Current mood:lovedTo be so far away from the person you love? To be 600 miles away from the girl that makes you completely happy? The one person who loves you for who you are?
I do. And I gotta tell you... It fucking sucks. Not only does it make shit depressing, it makes shit hard, too.
I hate the fact that I had to move. Sure, it makes life easier for me.. But at what cost? I have to spend maybe 2 plus years out here. That's a long time to go without seeing Candice or any of my friends. Granted there will be those times where I go visit them or the other way around. But still, who knows when that will be? I don't. I know I can't go home for Christmas. I've been gone for only 3 weeks, but it feels like it's been a lifetime.
Now don't take this as me saying, "Fucking god dammit. I'm so miserable, kill me, please God."
No, I'm just saying that being without Candice and all my friends really sucks ass.
It's harder to sleep without Candice being right next to me. I miss everything about her, from her smiles to her heartbeat. I miss being able to hug her whenever I wanted. Holding her whenever she's near me. Just feeling her warmth. It's hard. It really is.
God dammit. I hope I really meet some people soon. Just so I can fill this void. I don't want to replace anybody... I just need something to hold me over until I can see everybody again.
I have an interview at sam's club in about 11 and a half hours.
I should be asleep. But I got to thinking I should write a blog letting the people who care know about what's going on in my life at the moment.
To Candice: I love you. I miss you. I want to see you again, as soon as possible. I promise I'll come back for you, God dammit, do I miss you. :'(
To all my friends: I miss you all. I'm not entirely what I can say here that'll sound all sweet and awesome. Just know I love you all and I miss you all.
That's all I got for now, I'm off to bed now. Good night.