"Do not ask yourself what the world needs most; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs most is people who have come alive."
Female
20 years old
LONGWOOD, Florida
United States
power! (in lyrics and/or music). .... preferably both.
for a list of bands i like, look at my top friends.
a few things - bright eyes has been a favorite of mine for the longest. conor is incredible! (imo at least).
i enjoy opera metal (if it's heavy more than when it's not). anything powerful. heavy. heeeeee*!!!!
gah! i love power in music.
like everyone else, i like a lot of other random stuff....
random video:
Television
not much of it... too many obligations. heh. besides, i have cable and television STILL sucks! heh. and since i live at home with parents, they're there (in the living room), and i kind of like my lovely secluded room and my laptop. 'tis the life.
Books
not a book list or anything but i will put it here -
i dont think i find anything as filthy/contaminated, digusting, needlessly selfish, and overall evil as omnivores.
meat is dead. obviously
i shouldnt have to have my page full of stuff to convince you
you dont need it.
it causes an insane amount of pain (the conditions that those animals have to be subjected to to make your fucking burger cheaper).
it wastes energy.
again, common sense.
most of the food you eat is used to keep you alive, no?
why not feed people directly with that food and water that is now being used to raise farm animals? (consider how much food is required to simply sustain life... see the enormeous waste?) for stats, look at the blogs or ask.
it's also not healthy.. just look at the state of this nation. cholesterol and related diseases are the number one killer now.
veg*ns are not deprived of anything, really. there are vegan substitutes for pretty much everything! not to mention things that are already "accidentally vegan". again, feel free to ask for details. stop being a greedy shit!
your convenience for foods that this fucked up society is used to is not worth an average of 98 lives per year.
you are NOT worth 98 innocent lives enduring a lifetime of torture!
think of what's right/wrong for yourself, for once, and not just what society will let you get away with.
PLEASE consider other living beings. the world should not revolve around your greed.
stupid fucked up unethical society. *mummble mummble*.
for more information, read my blogs. don't want to look through all that crap? send me a message, let me know what information you want, if you have any preferences. i'll condense it. ;)
I could answer this by either saying no one but myself.
or
every "psychologically aware" (i don't know if anyone else uses that phrase) person that never gives up, cosntantly strives to grow and advance through life, understanding as much as they can. ignorance is lame, people.
- i have become more angry than i am comfortable with. i suppose the short explanation would be that i have been subjected to a lot of unnecessary shit from people.
not to sound like a victim... i am NOT a victim.
just explaining myself.
i dont avoid issues, i like to think (feel free to correct me if you know me... ) that i am a very logical and open person. it's not that i avoid problems. it's not that i just ignore what people tell me. i think i listen quite well. some people will repeatedly do what i ABSOLUTELY HATE and piss me off. they will do it without any regard to what i want or can tolerate. they will, essentially, use me for their own pleasure.
i dont mean any weird way - the word "use". mother does this, after all. it just means that they will do what they want, get what they want, and if i dont like what they're doing, they basically don't give a damn.
be subjected to this (to a large enough degree) by enough people (that really meant a lot to you and you have given a LOT to make them happy) and you'll end up bitter too.
- i am very thankful for the open-minded people i've come across in my life.
but for the most part -
- i hate this society.
- i hate its expectations.
- i hate my mind for not being able to overcome the numerous things that have been beaten into my mind from a young age that i do not agree with. however, there are not many. i feel i've been able to overcome enough... but i havn't overcome my desire to please people. damn nature.
- i am currently trying to fix myself (that is one of the reasons... i need to overcome the mindset that i have to please others. when i have a life partner, i am all for pleasing him, don't get me wrong. and i love it. i love having a meaningful relationship and knowing i make him happy. what i'm talking about here (the whole NOT wanting to please others) is when it comes to my parents for example. i don't aim to upset them or anything, but i don't live to be mini-mom and mini-dad. so if they don't like something i do, as long as it is the ethical thing to do and will not ruin my life, i REALLY don't see why i shouldn't do it. however, i've grown up being told to listen to mum and dad... i need to get over that. i'm a "good kid". i mean, i REALLY don't do bad things, so why should i feel bad about going against what they prefer (again, as long as it's ethical and won't ruin my life). there is no reason!
- i dont get along with people very well.
- i have good social skills, but i don't like many people (mainly bc my views on some things are so different than most people's), am not too social in nature (i prefer having one person that's my best friend/lover and not having many others at all. don't party or anything like that). as a result of all those, i don't tend to have many friends.... at all.
- if you consume animal products, i probably hate you.
- if you hunt for "fun", it's certain i hate you.
however... i dont hate my family... and they're omni's. i suppose "hate" is a strong word. i just really really don't like it.
- i enjoy discussing the topic of animal flesh for human consumption (and many things related to that topic) so don't hesitate to talk about it with me. i enjoy learning about other people's opinions. so even if i disagree with absolutely everything you say, i'll still be glad i have a better understanding of people around me.... though... i might leave the conversation pissed off. haha. :) but.. that's irrelevant, shouldn't matter.
- i am studying accounting. i like it. :)
i might end up doing something else in business (but i do know that i want to stay in business) that will make me feel more "fulfilled" than accounting. as of now (bc of its job security and my personality) i feel that accounting is the best track unless i come up with someonething else before i graduate. if not, i can always do different things after graduation. life is an adventure! whoo. >.<
- i enjoy opera metal a lot. it's incredible! metal is my favorite genre of music but everyone needs a break from the screaming and anger to just appreciate ridiculously good talent.
i feel that opera metal delivers this. it is an awesome mix of all kinds of talents, and voices. absolutely beautiful in my opinion.
- rage develops within me if people talk to me when i dont want to be left alone, if they invade my space, if they touch me or somehting im directly touching (like if they move my chair).
might sound weird. but.. it is so. the only exception to this would be my life partner and a friend. however, friends can get close to me for just a little before i start being annoyed. everyone else - stay back or gain a stump. haha.
lenore says that. she's so cute.
i'll insert a picture. why not. :)
- i suppose i'm very territorial or summf'n. eh... i dnno.
- my sweet cousin once told me (when discussing some problems i was dealing with concerning one of my "friends") that if you find yourself thinking that you just do not understand why someone would do something, then that's just it! you don't understand. does not mean the person does not have a valid reason. you just dont know what it is or are not able to comprehend it to the required degree to actually understand.
i enjoy evaluating things. people. thoughts. philosophies on various things in life. i love it. want to explain something to me? i'd LOVE to hear it even if it entirely conflicts with my opinions. understanding the world is a beautiful thing...
- i am a very open person in many ways. if you are not a person who is comfortable with this, don't kid yourself into thinking that you are. let me know you're not. otherwise, brace yourself. i don't hold back.
ive come across one person, in particular, that is a great example of something like this. he lies like crazy. i mean lie after lie after LIE AFTER LIE.
it does NOT stop. yet... he got mad and YELLED at me for calling him a liar. ... only to admit literally later that day that yes, in fact, he was feeding me a huge lie for days.
yep... don't do this to me. i will drop you like a rock from my life. but before i am able to do this, you will further wound me. please don't do that to me. i havn't done anything wrong to you.
like i said, i am angry.. i have been made into an angry person and one big cause is stupid fucking BULLSHIT people loooove giving me like this. just do NOT do it.
- if you read this far, there's probably no point in me writing this for you (becuase it won't apply to you) but i will anyway. if you write somehting along the lines of "yo ma wud up wuz lukin thru myspace saw ur pic u luk fine" im not going to answer you! im not a whore seriously. honestly! so .... no! haha. some messages are just so ridiculous... entertaining. haha.
- i don't think i'm better than everyone else, nor do i believe i'm smarter. it might seem like it, but i really am not full of myself that much. really! i just don't want to give a damn about what i say or what people think of me anymore! - at least in cases where it does not really matter. i mean what difference will it make if a random person on myspace doesn't like me? none!
it's fucking exhausting to care so much! so i'm done with it. not that i ever really cared that much to begin with.
- there is more... perhaps i will add things a bit later...
Who I'd like to meet: as far as men go:
(Metaphorically): i'd like to meet a beautiful vegan atheist guy that will lift my soul. haha. :)
someone i can have fun with.
have meaningful conversations with.
feel free with.
be violent with.
who finds sick little girls beautiful, i guess. haha 'cause some ppl see me as one.
someone who will actually like me 'cause no one has ever genuinely liked me...
someone who will be my best friend.
- veganism is a requirement. everything else i'm more flexible with. atheism is important, but being agnostic is okay too. no party freaks whose life only revolves around that, no "players", someone who understands emotion. you don't have to be a pansy, seriously, haha. but i mean, psychology is a good thing to know. you're kind of surounded by it on all sides. since i want my life partner to be my best friend, being into the same things as i am is a good thing - you know the whole "metal" personality thing. my alternate personality is a business professional, haha, so you can be that too.
mixture is perfect!
if you're that, honest, can make me feel comfortable and happy, and a vegan, i'll think you're just the most beautiful creature to ever walk this planet!
emo... i know. but seriously, i need it. heh.
i'd like to meet like-minded individuals.
or people that are capable of having a good conversation. no fucking morons.
if you're a religious fanatic that's going to argue with me saying that the invisible sky daddy gave us animals to eat and that im going against all that's "good" by not going along with that, fuck off. from experience, i know i can't reason with you morons. you're just closed-minded selfish pricks. i dont wish to have these people in my life.
ha. yeah, i never get on here, i don't remember which html code to delete that removes that image. i agree though with the last comment. i didn't catch if he used "morality", don't be a stranger, or maybe I'll wonder to your side of the room.
nice argument on the right to steal, i suppose. Although, no employer, etc. would allow a stipulation , no matter how bold, or true, based on your welfare. The same law would apply with police and courts, you still stole! Haha. Just my argument for you..... ;). not creepy, pure curiousity.
hey there! just read your bulletin. what are you feeling angsty about? i feel angsty every damn day... why, the mindset of the mainstream, so blind, not even knowing what the hell is going on.
THanks for your reply :) I read it all<3 well ok There really isn't anything to her side of the story. I'm being honest here, not 'cause I'm against her, but 'cause it's true. She really did flirt with him, knowing I have feelings for him. She considered me a best friend, so I don't now why she'd hurt me like that. And the thing is, she still thinks its all my fault. Me and my best friend made up. She told me how Lisa ["close friend"] gave her a guilt trip, pretty much forcing her to agree. 2 of Lisa's friends want to punch me in the face. Anya [best friend] was on "lisa's side" to protect me. She told me all that today me and her are fine now. She says I'm right on this one, and that she just doesn't wanna mess up a relationship with Lisa, so she tells Lisa that she's not on either side. Haha so yeah Me and lisa will never makeup. I tried talking to her, but she's just not a forgiving person, and she still thinks I'm guilty. yahh. well thats all.
I wanted to share this quote that hit me today as it reminds me that it's really the small steps we take when we think we have to take big ones. How daunting that can be!
"What saves a man is to take a step. Then another step." ~C. S. Lewis
I sincerely hope life is not too overwhelming for you...I'm thankful for sleep in between it all!
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