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i'd like to think that i'm a unique person, charming and nice, but you can be the judge of that. im loyal, caring, compasionete, and am a people person. i am a poet, a performer, and an artist..

i am a human, and an artist and musician. i pour my soul into my work, and put it out there into the world for all to see. i am like a vessel, sent to earth to love and enlighten.. please don't make fun of me because all of us are the same color insaide. gay, straight, black, white.. we're all the same.. like Prince once said, "cut me.. cut you.. both the blood is red.. i gotcha!"

there are times where i don't feel like i'm in control of myself, and i wish that wasn't the case.. but please be nice to me. i don't want to die anymore

im divorced, and looking for love in all the wrong places.. everything i was so sure about, i find might not be so. and i'm really afraid to tell my friends and loved ones, especially my two children (billy jr & holly) because i don't know how they'd react to it.. oh well, i guess time will pass, and i'll work up the nerve to tell them.

i want to meet people that would appreciate my art, and not make fun of me like most people do.. i think expression is a sacred art, and should be valued, not dismissed. i have been in the dallas arts scene for quite awhile, and have never seen such a cynical, bitter, meanspirited place.. i've run off stage in tears so many times, and it's hard to go on, but i find strength in serenity. i'm here to make new friends & get to know people, and not to promote myself or my work.

i'm sort of a cult celebrity around the Dallas/Denton area.. i perform at local poetry recitals, open mike nights, hang around Deep Ellum alot. you might have seen me in the back of the Insomnia Coffee Bar, reading my poetry, or singing songs in the main room with my bassist "Jonathon Wicked".. i sell my work through my website & through mailorder. alot of people dont like me and harrass me when i perform, but i dont let htem get me down. i have alot of supporters all around the world who appreciate what i do, and just because a few hate me, i have to keep faith. i have a HUGE web presense.. just google my name, and you'll see.

i'm also trying to break into the indie pro wrestling scene, and have been training with Mike Rosa as of late. im openminded, thoughtful, caring, and always love a good time! please leave me comments, because i might kill myself if i dont get any

THE ASSHOLE ABOVE SENT ME AN EMAIL THAT READ: ok ur site is fucking depressing u talk about how ur "sent to earth" LOL and all this other jazz but no reall proof and ur music is a joke? is this serious are u really pooring ur heart and soul into this? if so i hope the lack of comments actually does result in what you threaten. ur a fat manic depressive ass dipshit. you have no fan base my testicals have a bigger web base than you do, go ahead google them under JUEVOS LOL break the cheesy CD u are listening to and slit ur wrist

SEND HIM HATEMAIL!!

THIS OTHER JERK ABOVE WROTE THIS ABOUT ME: Dude,

So, I saw your email on Wilson Rainway's page... and I totally know where you're coming from. I go to that dudes page and I see his stuff and listen to his "music" and it completely baffles me.... I don't know if it's a joke, or if the guy's mentally handicaped... I don't get it.. it's quite weird. And that whole thing about "Leave me comments or I will kill myself"...? What's that about? I seriously think this dude needs help... It scares me.. He's the kind of guy that would find out where you live and come over to your house and harass you...

Creepy...

i'm so tired of people passing judgement about me.. i never did anything to these people to make them hate me.. story of my life i suppose.. if someone doesn't fit in with society, then they're treated like total trash..

FOLLOWUP!

The person above then sent me two letters, one asking me to take his pic off my profile.. and this was followed by another letter, which i've posted below

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I'll ask you kindly to take my picture and email off your page.

Better yet Wilson, why don't you put this email on your page instead? Please read it all the way through to the end.

I don't HATE anyone! Quite the opposite in fact. If you were to read my previous email carefully (that was never intended for you to read by the way, but oh well), my approach wasn't from an angle of "hatred", but rather an angle of "concern". Honestly Wilson, you scare me. That's honesty. Maybe it's because I don't understand you, maybe it's because we are just two VERY different people, and sometimes people just don't mesh well. The only blatant horrible thing I said "about you" was the comment about thinking that you might be mentally handicapped. And, you know what, that wasn't right, and I apologize.

I had no problem with you until the day you sent a bulletin to everyone on your friends list, that quite frankly disturbed me.. Here is what it said:

"If i don't get any comments soon, i might have to kill myself..

and you wouldn't want this blood on your hands..

so do your part, save the music, support the arts..

and leave me comments!

thanks-a-million,

love,

wilson"

Now, I see that, and I don't see funny... I had no idea why you would write something like that. It's not something to be taken lightly. Are things really that bad for you? So, at that point, I decided that I was going to delete you from my friends list, and this is what I wrote to you.

"Um.... you're deleted!

That's not funny!"

And then it was finished. I think I was justified in my decision. And I think more than a handful of people would agree with me. So, after that, you put in another friend request which I denied, and then you sent this:

"well that was uncalled for, and not very nice either.

it happened to be true, and no one left me anything as usual.. but i decided that i had to live for at least two weeks, because i would have missed summerslam, and i have a show this weekend. sorry c-dawg. hey, do you know tim-dawg? he's my friend. ok pally pal, take care

-Wilson "Son Of The Sun" Rainway".

At that point, I was scratching my head in confusion, and I went to your profile and saw an email that "Elvis" wrote you, and took the liberty of writing him back, saying that I understood where he was coming from. And then, you saw the rest. This kid never wrote me back, and I completely forgot about the entire thing. And today, I checked my inbox, and a woman wrote me and email telling me that people were being asked to send me hatemail, and who do I think I am, trashing other people's ambitions.. and I had no idea what she was talking about.

So, I looked at her profile, just to try to figure out who she was, and I looked at her friends list, and saw your name on there, and clicked on your profile, and BAM, there it was!! So, needless to say, I was a little put off by it, so I wrote you an email and asked you to take my picture and my email off your page, and then, I decided to write you this instead, so that you may better understand who I am.

So Wilson, I do hope you understand. I am not the type to bash people's ambitions, or negate their efforts, but sometimes it's confusing what a persons intentions are. Like I said earlier, I don't understand you, or your music, and you know what? That's not necessarily a bad thing. We are all different. We all come from different walks of life, and if we were all the same, life would be boring. And I know, you being an artist, you understand that better than most people. I respect that fact that you dare to be different, and that's great! I guess when you do that, you can't expect everyone to get it, or understand it.

I am humbled by you putting my email on your page. It really made me remember that sometimes we have thoughts that shouldn't be written down, and that our lives and conversations aren't as private as we may want them to be sometimes. But, we take it, and move on with it.

So, in closing, I don't hate you. I am a jerk for suggesting that you might be handicapped. If it's any consolation, everyone thought Einstein was crazy, and look now, HE'S FLIPPIN' EINSTEIN! So, it's ok for two people to agree to disagree, and we may just have to do that. But, hey, you keep up what you're doing! The only thing I'd ask is if you really feel like you need to end your life, please find someone to talk to, who can help you and give you advice and guidance, and please don't send bulletins to people trying to "guilt" them into posting comments on your page.

I hope that you understand where I'm coming from, and that this email finds you well, and still alive.

Write me anytime,

Chris

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i'm still in shock over this email, and am not sure how to reply..

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