architecture, creating dreams into nightmares shedding light on the worlds injustices. exploring the theatre, social activism, religion. buildings built with love. her face, getting more wrinkled and stained. shiny metalic. fantasizing about all the things i do not have. a teal necklace simple over the cleavage. looking down, it shines, the promise. my first, my last, my everything. sitting on the couch with e poking the smot. the sound of the ocean and the warmth of the sunrise. feeling my childhood on my back. talking, really talking to people. feeling their love radiate out of them and into me. the moustache. observing crowds. observing myself. gorgeous monstrosities. giving kids a chance to be themselves not just duplicates of their parents. tatoos. the music of my people. the rythms of my family. exploring the world. seeing the beauty in everything. the opera.
Music
listen to your own heartbeat. that's where the music is.
the soundtrack of my life: Philip Glass
Movies
Amelie. Me and You and Everyone we Know. The Fountain. La Bamba. Strings
Television
no thank you
Books
yes please
Heroes
the love of my life. mami y papi. Anne Bogart. Richard Foreman. ARTISTS who see no boundaries to what is possible and no end to the change we can inspire. beings filled with love. the friends who put up with my ridiculousness and don't get angry when I don't keep in touch.
About me: packing up to leave...again!
never really feels like home and then i think
i still choose to believe that we are free
that we don't need the rules to see
that despite what we've done, we're not alone
we're closer than we think to home
call it heaven, call it reincarnation, call it enlightenment, call it death
i don't want your names
all i need is to feel it
inside of me
pulsing out of my scalp in hues of pink
bursting through the ink frog that lives on my foot
oh no, i'm not there yet.
of course not.
but i believe
we never truly arrive.
so it doesn't matter.
here and now is all there is.
my reality is here, packing
and it's beautiful
no one will ever pack these exact clothes into these exact suitcases for
this exact reason
i am here because of who i was
but who i was doesn't matter
all that matters is who i am
and this is who i am
i hope that when i die
my tombstone reads
she died...alive
passion. art. human rights. directing. architecture. sunshine and fluffy bunnies. sometimes dark sadness for the world.
i love! hard. strong. i love! a smile. inviting a stranger into your secret place. caressing the emptiness of your departure. titillating those around you. friendship. mama's enpanadas. pan de queso. the look of her aging hands in the molcajete. listening to papis cumbias. hearing that little chirping bird on a saturday morning. loving a perfect stranger. the first bite of that oh so sweet, you're not supposed to have it. creating. inspiring with pictures and movement and sounds. oh the sounds of creation. words circling the air creating pockets of energy. waiting to explode. imagining all the possibilities and then making them happen.
Who I'd like to meet: people who love strangers. people who hug. artists who risk it all. travelers. people who live for others. people who are kind above all. people who crave change in the world. people who bare ARTISTS!!-you created them, now fix them!
Nessa...will you be in town and available for some baby shower fun Sunday June 28 2pm? My friend Misty is throwing me a shower and I really hope you can be there! She will mail you an official invite but I wanted to give you a heads up early so you could save that date!! Let me know :)
Hey girl. I hope all is wonderful! FYI--As of March 1st, I will no longer have my cell phone...I may or may not get another one...so if you want to get a hold of me call Jeff's phone or the home phone...I will get that to you later.
Thanks!!! I am so excited! We went to Illinois this past weekend and I love the town and we found a place to live and everything. I hope we do get to spend some time together and I know we will be great friends!!!
Okay so hopefully you see this soon. Jen and I are engaged!!! Really. I asked her to marry me on Saturday and she said yes. Hope you are having a blast. Love ya!
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