surgery isn’t an option. Famous for being famous, in popular culture terminology, refers to Tie Cardashian attains celebrity status for no particular identifiable reason. Tie Cardashian will often be somehow attached to individuals who are considered to be famous for another reason. The term is a pejorative, suggesting that the individual has no particular talents or abilities. Half PRETTY BOY and half MEGA PRINCE at,iam photo junkie and designer clothes junkie. I wasn't born a Pretty Boy. I scratched, screamed and screwed out an existence from the back woods of Deliverance amidst the surfers and tanned plastic whores of rural Lake County In Indiana. My life is just another reminder that I'm the reason teenage girls shove their fingers down their throats and little boys question their style. Because unlike every other bitch on this myspace.com hype, I prefer being under the floor with the worms while you all crash around in the ten inch stilletos you don't need, tripping all over one another's bullshit that drags as far behind you as your fake faces. I like being solitary and refined. I like people passing over me when my style isn't on. THEY care because they need the hits, the friends, the name that rides currents.
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They need to be part of the radiowaves that bring anyone else to attention. They need people to turn their heads when they say the same thing everyone else does in the same voice with the same face and in the same $60 pants that were worn in by the same asian kids getting paid the same bum change in the same factory living the same miserable fucking life. You didn't buy those clothes at a fucking thrift shop. Your idea of vintage is a boy scout shirt complete with badges you never earned nor even understand the symbols of on fucking sale for $99.50. And the world is going to hell and Im driving the bus....And their are no seat belts bitches. I like to be the last person to walk into a room so that all eyes are on me from head to toe....People look at me and think that Im crazy or Stuck up well truth is IT'S NOT TRUE!! I'm someone who is'nt afraid of showing my true colors of my personality... I love the way I look but I do not broadcast about it because I can get ut taken from me the same way I got it... In the past few months my life has changed so much,for the worst..for the better..Theres so many crazy people in the world I was oblivious to.It's a sick world out there.I guess it's called growing up..realizing everything for what it really is. Im always wanting everything NOW and I was always in such a rush to grow up..well I got it and I want to go backwards.Theres no going back and you cannot take back or regret anything..you have to live in the moment of now and you can only focus on the problem in front of you and the future...or you will kill yourself trying to get where you want.I wish I would start listening to my own words. I have to ask myself what do I want from my life..I have so much talent but am I so easy to just throw it away? Being internet famous isnt a life goal..but doing what I love and being creative is.Thats all I've ever wanted.I'm not an act or a fake personality..and at least I can respect that about myself..it's not about hair and style and clothes..it's about my self expression and how its one of the few things that makes me so happy.Alot of people seem to have so much to say about me..but in a weird way having them say things has put me in a different perspective of seeing how much people try to attack eachother and how ugly it is.I never want that as myself. Life's a dream than you wake up.They said I'd never be anything but who has the world watching them? Who has such amazing and dedicated fans? People need to hate me because they hate themselves. They want to believe the rumors about me because they don't have their own rumors. I'm here to stay, with my diamond rims and pink lipstick, so get used to it and worry about yourself before you try and be negative about me. I grew up living this lifestyle. No one had the time to touch me, because I didn't want to take the time to be a fast little boy! At a young age, do you know I used to walk around the house playing with dolls, playing with my mom curlers, and being in heels lmao! I knew I was going to live the life of a homosexual------ years before my mother did. She stated,"Terrell is going to be gay, watch I tell you!!!!!!". Mother's know everything is what was told to me by Veneva Smith Watkins. I hated the fact that a person assume what you are, or the life you're going to live if they really don't know you. No one Know who I am. I used to be Terrel Smith, Then Terrell Smith, Now!!!! Tie Cardashian - Car-da-sean (I BROKE IT DOWN FOR THE DUMB PEOPLE LOL). I grew up not liking my name, and not liking how people categorize me just because the life I choose to live. I learned so much, and watched people mistakes, and made 3 big ones on my own.
I grew in this lifestyle. I been put in the category for other peoples action. I respect me. I'm beautiful, but being the way I am, I can be a positive me and not sell myself, suck dick in the back of a car, wearing press on nails, and ragged weave! I don't have to tell you what positions I take on in the bedroom, I don't disrespect you, you've always done it to me, so I had no choice but to pull a reflex. That's how it's always been with me. I have NO TOLERANCE for the B.S! UNDERSTAND THAT! LIKE IT OR LEAVE IT :-) YOU COULD NEVER GET A CHANCE TO LOVE ME, IF YOU KEEP MAKING CHOICES ON JUDGING ME. I WONT DO IT TO YOU! I WILL BE HEARD!
The morning when I woke up and I realized that no one but myself mattered in the long run, was the moment I'll never forget. And I don't mean that in a self-absorbed way. I mean, not caring what anyone thinks about me when they don't know me. It's very easy to follow the crowd and be like everyone else.. but why not be who you are on the inside. Ignore opinions and people telling you what you should like. I just woke up and said "Fuck it, if I wanna like BEYONCE that have Silky Brown and Blonde hair, I can! If I want to choose my life the way I want to live it, and of course you being the typical person that sit back, laugh, and make jokes about me. I'M ME.... FACE IT HONEY! " RESPECT ME BECAUSE I DO! That might sound stupid when you say it out loud but I have a lot of respect for people that don't succumb to what the world thinks is "right" - and that doesn't mean you have to have a bright color hair or dress weird to be considered "yourself" because that's constricting what I'm saying.. I just think that everyone should be happy without worrying what the person next to them is saying. Be strong. Be yourself. You only live once and I don't ever wanna change. Don't give up on whatever it is you want to be. I get labeled a "bitch" because I don't put up with people putting me down. I don't turn around and pretend I don't hear people talking shit behind my back. I go up and tap them on the shoulder and say "fuck you" and that's what more people need to do. Stop being insecure and stand up for yourself. There's no time for fake friendships and hurt feelings. Look at yourself in the mirror and say "I don't care anymore" that may sound like Dr. Phil but I'm being serious. Stop caring if the guy you like doesn't like your weight. Stop worrying about if someone isn't going to like you because you like a band that they don't. It's all so petty. I'm proud to be a bitch instead of a coward. My life may be weird and boring and stupid to some, but at least its mine--not some assembly line, secondhanded, hand-me-down life. Sometimes I wonder....am I really that crazy??? But then I stop to think about it and realized that I am not crazy....I am just living my life to the fullest! I wake up everyday asking myself the same question, which in turn, will determine all of my decisions for the rest of the day. That question is, "What if I died tomorrow?" Yes. Who knew such a simple question would make such a big impact on my life and how I live it. I guess that pretty much explains why I am such a carefree person. I don't want to have any regrets in my life so of course I live it the way I want to live.....people always say that all they want is happiness....well, in order to find that happiness, you must learn to let go of EVERYTHING. yes. Everything. Once you open up that portal and become a free spirit, good things will start to come to you in abundance. It's like a magnet that calls out to the universe and all of it's energies and particles. It's really not that hard. Everything that happens in life is something that you, yourself have manifested...even the bad things whether you realize it or not, and you know what else? Even the "bad" things aren't really necessarily "bad" There is always a reason behind events that take place and you have to be open-minded enough to take on these mysteries and obstacles that life throws at you. It will eventually lead you to happiness.....but you have to "trust" the blueprint that has been drawn out for you. All you have to do is follow it and everything else will be taken care of. and free your soul. Life is meant to be lived....not wasted.
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