Shiner Girl

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If you believe in zodiacs, I am pretty much a text book Cancerian. I love all things creative from the artworks of Frida Kahlo, Rene Magritte to Robert Tatum; graphic art; photography and live music. When I was a kid I wanted to be so many things an archeologist (maybe I watched Indiana Jones one too many times); a Disney Animator; and then a photographer for Rolling Stone. Since high school I combined two of my interests for live music and photography which took me and my 35mm on shooting many live shows around San Antonio and Austin and it always has inspired me much like what people get out of religion.

My education has had me suffocated in Catholicism from Kinder to my B.A. For a brief time I wanted to go into politics because I felt it lacked common sense. But my heart has always been in the creative. It wasn’t a surprise that I was an art club, year book geek who went to a local university ended up on the student paper as a photo editor and worked photography gigs from a theme park photo vultures; mall portrait studios; photo labs and freelance for bands and radio stations. I may have been as poor as a church mouse, but I was pretty damn happy.

Once I became a single mom at 21, I knew the world was not about me and that my new role in life was to provide this kid with everything she would need to make her dreams come true and protect her with the fierceness of a wild animal. You see things different when you go from being someone’s child to being a parent. The world is actually scarier. I think the biggest struggle I have as a single mom is I have no one to have my back. Yes my parents help me watch her and help financially but it is with judgment. I mean I have no one on my level so as a single parent my biggest struggle with a now 11 year old girl is how do I protect her and let her start sticking her feet in the parana infested river we call life.

She is the pride of my life and the best thing I will ever do.

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Being a mom has dictated my career choices. I tried promotion jobs as they seem to wrap all the creative I loved and stilled earned a decent salary. But side tracked by money I ended up doing television marketing research which is working with my most dreaded and loathed subject – MATH. The TV Station aspect makes it bearable and having good co-workers makes it all doable. And as the money came in the relationships I have had suffered. I believe in being self sufficient and feel if a woman is waiting around for her knight in shining armor to save her ass she has only herself to blame when he drops her on it and she has taken no initiative to develop skills that will help her survive. While this attitude has dubbed me by my ex’s as "too damn independent", it is not a quality I think I would ever give up and would rather stumble around in singlehood. A good quote to my love life comes from High Fidelity Rob (played by John Cusack) "Well, I've been listening to my gut since I was 14 years old, and frankly speaking, I've come to the conclusion that my guts have shit for brains." Here's to hoping my gut though can be right... I met the most perfect person that really when I met him I said this is too good to be true. And my natural reaction when faced with a good thing is to run scared but every part of me is saying give this a shot. So with that Carlos is now in the picture and "us" will be the focal point. Stay tuned for great things. I think we are the dynamic duo.

By no means would I ever say I am anywhere near perfect. Back to the text book Cancer, I am stubborn; I hate to let anyone see me cry or get to that soft side so when I do it is a bit much for one person to take; I suck with how I manage my money; I am an insomniac thus a zombie morning person; and I guess my ex’s could fill in more on this list with all that is wrong with me. I also have this irrational hang up. The guys I date can't be younger than me... not even by seconds. There is a date from high school still sitting dumbfound on the fact that I was older by 3 min 37 sec and couldn't date him. I said it was irrational and I didn't say it was a good thing. But if someone wants me as there friend I am fiercely loyal, protective and lavish my loved ones with a ton of affection. Warning it always is to an extreme.

If you have read this much man, you are narcotic or bored but my interest on the left there, pretty much state my favorites from art, reading, photography to going out all over my town from Tuesday nights at SAMA or Bijou, First Fridays in South Town (Late Night With Cleto Rodriguez at Blue Star), watching local music at every hole in the wall, dancing to 80’s music, drinking Shiner and Jack with friends any where, singing along with my friends at Martini Club. And don’t forget my obsessive behavior over THE SAN ANTONIO SPURS and DALLAS STARS and then to fill the off seasons THE DALLAS COWBOYS.

My profile on MySpace is for networking and making new friends nothing else. I'm not on MySpace to "hook-up". I want to use this to network and keep in contact with my many friends and bands.

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