What if... the fates allowed you to change one moment in your past... one moment that would change your entire life... would you do it, knowing that destiny remains constant?
Writing, music, movies, Wicca, reading, computers, games, driving well above the suggested speed limit on winding mountain roads and wherever else I can get away with it, cars, sports, bowling, pool, forensics, and toying with graphics. Here's my website, if you give a damn (fair warning, it's graphics heavy and it's a bitch to load - the stupid thing takes forever, especially if you're a poor soul on dial-up):
http://www.angelfire.com/az/XxWinTerSouLxX
I didn't even knew what love meant before she appeared in my life. Only know I understand that great love does not consist neither of dependency to a person, nor of selfishness, but is much more than this. It is like when you immerse in the eternity of your own soul, in that place which you think belong only to toy, but where you meet the other. Only there you feel her deep look and you realize that you are eternally present in her soul and in her most private parts of her being. You realise that nothing matters, not to cry, not to shout. You realize that everything there is and everything there will be does not even exist, are not worth the smallest leaf which fell from the tree of the live of each one of us. And then you feel the need to touch the soul with your hand, to embrace it, to feel its breath, to know it closer to you than you are yourself. You want to kiss it, to share your entire life with it. Love has such an impact that you understand that it is much above what you call life, Then you realise that no matter how much you try to embrace it, and kiss it, and feel its breath, all that can never be done, because you kill kiss only the man, you will feel his breath and embrace it. You will realize that that soul will be much above your life. As you are above hers. You will understand that being with that soul is not possible through caresses, not word, nor kisses, but much more, though an unprecedented torment that you will not be able to sustain, no matter how much you want it, as it is so painfully sweet, a consuming fire that will burn in you in all the eternal moment of your life. And what else remains? What remains in my place and in hers? The ashes of a memory? From which a new love will resurrect as the Phoenix bird? From the ashes of this crazy torment? This is our life, the life of the soul mates, of always seeking one another and when they find each other they consume with the love of their love...
EVERYTHING, but mainly adult alternative like Coldplay, John Mayer, E.S. Posthumus, Alana Davis, Evanescence, Dave Matthews, Norah Jones, Turin Brakes, Damien Rice, KT Tunstall, Keane, Aimee Mann, Duncan Sheik, Death Cab For Cutie, Jason Mraz, Aqualung, Radiohead, Jack Johnson, A Girl Named Eddy, Dixie Chicks, Melissa Etheridge, Dan Fogelberg, Lifehouse, Mary Chapin-Carpenter, X-Ray Dog, Moby, Radiohead, Massive Attack, Lamb, Sarah McLachlan, Paula Cole, k.d. lang, etc., just to skim the surface. My music collection and wish list are enough to scare the hell out of most anyone! We listen to 94.9 The Tee here in Coos Bay and I still love listening to 92.9 The Mountain from Tucson online.
"It's not who I am underneath... but what I do that defines me..."
Movies
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Lord Of The Rings, Harry Potter, Star Wars, anything by Tim Burton, more horror movies than I dare mention, and anything to do with serial killers, science fiction, fantasy/adventure, or movies based on comic books. I'm also a sucker for animation and chick flicks... and if the powers that be ever see fit to give us a Xena movie, it'll be somewhere at the top of my list...
Television
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Xena: Warrior Princess (don't get me started talking about this - the conversation could last years... and before you ask, SUBTEXT ALL THE WAY, BABY!), Criminal Minds, CSI, House, Charmed, Birds Of Prey, Pushing Daisies, Moonlight, Six Feet Under, Two And A Half Men, The L Word, Queer As Folk, sports (especially football, basketball, and Winter Olympic events), Mind of Mencia, Drawn Together, Will & Grace, and educational type stuff like Discovery, Animal Planet, National Geographic, etc.
Love can never be denied - she always finds a way...
Anything by James Patterson, Patricia Cornwell, Thomas Harris, Stephen King, JK Rowling, or Dean Koontz, anything to do with serial killers... and Women Who Run With The Wolves: Myths & Stories About the Wild Woman Archetype - Clarissa Pinkola Estes. Lately I've rediscovered an interest in poetry (as in Shakespeare, Poe, Dante) and ancient history as well!
You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament
Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.
It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.
At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.
For those not fortunate enough to know their own best friend/sister-brother/soulmate... yours is out there somewhere. We have more than one soulmate in this life, and I hope you're all as fortunate as I am in finding them. There are some relationships that transcend labels, categories, and definitions. Forever, beyond all time and boundaries... they are what they are meant to be... and only the people in them understand them... but, please, allow me to scratch the surface of what it's like: a woman who loves me, needs me and wants me undonditionally and endlessly for who I am instead of expecting me to change regardless of who I am, who I've been, who I could have been, or who or what she wants me to be... a woman who melted the ice within me, mended the wounds and claimed my blood - offering me her own, giving me new life... a woman whose soul has walked this earth many times more than my own... a woman who actually "gets" me... a woman with whom I share an eternal bond... a woman who has shown me the most beautiful fear I've ever known... a woman who fits so perfectly into my family and who is so perfect for me... a woman who opened the closed book of my life and read every word, even those that are yet unwritten... a woman who took a complicated soul like mine and simplified it... a woman who has fulfilled, consumed, healed, protected, stood up for, surrounded and completed me... a woman who is my teacher, my student, my inspiration, my soulmate, my lover, my friend, my future wife, my life, and my once in a lifetime miracle... achingly beautiful inside, and damned sexy outside... Arynne, I want, need, and love you past the point of dying.
My best friend/sister/soulmate of 30 + years, Sean. I am forever in your debt for so many things, but most of all for helping me be who I was meant to be and for taking care of me all the time that I spent getting to know myself. My best friend's husband, Chuck... he's the only brother I've ever known and I couldn't ask for better. I won't overwhelm you with all the many details, but I wouldn't trade her or our relationship for the world. I have many good friends... some close enough to consider my extended family... but Sean and Chuck ARE my family, even though several hours now separate us. Family by definition is a group of people who are generally blood relations and who share common attitudes, interests, or goals and, frequently, live together... but what I've learned from being adopted is that some families are made and they are closer than blood. Love is stronger than ties by name or biological means. You stand by each other no matter what. You love, protect, and take care of each other... share lives and dreams, laughter and tears, and while you may fight amongst yourselves, you don't let anyone else throw the punches. PERIOD!
Now that I'm married, I have a much larger family, all of whom I love... hence more heroes. Mom Linda, dad Daniel, sisters Elaine and Laurie, brother David, cousins Angela and Christopher, grandma Florence, and a whole bunch of others... and then there's Johnny: not an in-law, but a very special and important part of our family.
This is a tribute to my Bentley Motors Consumer Affairs Team. I wasn't with them nearly long enough physically, but spiritually I'll be a part of it for life - I love and miss all of you (I miss the cars, too...)!!
This is another collaboration I did with my good friend/little sister Angela. I had a bit more input this time, but she still did all the work and once again knocked my socks off...
Lieren's Details
Status:
Married
Here for:
Friends
Orientation:
Lesbian
Hometown:
Trenton, NJ
Body type:
5' 5" / More to love!
Ethnicity:
White / Caucasian
Religion:
Wiccan
Zodiac Sign:
Gemini
Smoke / Drink:
No / Yes
Education:
Some college
Occupation:
Beachcombing!
Lieren Reminding myself that everything happens for a reason while waiting for a new job opportunity to present itself... Posted at 5:09 PM Nov 9 view more
This is a collaboration between myself and an awesome YouTube fan video director/friend/sister of mine that I need to share. It was Angela's brainstorm and she did all the work - I merely wrote the poem (it was inspired by a woman who, like every other woman in my life, will always be loved and be a part of me, even though I belong to another...) - but it's a beautiful video, and what I want (what I really, really want) is to dedicate it to my wife Arynne...
This has to be SO lame... but I'm far too complex to talk about everything. You already know I'm Wiccan and a lesbian, so it's no big secret that I came out of two closets on the same day - double whammy!! I'm no longer single and waiting to be found by love... she finally found me. My nickname is Pooka or Pook (though of late Sean has been calling me Sprout - please, don't ask! - and Arynne calls me her lynx, which gives me goosebumps every time), and though most everyone screws up my real name, I'm not going to change it... for those who've been screwing it up, y'all are just going to have to get off your lazy bahookies and learn how to spell and pronounce it correctly!! I'm incredibly moody while still being down to earth, and indeed there is a diagnosis and a cure for cases like me but therapy will take forever... complication is just more fun. Basically, I love moonlit nights with chasing clouds, foggy mornings, thunderstorms, Samhain (Halloween), falling snow, autumn leaves, the beach, Yule (Christmas), extreme roller coasters, computers, cars, sports, the mountains, animals, most people, and crazy though it is I really loved my last job (especially my teammates). I'm older than I act or ever want to be, and I have a very twisted sense of humor. Ask anyone - I'm a total smartass! My best friend of 32+ years, Sean, and her husband, Chuck, who's the only brother I've ever had moved to Puyallup along with Picabo. My beloved wife, Arynne, finally came home to me on July 5 - we were handfasted by an ordained high priestess on July 18 at Water Canyon outside of Winnemucca, NV (check the album - there's actually pics from the ceremony now), and we moved to Coos Bay, OR on July 22 - it's SOOOOOO incredibly beautiful here with the ocean, the trees, the mountains, the other bodies of water, andandand just EVERYTHING!!! Arynne and I have an 8-month old male Papillon named Pippin... ears like a bat, AKC papers and an attitude. It's small, quiet, clean, laid back, the people are friendly... and we get all four seasons - the weather is awesome... fog, clouds, rain, not much sunshine, temps are usually 40-60 degrees... PERFECT!!! I prefer beer to wine, and spirits to frilly drinks - and I can drink someone under the table (though I prefer not to do that as much as I used to). I'd rather go out for burgers than a fancy meal. My idea of fashion is really no fashion - if it's not comfortable, it's not in my wardrobe... PERIOD. I'm predominantly apolitical though I am an active voter - don't even get me started about WubWub or any number of other topics that I feel strongly about or we'll be here forever. I am Pro-Choice, Pro-Diversity, and Pro-Human Rights, and I'm damned proud of it. I detest intolerance, prejudice, hypocrisy, greed, violence, the many stigmas of society (really, we already live in enough of a mess - do these people have to make everything so much more bloody complicated??), censorship, labels, blatant stupidity, and narrow-minded ignorance. Wow, that sounds just like the moral majority, doesn't it!! I'm fairly quiet and shy until I get to know you, then I can talk your ears off and be an insatiable flirt. I'm brutally honest, I respect the rights and beliefs of others and expect the same in return... but I hate having someone try to force their lifestyle or beliefs on me. It takes a lot to piss me off, and once I'm there I hold a major grudge... so don't go there! I'm pretty much a homebody but love to hang out when I have the chance (like THAT ever happens!). Overall, you'd probably think I'm probably a freak of nature and it's likely a true story, but it took 45 years for me to get comfortable in my own skin and I'm not about to change until I see fit - so accept me as I am or don't even bother. My small pieces of sage advice? This isn't the only life we have, so enjoy the ride... never give up on your hopes, dreams, or wishes... don't waste your time trying to live other people's lives or worrying about them not approving of you - your life is more interesting anyway and they're just jealous that they can't be who they really are... treat others the way they want to be treated and treat yourself like royalty... never stop learning, laughing, or believing in yourself... violence is only necessary when you're defending yourself or the people you love... don't let yourself be offended - you're only letting them win... there's no reason for our preferences - they just ARE... realize that our uniqueness and individuality is what makes us beautiful and without it our lives would be as boring as shit... love as many and as much as you can whenever you can... when you find THE ONE, grab the bull by the balls and go for it no matter how scary it is - I promise, it's worth it... and most of all, BE HAPPY...
A woman who had me with her first two words across a crowded room (and yes, the evening was VERY enchanted) - a woman who is sharing my name. I also want to meet you (yes you, the one scratching your head while you read my ramblings)... myself as a child to avoid making the mistakes I made even though those mistakes are part of who I am; my biological parents who I never knew, a buttload of actors, actresses, musicians, comedians, etc. that I could spend hours listing (but I'll start with Renee O'Connor and Lucy Lawless); as many serial killers as possible because I seriously wanted to be a profiler, BAU agent, criminologist, forensic pathologist or psychologist and it all still fascinates the hell out of me - don't go thinking it's because it's such a hip thing... I was into it WAY before it became so popular!! Here's an example of how NOT-hip I am:
Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)
Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive.
Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.
The brightest stars in the sky are but a mere spark in an endless galaxy.
No moon could ever shine down its light to be more than a neverending reflection into the soul who yearns to be seen.
Shadows cast aside, a heart beckons and lets out a call, refusing to be turned away, it pulls into the folds of another until it cannot be forsaken, until it can no longer be denied.
For the soul that has found its match, there is no brighter light, than that which is seen in its mate's eyes and that which is radiated through the soul.
Fuck me, it's about time! I'm just kidding, but seriously, I miss you like crazy :( Life is good over here, and yes, I'm crazily in love! *sighs* I miss talking to you. Love you lots!
cont... You bring out my soul's core and reignite that flame that had once died within me. You have shown me with your undying love how to live and love again, and you have given me a reason above all else to continue with my goals and wishes and to not give up on the things I want so much in my life. Most importantly you have shown me that it is alright to FEEL with ALL of me... not just some of me... but ALL of me, the real ME. That alone isnt an easy task. I havent always told you how much it means to me that you wont let me walk away from you or push you away from me and keep you at a distance. For so long I have been so afraid of letting anyone inside me, of becoming so vulnerable that no matter what I will be hurt again. I have never let anyone get this close and to remain this close to me. Yet I dont want to ever let you leave me and my side. I NEED you there beside me and for me to NEED anyone isnt something I do lightly. Theres so much that you do that allows me to become who I am inside and to let that inner child out knowing that when I do, I will be protected and loved and not hurt; knowing that I can cry and not be beaten or told that it is a weakness; knowing that when I laugh I can do it outloud and not have to hide it... that I dont have to be afraid to live anymore. YOU have given me something to love and live for, and I am forever grateful to you for that... for you alone, I live and love unconditionally and without restraints. Thank you for loving me and for being my everything.
My dearest Lieren, I sit here tonight to write to you. Its been many a night that I have sat and contemplated how to put the words in my heart, into words on a page and send them to you, knowing that when you read this, you will probably melt just like what you write does to me. I have never told you that when I wear your shirt especially after you have worn it, how it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside and how just knowing that you have worn it gives me such a feeling of protection as though nothing can break through it and harm me. Nor have I ever told you that just seeing you smile that warm smile you have just for me, lets me know that regardless of how I am feeling inside, I am not alone and that your smile will brighten up any of my days and fill me with such hope and love. I made mention that you are a remarkable woman. I mean that with all of what I am inside. You are remarkable. You are so much rolled into one: warm hearted, bright and talented, intelligent, funny, you have a sexy voice that does such amazing things to me inside and out, a gift for words and for making every moment seem less dull and more free spirited. You are so generous and kind and even when you are at your most bitchiest, you are so ingenious with it, that it is more humourous than anything else. Ever since the beginning, you have intrigued me with your wisdom and knowledge, your wit and humor, your knack for the odd and eccentric, and most of all, you have intrigued me with your wonder and sheer beauty. With each passing moment, you are continuously inspiring me, whether it is to try harder or to take things less seriously. You inspire me with your words, your voice, your smile... the way you try to see beauty and hope in the strangest of places and find even what most would consider dull things, the most amazing things in the world. You inspire me to believe, and to keep my faith and hope alive. You are my greatest source of hope and of inspiration. cont...
my sweet, precious wife...being with you in so many other forms couldnt have prepared me enough for what i received when i came home to you. yes, my love, HOME TO YOU!. You are so much more than i could have ever imagined, ever hoped for. thank you for making my dream a reality, thank you for being my masterpiece and my dream come true. i adore you and love you with every breath that is me. you are my life, my love, my soulmate, my home...and I love you and will be your wife each and every day until time and space cease to exist.
Happy Birthday my precious lynx. I love you so much my darling wife, you are everything to me and more. Heres wishing you many more, and next year Ill be with you to share it with you. I love you so much darling.
The fairies dance within your eyes, speaking in lyrics of a song so true. deeply your smile entrances me, sending me into blissful thoughts. Starlight, moonlight, rays of golden sunshine...each awaken as we talk, each come forth to show their glory as we connect into one, one light, one reason, one being...just one.
FAKE FRIENDS: Never ask for food. REAL FRIENDS: is the reason you have no food.
FAKE FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr / Mrs REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM
FAKE FRIENDS: never seen you cry REAL FRIENDS: cry with you
FAKE FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back REAL FRIENDS: keep your stuff so long they forget it's yours
FAKE FRIENDS: know a few things about you REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you
FAKE FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds butt that left you
FAKE FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door REAL FRIENDS: Walk right in and say 'I'M HOME!'
FAKE FRIENDS: Are for awhile REAL FRIENDS: Are for life
FAKE FRIENDS: will talk bad to the person who talks bad about you. REAL FRIENDS: Will knock the person out that talked bad about you
FAKE FRIENDS: Would ignore this REAL FRIENDS: Will send this to all their real friends and hope to get it back!
If you were killed today, I'm sorry I wouldn't be able to come to your funeral, because I'd be in jail for killing the person who did it.
First, I wanted to let you know that I love you to death & think you are amazing!
Second, if I don't get this back I understand...
I have a game for you. Once you read this letter, you must send it to 14 people that you really care about, including the person that sent it to you. If you receive at least 7 back then you are **AMAZING**
YOU'RE IT!! YOU HAVE BEEN CONSIDERED ONE OF MY COOLEST FRIENDS ON MY LIST. ONCE YOU HAVE BEEN TAGGED YOU HAVE TO TAG 10 OF YOUR SWEETEST FRIENDS AND LET THEM KNOW THEY ARE COOL.
Dec 1, 2007 1:59 AM PLEASE RSVP. THANK YOU. BET I GET THIS BACK. This is the sacred angel.
You MUST pass this angel on to at least 3 people within the hour of receiving this email. After you do, make a wish.
If you have passed it on, your wish will come true and love will come your way shortly.
You're... My friend, My companion, Through good times and bad, My friend, My buddy, Through happy and sad, Beside me you stand, Beside me you walk, You're there to listen, You're there to talk, With happiness, With smiles, With pain and tears, I know you'll be there, throughout the years!
You are all good friends to me and I am grateful to you.
Send this to all your good friends online to show them you are friends. If you get this back from: 1 person - you are lonely 2 people - you have a couple friends, but not many 3 people -- you have a few friends... 4 people -- you have some friends... 5 people -- you have several friends! 6 people -- you have many friends! 7 people -- you are SOOOO loved! Remember, no man or woman is a failure who has a friend! If I could sit on the porch with God, the first thing I would do is thank him for you....
Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle
i have a little angel that flys around with a hammer and hits every one I love, I hope it beats the shit out of you!!! Send this to everyone you care about, even me if you care and if you get 8 you are loved
