Music, Food, Bass, Ancient History and Languages, Mythology, People and their Motives, The Outdoors, and Literature.
Music
Lately it's been a mixture of various types of metal and experimental/avant-garde rock. But most of my money goes toward extreme metal (and I do actually buy music). I write black metal because it's what I've grown comfortable with, but I'm always trying to expand as a musician.
Movies
Psychological Thrillers, Documentaries, Independent films, and the occasional action flick if it really stands out. Movies should fuck with my head or challenge me to think.
Television
I edited my profile with Thomas Myspace Editor V4.4 (www.strikefile.com/myspace)
Books
H.P. Lovecraft, Satire, Existentialism, Postmodernism, History, and I'm trying to get into Economic and Political literature.
Heroes
Thoreau, Banksy, Jefferson, all of my musical influences, Dr. Schott
About me: I love playing music and am in 2 serious bands and a side project. I think there's a difference between hearing a band and really listening to them. A lot of the music my age group is listening to is written to be heard, to catch your attention and stick around in your head, but not to be deeply experienced in any truly artistic or spiritual way. I'm always looking for music that does so. It needs to have true quality to it. I'm usually being sarcastic, especially if I'm offending you. Though I am a misanthropist, I try to give people a chance and enjoy most with whom I am involved. I don't own a camera, so any pictures I have up are courtesy of friends and acquaintances who do own cameras.
Who I'd like to meet: Individuals. Don't bother if you consider yourself part of a group or movement or whatever. I don't see people as parts of groups and will have to struggle to take you seriously.
ok look, that was really stupid for us to argue, i dont kno, we're really good friends. i think. ur there for me more then anyone i kno and i love that about u. ur more then a friend to me,ur someone special. it feels like ive knon u for years how open i am wit u. wat happened yesterday isnt gonna change our frindship. and i see where ur right, i shouldnt think of sex as a hobby,someting to do, or think of it all the time, thats not wat a relationship should be about, it should be about other things. i use guys for a reason. and that i i dont like the feeling of being hurt. and i dont get close enough wit them to care wat they feel... i do get wat i want, sometimes witout even trying.. thats not something im to fond of, i was before. i kno ur mad at me and i dont really like that u are, but i'll leave u alone till ur ready to start talking again... im sorry im so weird
by letting wat me and marco had alone u said we're only friends now and i cant change that, he doesnt love me like i love him, and all he does is hurt me, i havent talked to him, if i do i will bring everything up, we will get sad, and then we become a thing again, by letting marco live his life witout me in it, thinking about MINE and MY BABY'S future, only about us, not the three of us.
yea ur right, i dont wanna be used, i was the user, then i got hurt, and fucked over, that was the reason why i would use guys in the first place, so i wouldnt get hurt and made sure i didnt get close enough to them to care if they got hurt by me... its stupid,mean,selfish, and bitch like of me...
i dont wanna get hurt anymore,
but knoing me i will notice someone along the way and either use them or get used... until i find someone i love or even like enough to stop having sex and listen..
thats the truth.
kevin, its sad but it makes me feel wanted in horrible ways, All my life i wasnt and i was treated like shit, i go for older men cause i never had a grown man in my life love me and i guess im trying to find it
i was hurt twice by family members in ways that werent right i told no one about it and i guess i was dealing it in horrible ways, drugs and sex... ive had a horrible childhood,
i was going to, i dont kno wat happened though, it wouldve been fun but watever... i guess... i still would,
sex isnt very important to me, yea its fun, i can go a while witout it, or jus stop, i dont kno.. i jus had alot of sex wen i met marco and after him...
but.. about that ice cream... it was cold, and my shorts are very wet from it:)
i kno u do, but i thought u were gonna tell me i have to and i was gonna be like can u do it, i kinda planned this conversation...
but wat do i do??
its our baby! but it might be... like.. not alive, someone told me i ws showing signs... i need to go to the doctor, i dont wanna go alone
i wish i was there, u would go wit me... oh my im so scared knoing the truth... i hvent talked to many people about it, i hve stomach pains all the time, their sharp:/ im in so much pain sometimes..
thats how marco found out bout the body art guy, he said " u might have a disease," i told him it might be from aurora cause i was being a bitch and said i only had sex wit two other guys out here he said "i thought it was one:/" and i was like shit and then told him wat happened.. he said he was clean before he did anything wit me after her and that it might have been the other guys that i Fucked, he kept using that word, then we got in a fight:/
and yea... i havent talked to him since... he texted me and all but i dont kno...
i miss u so much:( i should be coming back soon...
im doin good..kinda.. having fun.. wen im not alone..
thanks for everything u have and will do for me:) u've been there wen i needed someone. HA! im gettin kinda corny... so i'll jus stop and say ur the best:)
yea they are! well we got the dvd last night like 10 min after we got off stage.. so today i extracted a couple of the tracks and put em on our myspace!
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