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...and much, much more...
I write so much, because I'm afraid to say some things out loud. ~ Natoshia L. S.
A LITTLE ABOUT ME
My name is Natoshia.
I am in love with this Irish Chinese jerk named Ian.
Sometimes I wonder why we've put up with each other for so long.
3+ years of friendship.
2+ years of dating off and on.
He really is an asshole, but I love him.
Though I wonder if he really cares about me at all.
I currently have eleven piercings.
Since i'm in the military, it's hard to get all the ones I want. I plan to get, at least, 2 more in each of my ears and 2 on the left side of my lip once I get out of the Navy. Then i'll be done... maybe. So far I have these piercings.
I also have a son, with my ex-husband, my sons name is Dreyk. He is 4 years old.
Ian and I have children too. Hehe. Their names are Fuzzy, Snoogums and Eeyore. :P
Well other than that... i'm pretty average. I'm a bit of a bitch when I want to be, but so aren't most women/people in general.
THINGS I LIKE
Piggi aka Ian
Dreyk
Plushies
Eeyore
Monokoro Boo
Piercings
Mohawks and Forelocks [peyote]
Cheshire Cat
...lots of different animals...
Pandas, Koalas, Lemurs, Pigs, Leopards, Hyenas
...just animals in general...
Drawing, J-rock/Pop, VK/Loli/EGL
Musicians (drummers and bassists mainly) Scotland, Japan, Hawaii
Ramune, citrus scented anything and much much more.
THINGS I DISLIKE
Being ignored by Ian.
Not having more confidence in my love life.
BEING ALONE
Getting blood drawn.
SPIDERS, Liver-n-Onions, people who stereotype
Not being a physical part of Ian's life.
Not being know by Ian's friends... <|3
And I rather hate the following females...
That Russian girl, Shelle, Liz & Nicole
Because they've made my life miserable in one way or another with Ian.
What did he do this time? =O But am glad you're having time of your own! *hugs* =3
I've been getting wet everyday while traveling home because of the Monsoon season that just started 2 weeks ago, and surprisingly I haven't got sick yet. And I've also gone to some jamming sessions to rage those stress days out! ^_^
David's been very... expressive with his actions lately I'm like WOA! I now I shouldn't be surprised 'cos he'll do things for me, heck, he IS supposed to, but he's been the all talk rare action kind last time I feel confused when he's doing all this. It's nice tho. X3
i deletedddd that..not because i didnt love it but cuz there was some incriminating evidence of how psycho i am that had the possibility of having an embarrassing outcome haha and to that i say that the only thing he said was hum dee da dee da hum dee da dee da hum dee da dee da and roses are red. i am glad cigarettes never stop being my friend...as well as you.
yessss it was. i bet those who aren't in the know are going to think there is some funny business going on...UPDATE i am still annoyed about the same thing i was annoyed about last night haha...and you? about that...i think this appilies...no time for loving my oh my dont you cry cuz theres no way im staying i will leave say bye bye im going my way....ahahhahhahaha not as chipper as before.
actually...here's the thing, you are a liar..and therefore what is comes down to is that i looooove you more. and i have been pondering the question all day that if me and you are the happy boys and girls...which one of us is the boy? honey is sweet but not as sweet as you my love.
omg of course the goth scene is pretty big here but its not something thats out there but once you know youre all over the place its nice to hear that youre doing great
That's great! *is imagining wee copies of you & Ian toddling around* =3
Well... since we're still kids ourselves (at least he is) we haven't been talking about having our own hoard, I guess the most that got us psyched is each other having marriage fantasies of ourselves. He's been telling me about where we would live (Scotland meeehh. & I thought he wanted to get out of there!), and I've been telling him about how much we would travel around together. Lying down together in one bed makes us electrified already! And I don't mean doing anything, just talking like we always do. ^_^
Haha, our guys take much of our time for us to readily be home for them, eh? =P
I think I've lost much of my social life because of David. Idk what happened, before I knew it I've left almost everything I used to be so into behind just to have an hour with David. Wow. That's kinda bad, is it? Have you left anything for Ian? >V<
Wow. I don't really see my friends everyday. Yeah I text or leave 'em a message on MySpace/IM, but I can never see them 'cos we're all quite a distance. David's a social animal like Ian tho. He'd grouse if he doesn't get to see Jack or anyone per day. XD
Do you see your friends everyday?
He seems okay with it... provided I update something on my blog while I was gone to keep him alive. X3 I found out from him that he has been raiding my blog while I was away to see why I haven't been on & if I was okay. I've been busy lately, I can't afford to stay up for him. But if he's okay like that, I guess I don't mind. ^_^
Ah... I see. Over here it's 2 to 5-6 years. Our parents always bug us to marry fast if we're of age. It's not 100% our choice about the time of marriage, really. somehow the parents would be the one setting our dates, we just have to say we want to get married. XD
I've already had people asking when I'm getting married and my parents are talking about grandkids, esp my dad. It makes me tense up 'cos I still feel that am young & that you know... me & david religion thingie. =/
Yes tell him! No wait he doesn't tell you he loves you when he calls everyday even? =O David says it every time before he goes off I'm beginning to think they're not real. XD It's just like it's becoming a routine that you utter everyday, you can utter it and not mean it, and I can never trust that because for me words have powerful meaning and should only be used when meant. But I'm looking up the positive end.
But I hope Ian says it to you every single time and start to give more! I still think it's unfair for him to be like that to you. =/
Lucky you he does all that. I'd be sick of David if he ever does me 5 times a day. XD I like it to start and and at one moment, after, more than twice it won't feel special anymore. =/
& it's wow too you can just tell him like that about these things! I'll have to muster up every fiber of myself just to pick on David's doings. I don't like to get him upset just because I'm not satisfied with what he's doing. He tries to do everything right and kicking him down is never quite an option for me. ^_^'
Well at least you had fun. But i'm sure you'll find a funner rave. Monster isn't known to be the best. TAO is supposed to be pretty good. And you had better be there. EVERYONE is going. I even have friends back home coming all the way down for it.
Lucky you! I'm not paying attention to today's class already, too sleepy + I accidentally bought hot chocolate for break just now (it prepares me for zzzland) & now I'm hanging on very loud music to keep me awake. ~_~
Once a day? Don't you ever get tired of it sometimes? I know I'd be glad without David once in a while (just to prove to him that I can do without him XD), but somehow the unconscious mind will always want to drift back to him everyday. I can't do work with him around & it gets very self-destructive somehow. But I need to work! >_<
Did you tell Ian that he shouldn't go MIA-ing next time?
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYY!!!! Am so happy for you! (/^_^)/ They always come back. =3
Am feeling a wee better now, tho my head is cracking 'cos of not enough sleep. Kinda weird 'cos I usually can stand with just 4 hours of it but not recently.
Yeah the security there was pretty ridiculous. When Paul Van Dyke was playing they were not letting anyone out or in. And they were just plain rude too. I went into a bathroom and the lady was trying to keep everyone moving like cattle and she'd yell at you if you weren't out of there in a flash.
But other than that mostly it was alright. I liked EDC much better.
a play date with the kids sound fun. and your costume seemed pretty awesome. the pics were a little dark, but, i could tell it looked gr8. you do like her!
Woh! That sounds so cool! I've never got onto a proper roller coaster before, those wee ones don't count. Singapore doesn't have a real one. >_<
You should have fun! Let go for a bit & you'll realize it's awesome taking a bit of break & not mourn for guys for awhile. It takes fun out of our lives! When he comes, he comes, in the meanwhile, you get to do stuffs you haven't done for quite some time & catch up with life! =D
Sorry sis but is he NUTS or what? Just stop talking to you if he doesn't want you? What kinda breaking up is that? I'd be amok if David actually does that. If something has to come off, it has to come off clean, not in silence! >=O
When he gets back you better tell him what you want. it's not fair for you to be left like this
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