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Find the person who will love you because of your differences and not in spite of them and you have found a lover for life. ~ Leo Buscaglia
"Human beings are God's language"
Who does not thank for little, will not thank for much. - Estonian proverb
You all have your David, that absolutely worst thing that could ever happen to you. Who am I to take that from you by having it worse when all you need is me to listen like I need you to listen to me.
"Children are the hands by which we take hold of heaven"
"Love and hate are on the same side of the fence. On the other side is apathy. The opposite of love is cold indifference.~Reverend Joseph Phillips, Ph. D"
When a man looses his wife,
He is called a widower.
When a woman looses her husband,
She is called a widow.
When a child looses her parents,
She is an orphan.
But when a parent looses his child…
There is no name for this type of pain.
It is hard to live and has no name.
~Major Bloomberg (9/11)
There is no name for a parent who loses their child.
That is how horrible it is to lose your child.
"Acceptance of others, their behaviors, their looks, their beliefs, bring you an inner peace and tranquillity -- instead of anger and resentment"
Let's Actually TALK About The DEATH of Our CHILDREN!!!
Listen to These Compelling Stories From grieving Mommies to All of YOU!!! Please help us help ourselves and educate yourself.
May all the tears I cry and all the tears I have not cried but hold within pour forth into your hands.
Amen
First and foremost I am a Mother.
My children will always be loved. We will never forget them...
David died from a number of birth defects beleived to be brought on by Amniotic Band Syndrome and Trisomy 18. I continued my pregnancy and he passed in utero in early November. When I went in on November 8th for an ultrasound it was discovered that he was gone. I was devestated and I know that was the worst moment of my life. I went in to be induced immediately and he was born on November 9th, at 0240 in the morning. He was 97 grams and six inches long. He was just so corageous for being such a tiny little thing. He held on so long for his Mommy and Daddy!
He is our hero and we have learned so much from him about love, life, ourselves and the world around us. What an amazing impact he has had for someone who never got to say a word to us!
We love you so much Sweetheart and we will hold you in our hearts forever!
The letter I read to him at his funeral:
"Dear David,
You are Mommy's precious angel. The moment you were born was a peaceful and sacred moment between us. It was so quiet. There were no nurses or doctors or bright lights or struggling cries. Your daddy was asleep on the couch right next to you. It was then that I hesitated because I knew that I had just created a little miracle of God and at that moment I would be closer to you than I ever could be again. You were so tiny and so fragile but it would never be mistaken that you were ours. You will never leave your Mommy and Daddy's hearts. No matter how many years pass by you will always be alive in our hears and we will never fail to love you in any moment that passes by.
Thank you so much, David. It is because of you that I get to know how much love a Mother can have for her baby boy. It is because of you that I can know how important any child is in the eyes of God. You are our son and you left to soon but now I don't have to worry about where you are because I know that for how much you have tugged on my heart that God loves you more than I ever could and He is keeping you close to him right now. I will forever long for the day when I will get to hug you for the first time.
The days seem to be too long because you are not around. There are so many things around the house that remind me of you. Your Daddy and I were so excited to tell everyone we knew that you were on your way. We never could have guessed that you would struggle as you did. Never again in my life will I ever meet another person as strong-willed as you. You didn't give up until you had to and I will always look up to that lesson you taught me on the hardest days.
I wish I could have met you but at the same time I'm so glad that you are where you are. I realized as I was holding you that you were an answer to my prayers. When I found out that you were sick I prayed to God that He would help you fight or that He would lead you to Heaven but that you would not suffer unless you had to. It was then that your Mommy got very sad. I am so sorry that I am not happier for you. I'm so in love with you that now you are gone all I want is to have you back here in my arms again. I guess that is why they say that grief is selfish.
I will never forget the moments I've shared with you and I know that even though you are in a much happier place that you will never forget your Mommy and Daddy who long to be where you are right now.
I love you with all my heart,
Your Mommy"
Alex was born before David only they didn't know I was having twins. Alex, sadly, passed away much earlier in the pregnancy so they were unable to determine at the time if he or she was a twin since I gave birth to Alex before my water broke. I kept asking what "it" was and felt the need to see but was told over and over, "We don't know what "it" was but were sending it along for the autopsy. Don't worry about it Sweetie." But I couldn't stop thinking about it and how for some reason I wanted to know what that was. Everyone just kept saying they don't know and no one told me that "it" could be David's twin. In my heart I think I knew and that is why it hurt so much to not see or hold Alex. It wasn't until I got the autopsy report back that I found out for certain that I'd had twins. In a way I was glad that Alex passed away earlier in the pregnancy. I can't imagine the heartache if I'd gone in to deliver David and found out all to late that there was another growing baby inside me. But it also makes me so sad to think that the memory of Alex will never be known to many around me. There was no funeral or keepsakes. Alex is just gone and that is that.
My Sweete little Alex who came as a complete suprise will always be loved and always be missed.
Here is a site I made up to help friends and family understand and learn about our grief so they don't accidentaly act out of turn around us:
I was born in Rockford, Il. and grew up in Belvidere a neighboring city. When I was out of High School I went to a year of school at Rock Valley but knew I needed a change. I love my family but didn't want to live at home any more so I found a job in Savannah Georgia and moved there for awhile. Soon, I realized I still wanted to go to school but wouldn't be able to afford it at that pitiful income.
Simultaniously, my sister decided she wanted to go Air Force and though I used to roll my eyes I started actually hearing what she was saying, free health care, free travel across the world, free college money. Who can beat that so I moved back home and in a few months I was in Basic. My friends thought I was crazy because I joined after 9/11 but it was the best decision I could have made at the time.
After moving around in the states to Texas and Missiouri I finally got all my school training done and moved to Germany for my first assignment. It was during my first week there that I met my now husband Isaiah. We got married just across the street from our favorite Italian cafe.
Back to the point. I did a lot of traveling there to places like Austria, Luxumborg, and Italy but I never got to see France and I'm still ticked about that (Isaiah has a thing about Frenchmen and refused to go). It was worth living there for a few years and hey I was so lucky to be stationed at such a major AEF base that I even got to visit hot, dry, ugly Pakistan for a few months (that is my dry sarcasim if you can't tell).
We moved back to the States to Hill AFB just outside of SLC, Utah. It's a refreshing mecca of life compared to the lull of more home oriented Europeans. What can I say I'm a capitalist. When I want somthing I want you to hop on your feet and GIVE because I'm paying for it!!!!
One compalint is they don't many catholic churches off base that I know of.
So now you know where I've been so I'll tell you what I did in the military. I was a Funtional Systems Administrator (Tech Support). Any time your machine broke down or you couldn't figure something out you'd call me ;0) Oh, the joys of customer service ;0P
Now I'm working on getting back on my feet. When I was pregnant all I was thinking about was being a Mom. Now I have to figure out how to live my life without them. I'm looking for a job and working on getting into school so hopefully in a few months I can update this and tell you all how wonderful it is to live again.
P.S.- three years later I haven't gotten on my feet. I was finally starting to when I got pregnant again and then she died. I lost Savannah Margaret Thompson on September 22nd 2009. I am finding a brighter tomorrow after her death. Wish me healing and comfort in the months to come. I especially need help since Isaiah is leaving for Korea for a year in April and I'm moving to Alaska hopefully in June.
"...that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God." ~ 2 Corinthians 1:4
War is an ugly thing, but not the ugliest of things. The decayed and degraded state of moral and patriotic feeling which thinks that nothing is worth war is much worse. The person who has nothing for which he is willing to fight, nothing which is more important than his own personal safety, is a miserable creature and has no chance of being free unless made and kept so by the exertions of better men than himself. -- John Stuart Mill
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You scored as Roman Catholic. You are Roman Catholic. Church tradition and ecclesial authority are hugely important, and the most important part of worship for you is mass. As the Mother of God, Mary is important in your theology, and as the communion of saints includes the living and the dead, you can also ask the saints to intercede for you.
You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.
You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.
You believe in God and your chosen religion. Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu.. Your convictions are strong and unwavering. You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone.
that'd be freakin sweet dude! i love kevin spacey and eddie murphy's pretty funny.... i've been havin some wierd dreams lately too... but that's kinda normal for me lol
i saw most of it, i had an inspection (AGAIN GRRRR) today so i spent most of my spare time, when i wasnt doing homework and studying for my test, cleaning (i hate section 8 land owners so much). but yeah i didnt know it was called hannah banana! thats cute. thanks for the link, now i can actually watch it
oh man that would suck! why cant these pre-teens grow up and squeal on the inside like we do everytime edward comes on the screen? ;) lmao. so your saying its not general admission?? you actually buy numberd seats? laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaame
Well, ive been in NOLA since February of last year. I love it, but im moving back to Chicago at the end of this month. Im actually in the city right now apartment hunting for the week. Ive met so many awesome people in New Orleans and i have had a blast.. but its time to move on again. I will always love that city and what it has given me. When did you go there?
I'm doing good! Chris and I are living in Chicago now with our little boy, Liam. He's 16 mos now and doing great! He's a little troublemaker, but a darling. What are you up to now, how's your hubby?
am supposed to pick 12 women (who have touched my life) and whom I think would want to participate. I think that if this group of women were ever to be in a room together, there is nothing that would be impossible. I hope I chose the right twelve. My hugs, love, gestures and communications hopefully remind you how special that you are. Please send this back to me.Remember to make a wish before you read the prayer. That's all you have to do. There is nothing attached. Just send this to twelve people and let me know what happens on the fourth day. Sorry you have to forward the message, but try not to break this, please. Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive. Did you make a wish yet? If you don't make a wish, it won't come true. This is your last chance to make a wish!'May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others. May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you are.Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.'Now, send this to 12 women within the next 5 minutes. And remember to send this back. I count as 1...you'll see why.
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