name: tamilyn mendiola
birthday: 24 july 1989
age: 19
gender: female
ethnicity: chamorro, filipino, japanese
location: fort bragg, north carolina
hometown: oahu, hawaii & rota, cnmi
occupation: us army

lil journal & music

14june09army birthday went to sharkie's with jonny then smith came. my first strip club i went to and it was fun! lol.
30may09fiifii, barnes&nobles, mongolian grill jonny gave me a car n i named it fiifii =). we had the windshield changed, oil change, car wash, n complete interior cleaning. yes it was spoiled today. jonny bought me two new books. i also took him to mongolian grill n he likes it. first time i put gas in the car n he taught me how. also my first time to go to a naughty store which was also wit him =). i didnt buy anything though so thats aiite lol. fun day!!! ooohhhh... we also collected about five dollars in coins inside fiifii lol. went swimming too in the pool!! yay!
29may09mongolian grill had a goin away party for the commander =).
28mar09smith's bday was at ronnie's new house! i loved the barbecue!
27mar0951 cents jonny & i pulled two quarters & one penny out of our pockets at the same time. somekinda coincidence or somethin lol.
19mar09range qualified with my weapon. first time firing it! finally had a 24 on my 3rd try <(-__-)>. same score like basic training =) lol.
18mar09dragon warrior challenge had to be in MOPP 4 for a few hours for the challenge. i was in the CBRN Decontamination Team.
13mar09gas chamber i was scared at first but i thought it was a joke when i got in since i didn't feel anything.
1jan09new years day had my first new years kiss ever & it was wiff jonny, yay! =D

The Rose That Grew From Concrete
Did you hear about the rose that grew
From a crack in the concrete?
Proving nature's law is wrong it
Learned to walk with out having feet.
Funny it seems, but by keeping it's dreams,
It learned to breathe fresh air.
Long live the rose that grew from concrete
When no one else ever cared.

- Tupac

I'd Love To Be A Fairy's Child
Children born of fairy stock
Never need for shirt or frock,
Never want for food or fire,
Always get their heart's desire:
Jingle pockets full of gold,
Marry when they're seven years old.
Every fairy child may keep
Two strong ponies and ten sheep;
All have houses each his own,
Built of brick or granite stone;
They live on cherries, they run wild-
I'd love to be a fairy's child

- Robert Graves

Sugarplums

♥Leo ♥Year of the Snake ♥ruby birthstone ♥Wallace Rider Farrington High School ♥Alumni c/o 2008 ♥island gurl ♥bilingual ♥Chobits ♥Panda Express orange chicken, beijing beef, chow mein ♥Dr Pepper ♥Cotton Candy Flavor Push Pop & watermelon ♥pizza bagels ♥cup noodle but not shrimp or chicken ♥sings in the shower ♥loves dancin ♥stars are pretty ♥i love azuzephre, happy bunny, pucca love, skelanimals, & explosm ♥gullible ♥texting is fun ♥likes workin on 1000 pieces puzzles ♥orchids are my fave flowers ♥dont like receiving flowers coz they die =(. unless the flower is white roses =) ♥Fave number 13 ♥pink ♥Guitar Heroes ♥Left Handed ♥Hope to be massage therapist one day ♥wishes on rainbows ♥wishes when it's 1:11 ♥typhoons are fun especially hiking on the same day ♥I wanna watch America's Next Top Model & Janet Dickinson's Modeling Agency wiff Shayne Sodetani ♥Sarah R. and i yell but that's how we tlk to each other ♥She taught me how to solve a rubik's cube! ♥Dionare N. is a biter in a good way hahahaha ♥I whoop Alvin Yasay's ass!!! ♥was with him during AIT ♥pink Lite Nintendo DS ♥Jamba Juice

imperfect

Do you know the reason why nobody's perfect? It's because of love. We are destined to love an imperfect person. Our mission is to fill each other's emptiness. It's nice to know the fact that you love someone behind his imperfections. love bears with all things, no one can hinder. And there is no perfect reason why you love a certain person. That's love. As the saying goes, "TO LOVE IS NOT BY FINDING A PERFECT PERSON, BUT BY LEARNING TO SEE AN IMPERFECT PERSON PERFECTLY."

Every person...

...that comes into your life has a profound reason for entering it. It is not by chance. There is a reason behind it. They help you along the way, teach you a lesson or show you who you want to become. Always have a place in your heart for those people because without them you would not be who you are. If someone hurts you, breaks your heart, or betrays you, forgive them for they have taught you the best lesson of all. That single person has taught you about love, life, trust, who and when to open you heart to. They have also taught you to be more cautious with your love because love is precious and all too often taken for granted. If you love someone, show it. Love them unconditionally and without fear of being hurt, even if you know the end result will probably be that way. Love, because without love there is no life. Love them because they love you back and love them because they are teaching you new things everyday.

love and madness

One day, madness and love decided to play hide and seek. Madness decided to be the first to count. As he was counting, love can't decide where to hide. so at the last second, she throws herself at the rose bush. Madness searched, but couldn't find love anywhere. so in frustration, he thrust a spear into the rose bushes. surprised to find blood, he looked further and found love's eyes mixed with blood and tears. He cried and promised love that he'll be her eyes forever. From then on, love was blind, accompanied by madness.

quotes

"your tears don't wash away your sorrows, they feed someone else's joy. That's why you must learn to swallow your own tears." - the joy luck club

"The way it is with a wound. The wound begins to close on itself, to protect wat is hurting so much. And once it is closed, you no longer see what is underneath, what started the pain." - the joy luck club

"A secret wish is what you want but can't ask because if you ask for it, it's no longer a wish but a selfish desire." - the joy luck club

Being in love isn't what makes me smile, it's who I'm in love with that does.

"I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars." - og mandino

It's not the amount of breaths you take... it's the amount of moment that takes your breath away.

Have the strength to believe in something that isn't true.

Even if you rip my heart out and slam it on the ground I'll pick it up, dust it off, and hand it right back to you.

Love values potential more than performance.

The temptation to quit is greatest just when you are about to succeed.

It's funny how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the pieces.

Isn't it funny how when you want it the most, you can't have it and when you have it, you don't care and once you lose it you'd do anything to get it back?

i hate you... and then i love you. It's like I want to throw you off the cliff, then run to the bottom to catch you.

You can put a man on trial but you can't make the guilty pay, and you can cage an animal but you can't take away the rage.

The goal isn't to live forever, but to create something that will.

tv shows

♥America's Best Dance Crew ♥Heroes ♥Ugly Betty ♥Kimora:life in the fab lane ♥Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles ♥Psych ♥Nip/tuck ♥Dexter ♥America's Next Top Model ♥Janet Dickinson's Modeling Agency ♥Hannah Montana ♥Burn Notice