Today was a sad day. 9 days ago, for no reason at all, I cried out to you in my bed just before I fell alseep. I realized it must be because the annivaersay of your death was near. I appologized out loud, again and again, for not being able to save you. I am so very sorry. I had no idea your heart was suffering so much. This month is very difficult for me and I start tearing up at the mention of your name. Your mom contacted me today...I cried. I am so sorry, Rob. I wish I could have saved you...
I have so much I wish i could talk to you about. I miss having you as a friend. there are some things only you would appreciate and most likely make fun of me about but that was always welcome!...miss you robby
Hey...I drove by DOCs bar the other day and smiled...I thought of you. You were so cute when we came in there to visit you. It makes me sad the way time marches on. Your cell phone number no longer works and now the song on your pages fails to load. I sill can't believe that you are gone.
Just stopping by to tell you I love you...and to tell you that if I died, I know you would talk $hit about people that post spam on a dead person's page.
I was just laughing about how you were ripping on Kristen throwing gang signs in all of her myspace pictures...she responded that you look like flock of seaguls with your hair spiked. :)
Hey Rob...I am in FL and found myself thinking of you late last night. I called your phone, but they have now changed your number, so no more VM from you now. It was sad. :(
so today while cleaning my house i came upon this glass you MADE me take outta your car when you dropped me off one day and i wanted so bad to call you just to bullshit about that crazy day we had downtown for the jazz festival. i miss you kiddo.
I miss you today. I do everyday, but a whole lot right now. So just to let you know The Natives of the new dawn are playing here in a few weeks and they are dedicating "Good Day" to you! I am so excited to go. Wish you could be there with me. <3
I just figured something out. We hadn't talked in a good 7 - 8 weeks...and all of a sudden a week before you died, you contacted me. You wanted to talk and tell me all about your interview. :( I get it now; you were saying goodbye. It is just odd...you seemed happy and hopeful. Not at all like the outcome. I love you. I miss you. I have thought of you all week.
tomorrow is a big homework day for me. It means starbucks from open to close...makes me sad to think i won't have your company. Something about your smiling face, the crossword, and a grande black coffee make it so much better. Who is going to call me a mess when i dribble on my white shirt...i miss you crazy. keep an eye out...
rob you will be missed by so many you touched so many lives and you always made my day when you would come up to my work. the last time i saw you you were having so much fun and could not stop smiling at me. i wish i could see that smile one last time. i hope you find peace and we will all miss you!
I am so mad at you rob for leaving me in this world without you. you are never going to hear the end of this when i get up there...but the sad thing is you won't want to hear the end of it..you always listened to me yell at you and you always listened when i cried and when i was a mess you told me i was your mess and that i lived through everything with grace. you taught me that I was too good to let my life pass and as you always said.." don't let your dreams be dreams" who is going to dance in the car with me and be silly? how am i going to ever pass geography? whos job is going to let me put the cones on the bottle robby? I hope you feel happiness...i am sory you didn't feel it when you were here. save us all a seat in heaven. I love you Rob.
She's just waiting for the summertime when the weathers fine
She could hitch a ride out of town
And so far away from that low down good for nothing mistake making fool
With excuses like baby that was a long time ago
But that's just a euphemism if you want the truth he was out of control
But a short times just a long time then your mind just won't let it go
Well summer came along and it then was gone and so was she
Not from him because he followed her just to let her know
A dreams a dream
And all this livings so much harder than it seems
But girl don't let your dreams be dreams
You know this livings not so hard as it seems
Don't let your dreams dreams
Your dreams your dreams be dreams
I can't stop crying. I try and I try, but I can't. I was your first kiss. You were my first love. I never stopped loving you. I miss you. I called you today and your phone was dead. I cried. I am crying now. I loved you so much. Always. always. always. Memories keep dancing through my head. I hate it. Please, wherever you are...I hope you found peace. Rob...i love you....please....i will never forget you. I wish so badly things were different - you were doing so well for so long. What made you let go?
I will deeply miss you...if all they said is true.
by the way i kind of want to steal your song. I am liking it a lot. i told you i bought that correine bailey rae cd. i love it. you will have to check it out.
