hope. [twitter.com/jesykahope]
I'm broke but I'm happy, I'm poor but I'm kind, I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah.

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Mesa, Arizona
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singing. writing. making art. spirituality. To Write Love On Her Arms. yoga. incense. organic things. avant-garde music and movies. body mods. fashion. hair. makeup. meditation. constantly changing for the better. text-messaging. blatant honesty. making jewelry and clothes. baking. every side to a story. optimism. giving and receiving smiles. thrift stores. friends who build me up. music/fashion magazines. things that are pink and black. obscure music and movies. technology. being a hippie. dichotomy. hero worship. winter. the Lakers. philosophy. existentialism. Judd Apatow movies. making lists. laughing. knowing there's something more. hope. life.

Jesyka Illyzahbieth

other stuffs.
Shop Handmade.
my mom's Shop Handmade page.
Tumblr.
Twitter.
allpoetry.
deviantart.
youtube.
Friends or Enemies.
To Write Love On Her Arms.
iLike.
socialvibe.
43 things.
sugar hooker.
del.icio.us.

Music








3OH!3.
30 Seconds to Mars.
98 Degrees.
311.
The Academy Is...
AFI.
Against Me!
Alanis Morisette.
All-American Rejects.
Allister.
All Left Out.
All Time Low.
Amanda Overmyer.
Amber Pacific.
American Hi-Fi.
Amy Winehouse.
Andrew W.K.
Ani DiFranco.
Ashlee Simpson.
Atreyu.
Avenged Sevenfold.
Audioslave.
The Audition.
Authority Zero.
Avril Lavigne.
Bad Religion.
Backstreet Boys.
The Beatles.
Beat Union.
Black Eyed Peas.
blink-182.
Blondie.
Bob Marley.
Box Car Racer.
Boys Like Girls.
Bright Eyes.
Butch Walker.
B*Witched.
Carly Smithson.
Carrie Underwood.
Cartel.
Celine Dion.
Christina Aguilera.
The Clash.
Cobra Starship.
Coldplay.
Concrete Blonde.
Courtney Love.
The Cure.
Cyndi Lauper.
Dashboard Confessional.
Daughtry.
David Cook.
dc Talk.
Death Cab For Cutie.
Denver Harbor.
Dido.
The Distillers.
Dream.
Dresden Dolls.
Dropkick Murphys.
Duffy.
Elliott Yamin.
Eminem.
Enya.
Evanescence.
A Fine Frenzy.
Fleetwood Mac.
Flogging Molly.
Flyleaf.
Foo Fighters.
The Format.
From First to Last.
Garbage.
GG Allin.
Gina Glocksen.
Gnarls Barkley.
Gob.
Go Betty Go.
Gogol Bordello.
The Go-Go’s.
Good Charlotte.
Green Day.
Guttermouth.
Gwen Stefani.
Gym Class Heroes.
Hawthorne Heights.
Hellen.
H.I.M.
The Hives.
Hootie and the Blowfish.
Hole.
The Horrorpops.
Hot Hot Heat.
The Hush Sound.
Iggy and the Stooges.
Imogen Heap.
James Blunt.
Janis Joplin.
Jason Castro.
Jewel.
Jimmy Eat World.
Joan Jett.
Johnny Cash.
Justin Timberlake.
Kate Nash.
Katy Perry.
Kellie Pickler.
Kelly Clarkson.
Kimya Dawson.
KoRn.
KT Tunstall.
Lacuna Coil.
Lady Sovereign.
Lagwagon.
Leona Lewis.
Less Than Jake.
Lil' Wayne.
Lily Allen.
Linkin Park.
Lostprophets.
Lou Reed.
Lydia.
Madonna.
Mae.
Maria Mena.
Maroon 5.
The Matches.
Me First and the Gimme Gimmes.
Metro Station.
Mest.
M.I.A.
Michael Jackson.
Mika.
Miley Cyrus.
Minor Threat.
Missy Elliott.
Morningwood.
Motion City Soundtrack.
My Chemical Romance.
Natasha Bedingfield.
Nelly Furtado.
New Found Glory.
Nirvana.
No Doubt.
Norah Jones.
New Years Day.
*NSYNC.
The Offspring.
O-Town.
Outkast.
Panic at the Disco.
Patti Smith.
Pennywise.
Pepper.
P!nk.
Plain White T’s.
Plus 44.
The Pretenders.
Queen.
Queens of the Stone Age.
The Ramones.
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
Regina Spektor.
Relient K.
Rihanna.
Rilo Kiley.
Rise Against.
Rob Thomas.
The Rocket Summer.
Ryan Cabrera.
Saosin.
Scarlett Johansson.
Sex Pistols.
Shakira.
Sheryl Crow.
The Shins.
Simple Plan.
The Slits.
Spice Girls.
The Spill Canvas.
Split the Enemy.
Steve Winwood.
S.T.U.N.
Sublime.
Sugarcult.
The Suicide Machines.
Sum 41.
System of a Down.
TLC.
Tokyo Hotel.
The Transplants.
Tsunami Bomb.
The Used.
Vanessa Rose.
Velvet Underground.
The Vincent Black Shadow.
Waking Ashland.
We Are They.
White Stripes.
The White Tie Affair.
X.
Yeah Yeah Yeahs.
Yellowcard.

[ click for concerts I've attended. ]



Movies
The 40-Year-Old Virgin.
50 First Dates.
Accepted.
Ace Ventura: Pet Detective.
American History X.
American Pie 1, 2, 3.
Anastasia.
Anchorman.
Back to the Future 1, 2, 3.
Beaches.
Benny and Joon.
The Breakfast Club.
Bring It On.
Bruce Almighty.
Charlie Bartlett.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (both).
Corky Romano.
Dazed and Confused.
Donnie Darko.
The Emperor's New Groove.
Evan Almighty.
The Exorcism of Emily Rose.
Fast Times at Ridgemont High.
Fight Club.
Forgetting Sarah Marshall.
Happy Accidents.
Harry Potter and the Sorceror's Stone.
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets.
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
Hocus Pocus.
The House Bunny.
I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry.
Knocked Up.
Lady in the Water.
The Last Kiss.
Legally Blonde.
Lion King.
Miss Congeniality.
Monsters, Inc.
Moulin Rouge.
Mulan.
Napoleon Dynamite.
Never Been Kissed.
Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist.
The Nightmare Before Christmas.
Party Monster.
Pineapple Express.
Requiem For a Dream.
Sherrybaby.
The Simpsons Movie.
The Sixth Sense.
SLC Punk.
Spiderman 1, 2, 3.
Stepbrothers.
Stigmata.
Stranger Than Fiction.
Superbad.
Titanic.
The Tracey Fragments.
Trading Places.
Uncle Buck.
V For Vendetta.
Walk the Line.
White Oleander.
Zoolander.

Television
American Idol.
Color Splash.
Dancing With the Stars.
LA Ink.
Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson.
Late Night with Jimmy Fallon.
The Oblongs.
Saturday Night Live.
Seinfeld.
South Park.
So You Think You Can Dance.
TMZ.
That 70's Show.

Books
The Average American Male.
The Bell Jar.
Crank.
Cut.
Drugs Are Nice.
Getting Over Jack Wagner.
The Giver.
Go Ask Alice.
Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone.
Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets.
Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.
Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix.
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.
The House On Mango Street.
A Million Little Pieces.
A Night Without Armor: Poems by Jewel.
Oh, the Places You'll Go!
Please Kill Me: The Uncensored Oral History of Punk.
Purpose For the Pain.
Requiem For a Dream.
The Rough Guide to Rock.
Running With Scissors.
The Secret Life of Dagmar Shultz
Speak.

Influences
I don't look up to anyone as much as I look up to Pete Wentz of Fall Out Boy. I first heard about Fall Out Boy when "Grand Theft Autumn / Where is Your Boy" came out, but I really started listening to them three years ago when "Sugar, We're Goin' Down" came out, and Pete immediately caught my eye. I'll admit it, it was his looks. Haha. I honestly find him to be the most attractive person I've ever seen in my life. Then the more I got into Fall Out Boy, the more I got to like Pete Wentz. I started reading about him. In February of 2005, when Fall Out Boy was gaining more fame, he had a panic attack. He didn't know how to deal with it. He called all of his friends and family and told them he loved them. Then he overdosed on Ativan, a prescription anxiety medication. (That's what FOB's song "7 Minutes in Heaven (Atavan Halen)" is about.) He said that when he did it, he wasn't trying to commit suicide. He just wanted an answer. Whether or not he lived, that's what was meant to happen, and either way he was okay with it. Then in March of 2006, nude pictures of him came out on the internet that he'd sent to a girl he liked. He got teased mercilessly. But in the midst of all these things, he still managed to laugh at himself and bounce back. That is huge inspiration for me. He also has his own clothing line called Clandestine, a record label called Decaydance (which has signed Panic! At the Disco, Gym Class Heroes, Cobra Starship, Lifetime, and The Hush Sound), he hosts a new show on MTV, he's done ads for Gap, he has written a book called The Boy with a Thorn in His Side based on nightmares he had as a child, he has a film production company called Bartskull Films, and he owns a nightclub with members of Gym Class Heroes, The Academy Is..., and Cobra Starship called Angels and Kings. He writes all of the lyrics for Fall Out Boy and is their bassist. Plus, he is under even more scrutiny by marrying Ashlee Simpson. But he is calm under pressure and he takes things a day at a time. He also is backing Barack Obama, and that thrills me. He never ceases to amaze me. The fact that someone is capable of doing all of that inspires me to be the best I can be. When I listen to or read the lyrics of Fall Out Boy songs, it makes me want to write and write and write. It doesn't matter what he goes through or has to overcome, he always comes back more amazing than ever. He is a true inspiration and he is truly my hero. Pete Wentz gives me hope.
“If you know me you know how uncool I am. I stutter, wear bad clothes, make bad jokes, make conversation uncomfortable, the list goes on. Thank you for making me feel okay.”

Quotes to live by.
!@#$%&*?!

"Without music, life would be a mistake."
- Friedrich Nietzsche

"I am not a woman; I am a force of nature."
- Courtney Love

"It's alright letting yourself go, as long as you can get yourself back."
- Mick Jagger

"If I could tell the world just one thing it would be
'we're all okay'
and not to worry
'cause worry is wasteful and useless
in times like these."
- "Hands", Jewel

"Live simply, so others can simply live."
- Ghandi

"He does not need opium; he has the gift of reverie."
- Anais Nin

"What you do in the end is what you intended to do all along."
- Cus D'Amato

"I've looked at love from both sides now;
from give and take, win and lose.
And still somehow,
it's love's illusions that I recall:
I really don't know love at all."
- "Both Sides Now", Joni Mitchell

"Ignorance, the root and the stem of every evil."
- Plato

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."
- Plato

"Is man merely a mistake of God's? Or God merely a mistake of man's?"
- Friedrich Nietzsche

"There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness."
- Friedrich Nietzsche

"In heaven all the interesting people are missing."
- Friedrich Nietzsche

"There are no facts, only interpretations."
- Friedrich Nietzsche

"Happiness depends upon ourselves."
- Aristotle

"Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy."
- Anne Frank

"Bore, n.: A person who talks when you wish him to listen."
- Ambrose Bierce

"Love all, trust a few. Do wrong to none."
- William Shakespeare

"While there's life, there's hope."
- Cicero

"Come to the edge, He said.
They said, We are afraid.
Come to the edge, He said.
They came.
He pushed them...
And they flew."
- Guillaume Apollinaire

"Failure is an opportunity."
- A Million Little Pieces

"Don’t cling to comfort and everything will be comfortable."
- A Million Little Pieces

"When one lives without fear, one cannot be broken. When one lives with fear one is broken before one begins to live."
- A Million Little Pieces


     hope. [twitter.com/jesykahope]'s Details
Status:Single
Zodiac Sign:Cancer
Smoke / Drink:No / No

   hope. [twitter.com/jesykahope]'s Schools
Chandler/gilbert Community College
Chandler,AZ
Graduated: 2009
Student status: Alumni
Degree: Associate's Degree
 

2005 to 2009



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!@#$%^&*! Prologue.
JESYKA. Not JESSICA. Or I'll shoot you in the face.
I'm always looking for a deeper meaning. If you look out your window, there's more there than what you see. I love going to Warped Tour just to rub shoulders with people I feel are my equals. It's nice to feel like I belong somewhere. I want to be a singer, a writer, an activist, an artist, and own a bakery, all at the same time. I like to listen to Imogen Heap when it's raining. I hated my philosophy class but it made me realize how philosophical I am. It's only a chair because we say it is. I hate all things Twilight. Harry Potter will always dominate. I'm double-majoring in English (which is probably why the rest of my profile is so long-winded haha) and alternative medicine. It used to be psychology until I realized I don't like anything that ends in -ology. I take vitamins every day. I'm obsessive-compulsive about my hair and if I really like how it looks, I won't wash it for 2-3 weeks; I'll just sleep on it then freshen it up when I wake up. That being said, I'm completely enamored with the hippie culture and everything associated with it. I want a tree-loving hippie boy with long hair who gets dirty and makes me jewelry. We would sleep outside and wake up with sunshine in our eyes. I'm extremely liberal and open-minded. Close-mindedness and judgement get us nowhere. The only Republican thing about me is that I believe in God. I'm obsessed with celebrities and all the wacky things they do and say. I curse quite a lot. I am completely hedonistic. I am completely masochistic. They often occur at the same time. I will inevitably quote an episode of Seinfeld or a Judd Apatow movie or Juno at least once a day. I read the dictionary for fun. Reality television is rotting my brain but I can't stop watching. I'm planning on getting many tattoos and many piercings. My ears are gauged to a 00; I think I'll stop at 1 1/4 inch. I am hardcore straight edge; read more below. I take Myspace and Facebook way too seriously, and I pour my heart and soul out on them, even though I'm pretty sure no one cares. When I was small, I once fingerpainted all over my nursery walls with my own poop.
If there was a store called My Chemical Romance, what would it sell?

Chapter One.

In Greek mythology, Pandora was the first woman on earth. Zeus ordered Hephaestus, the god of craftsmanship, to create her and he did, using water and earth. The gods endowed her with many talents; Aphrodite gave her beauty, Apollo music, Hermes persuasion, and so forth. Hence her name: Pandora, "all-gifted". Pandora was married to Prometheus. When Prometheus stole fire from heaven, Zeus took vengeance by presenting Pandora to Epimetheus, Prometheus' brother. With her, Pandora had a jar which she was not to open under any circumstance. Impelled by her natural curiosity, Pandora opened the jar, and all evil contained escaped and spread over the earth. She hastened to close the lid, but the whole contents of the jar had escaped, except for one thing which lay at the bottom, and that was Hope. Pandora was ordered to leave Hope in the box because it was the biggest evil. It was believed by the ancient Greeks that Hope is a false feeling that does not help a person. But when the Earth was drowning in sadness, jealousy, hate, and greed, Pandora was then allowed to let out Hope. People gained this gift and the world was good again.
I am a strong believer in the concept of hope. If you know me well enough, you know this haha. I have statues and figurines and whatever else I can find that say 'hope' all over my bedroom and my myspace name/email address/many online usernames have 'hope' in them. People even call me Hope! My main reason for believing in it so much is because, to me, one can be as depressed as possible about their current situation, but as long as one stays hopeful, they have that one thing left to hold on to. To me, hope is a life jacket. You could not know how to swim and not be able to hold your breath for longer than 5 seconds, but as long as you're wearing that life jacket, you can stay afloat. You can lose your job and break up with your partner and lose your house, but if you stay hopeful that things will get better, then those negative parts of your life won't consume you. When you lose hope, you lose everything.

Chapter Two.

I've just graduated college (May 15th, 2009) and it was one of the best moments ever. I'm so proud of myself for sticking with it for the last 4 years, even through all of the bazillion times I wanted to throw in the towel. There were so many moments when I just wanted to die. The one thing that pissed me off the most was realizing I could have graduated a year early, had I just gotten one letter grade higher in a biology class. I had to have two science classes for my associates in arts (why you need TWO SCIENCE classes for an ARTS degree, I'll never know). I got a D in biology, so after I took anatomy in the spring of 2008, I had to take one more, so I chose astronomy (which sucked, by the way lol) for the fall of 2008. But when last semester ended, I still had grant money left over, and my parents made me take another full-time semester to use it up. So had I just gotten a C in that biology class, I wouldn't have had to take astronomy, and have money left over to use. But, ironically, after bitching and moaning about how much I didn't want to go back to school, this has easily been the best semester of my college career. Figures. lol Being in art, alternative medicine, yoga, and religions really opened my eyes. To quote Kelsey, it was my zen semester! =] I grew a lot over the past 5 months. I've even decided to go to an alternative medicine school, possibly in addition to majoring in English. I have a huge desire to change the world, and I think signing up for that alternative medicine class was the first step on that path.

Chapter Three.

I am quite obsessed with Britney Spears. Like....fer serious. haha. I've loved her since "...Baby, One More Time" came out a decade ago. I do believe she's the only artist I've liked so much for so long. I get those Google alerts in my email every day so I can read new things about her, I rip articles out of magazines that aren't mine, just because they mention her, and I pretty much idolize her. Why her, you ask? Of all people to look up to? Because I've never really been attracted to people who have it all together. That's boring. I'm fully aware of how messed up Britney is, but I find it endearing. And watching her bounce back the way she has is really inspiring. I pretty much grew up with Britney Spears always being around me in some way, so she's just a part of my life. I totally sound like a stalker right now. hahaha. Whatever, Britney Spears is effing rad; if you don't like her, you can suck my middle finger. I know you want to.

Chapter Four.

Music is my favorite thing in the whole world. I can't go a day without listening to music. My biggest dream is to be a singer, something like Hayley Williams or Brody Dalle or Regina Spektor. I want to make people as happy listening to my music as other people's music has made me. My dad tells me stories of how I used to stare at pictures of Stevie Nicks from Fleetwood Mac when I was small because I was obsessed with her, or how "Yellow Submarine" was my favorite song and I sang it all the time. A lot of memories from my past include music; when I was 10 or 11 years old, I would listen to 104.7 KZZP and Mix 96.9 religously so I could hear Hootie and the Blowfish, Blues Traveler, Sublime, and Collective Soul (90s alt rock is amazing <3) while I hung out with my dad. The first collage I ever made had pictures of Madonna and Doris Day on it because I already knew who they were, and I already loved them. My favorite day of the week in kidnergarten was when we had music class with Ms. Wagner, and she would put on "Achy Breaky Heart" and just let us dance around the room for an hour. When I was 11 years old, my friend Mikelle Biggs was kidnapped, and one of the few things that got me through it was listening to *NSYNC and Britney Spears; their music made me so happy (don't hate!). Music has really shaped my life into what I am now. I constantly have a new favorite song (right now: "Poker Face" by Lady GaGa and "Valium Knights" by Spinnerette) or I'm youtube-ing music videos or performances from American Idol (which is my favorite show, by the way haha). I love watching off-the-wall movies and quirky television shows just so I can hear new cool music to add to my collection. I currently own 326 CDs and they are my most prized possessions. When I have money, 99.9% of the time, it goes towards new albums. Of anything I could get right now, I mostly want the new Lily Allen, The Airborne Toxic Event, and 3OH!3 albums! I'd rather have new music than clothes or jewelry. My iPod has been one of the coolest gifts I've ever received and I don't go anywhere without it. There have just been so many times when I'm depressed or angry, and I listen to songs that fit my mood to get over it, and a little while later, I feel good again. Nothing can give me a high quite like music can. Thank God for the invention of music, I don't know where I'd be without it.

Chapter Five.

I am hardcore straight edge. I do not drink, smoke cigarettes, do any kind of illegal drug, smoke hookah, drink caffeinated drinks (including coffee and tea), or eat fish. I have never been drunk in my life and I've made a couple mistakes with marijuana, I will admit. I WILL NEVER DRINK WITH YOU, PARTY WITH YOU, GET HIGH WITH YOU, ETC. SO DON'T ASK. I have been doing my research since I decided to be straight edge (when I was 16), contrary to popular belief, and that's how I came to the decision to be straight edge. The main reason I don't partake in those things is because I would hate myself for doing something that I swore I wouldn't do because I think it's wrong. Not wrong for everyone, everyone has their own thoughts, but wrong for me. I don't feel like I'm meant to drink or smoke or do drugs, etc. I feel like I'm meant to keep my body clean so I can tell others who don't have clean bodies what it's like. I just feel as though I am meant to do this, and doing the opposite would feel uncomfortable and wrong. A guy on myspace told me once that just from reading my views on straight edge on my page made him want to stop drinking. That's the most amazing thing I've ever heard. This is what I'm meant to do. I've had boyfriends get kicked out of school for doing drugs; I've had friends go to parties and get their drinks spiked with heroin and cocaine, then wake up days later and not know where they are; I've watched friends go from being skinny to gaining massive amounts of weight from doing drugs; I've lost friends because of my mistakes I've made with marijuana; I've hung out with drunk friends and been embarrassed to be around them because they're acting like idiots; I've lost so much respect for so many people. I have little to no respect for people who like to get high off their asses or who get drunk and barf every weekend. MYTH: Pot isn't bad for you because it's natural. Hmm, you know what else is natural? ARSENIC. (Google it.) Plus, smoking one joint does the same amount of damage to your lungs as five cigarettes. I don't care who you are; if alcohol and/or drugs translate to a good time for you, you're a tool. Friends used to try to joke with me, saying they were going to be the first person to get me drunk, or that we were going to "party" on my 21st birthday. That just makes me want to hang out with you less. If that's the only way you can have fun, you have a sorry life indeed. I thoroughly dislike when people use the excuse that they want to forget their problems. If you hate your life that much, go effing do something about it instead of slowly killing yourself. And if you want to feel good at a party, drink a Red Bull. Seriously, it's not that hard to avoid. I think drugs are pretty self-explanatory. I don't think hallucinating and falling on your ass are good forms of fun. And if you've read this entire self-indulgent blah blah, then I won't talk about it again; if you don't shove your beliefs down my throat, I won't shove mine down yours. Unless, of course, you ask.

Chapter Six.

I am an extremely emotional, thoughtful, deep person, and I often hide it. Things bottle up, then I eventually have some sort of breakdown. No one ever knows 100% how I feel about something unless we get into a fight or they read about it on my myspace. I'm so afraid of telling people what I really think because I think I'll get judged, get yelled at, lose a friend, etc. And if I've tried opening up to you about something but you constantly tear me down, I will close right up and not talk to you again. I might talk about meaningless things, but nothing to do with my opinions or your opinions. I know it will all just piss me off, so I stay quiet. Only if you've truly shown me you can accept me and not berate me is when I'll tell you how I feel. I know a lot of nosy people, and they all like to know my business. So I finally give in and tell them what they want to know so they'll shut up, then they tell me why it's wrong, stupid, unattractive, retarded, or untalented. I don't get it. So I just keep my mouth shut. If I wanted your opinion I'd ask for it. Which I rarely do. Or I say what I think about something and the person I'm talking to is too stupid to know what I'm talking about. They'll give me a confused look and I'll feel stupid because I'll think it's my fault for being stupid. I know I'm smart, I just have a problem with sharing things. I often stall when answering a question because I'm trying to make it sound perfect so the person talking to me won't think I'm ignorant. That's why I like writing so much. Poetry, short stories, blogs, myspace about me's, whatever =] If I have a chance to truly express myself without having to risk seeing the disappointed, mad, or confused look on your face, I'll take it.

Chapter Seven.

I've started to become more interested in the things that go on around me. A couple years ago, I didn't give a rat's ass about Barack Obama or malaria in Africa or the environment. But I was ignorant. Over the last couple years or so, I've educated myself on as much as I can. Most importantly, I am strongly in favor of Barack Obama (read more below). Also, after watching Idol Gives Back a last year, one of my life goals is to visit Africa to help in some way. I don't know what I could do there, but I really want to help in some way. I don't just want to give money, I want to physically make a difference. Those are my big issues lately, but other things I'm interested in are gay rights, animal cruelty, alcohol and drug abuse, and the environment. I'm not very knowledgable yet, but I'm definitely working on it.

Chapter Eight.

I didn't used to give a damn about politics or the president. Until Barack Obama came along. I have never advocated a political figure as much as I advocate him. I have so much respect for him, maybe more than I've ever had for another person. I will stand up for him in any discussion or arguement if I'm so provoked. I appreciate that he is open-minded and young, and I think younger people (teens, 20s) will appreciate that after having the last 8 years with a narrow-minded president. It's important to capture the attention of young people because we're the ones who are most easily influenced, not people my parents' age. [If every person ages 18-24 voted, that age group alone could determine who the next president would be.] We're the next generation, and we need someone like Obama who can listen to our ideas and prepare us for the future. McCain already had his ideas solidified in his mind, he only wanted to be involved with people his age who would agree with him. I also think Obama is very qualified, with being on the Illinois State Senate and graduating Magna Cum Laude from Harvard Law. Last summer I read A Promise of Change, his biography, and I'm so impressed with how far he's come so quickly and what a determined, forward-thinking man he is. He is what we need, there is no doubt in my mind. I'm at the point now where I don't care if I piss someone off with my views; if you don't like it, don't talk to me. It's time for a revolution. YES WE CAN.

Chapter Nine.

"Your sign is that of sensitive Cancer, the fourth sign of the zodiac, the sign characterized by deep feelings and protectiveness. You are known for being nurturing, hospitable, and imaginative, and all your effort goes into making your home a safe place for you and the people you cherish. The Moon, is the ruler of your sign, and makes you a very intuitive and empathetic person. Like the ebb and flow of the tides, you are both receptive to those you love and willing to offer comfort in return. Being the first of the water signs you have psychic powers, and are able to sense feelings and thoughts in others - you feel rather than think. When you love someone, you love truly and deeply, and have the desire to connect on a profound level. As a Cancer, you rule the fourth house, the sector of the horoscope that describes your emotional roots, your home, your childhood, and your parent of lesser influence, usually your father. Most of all, the fourth house stands for attunement to your inner self. Your sign is a cardinal sign, which means that your parental instincts compel you to protect and fight for the security of your loved ones. You thrive on drama, and get stronger in situations of crisis. Your strengths lie in your ability to adapt and cooperate, and your wonderful way of providing comfort. You are devoted and selfless in your dealings with others, which makes you a very dependable person. Since you are attuned to your unconscious, you have a strong imagination and are in touch with your intuition. One of your weaknesses is that you can get hypersensitive and moody when someone fails to show you their love and appreciation. In situations of insecurity, you sometimes show immature, manipulative, and even tyrannical behavior, and others could see you as overly possessive and dependent."

Epilogue.

I am a complete dichotomy. I'll choose one path today, then tomorrow, I'll choose the exact opposite. I constantly contradict myself and I rather enjoy it. It used to bother me but I've realized: it's just the way I am. And I'm okay with who I am, for the first time in my life. I'm a social butterfly, I'm antisocial. I'm hyper, I'm lazy. I'm giving, I'm selfish. I'll be confused as hell about who I am one day, then think I have it all figured out the next day. That's just who I am. But as I said, I'm okay with never fully figuring myself out. It wouldn't feel like me if I did. I'm perfectly fine with searching. It just means I get to spend the rest of my life testing every aspect of life that I can, and I get to find all of the things that make me happy. And seriously, who doesn't want to be happy?

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Who I'd like to meet:

Teenage Fairy
Francesca Lia Block
i didn't feel like I was enough
so i changed my nose
and i changed my skin
and i changed my bones
and i changed my blood
and i changed my home
and i changed my love
and i changed my clothes
and i changed my belly
and i changed my friends
and i changed my mind
until the man i wanted came to me

but after a while he left anyway
and i was alone with this new self
we slept in our bed with the roses
she and i
and we sat by the pond waiting
for water lilies
and we wrote poems
to each other
and we photographed ourselves in the mirror
and i was still lonely,
rummaging in the bed in my sleep
seeking someone who
had never been there at all

then this big-eyed,
long-legged
fourteen-year-old fairy
wrote to me
and she said she didn't
think she was beautiful
and i told her not to let her pain confuse her
trick her into thinking untruths
and i told her that her pain was not her fault
but that she could use it to make beauty
instead of to hurt herself

and that night i slept peacefully
in my own arms






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Jul 11 2009 3:06 AM

Lmao.. can't forget when Amanda R. joined in the fun. Totally made out with her after school.
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Jul 11 2009 2:56 AM

What would be your favorite memory of you and I?
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Jun 25 2009 1:00 AM

i love youuuu! :]
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Jun 22 2009 4:53 PM

6'8" Dude! It was a little tight, but we didnt mind.
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Jun 16 2009 3:10 AM

Ha ha ha! I <3 you!
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Jun 14 2009 8:31 PM

just the same day :( but it would've been cooler if it was the same year too
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Jun 14 2009 6:58 AM

hey we have the same birth date !!!:o lol
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Jun 13 2009 10:10 PM


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Jun 11 2009 9:44 PM

saturday...clubhouse
you in?
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Jun 11 2009 10:55 AM

lol sounds awesome :]
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Jun 9 2009 9:49 PM

hey!!

busy on saturday?
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Jun 9 2009 4:14 AM

Things will look up soon.
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Jun 7 2009 2:05 PM

No. He's out of the Navy. Been out since November. He's off doing "i need alone time to get shit straight" stuff. He'll be back soon.
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Jun 6 2009 12:27 PM

I made that bracelet for Mitch.. ):
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Jun 6 2009 12:11 AM

June 13
Ashes to Phoenix
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Jun 2 2009 1:19 AM

well thank you kindly :]
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May 30 2009 12:11 AM

Cool. Hows that going?
Uh...Im good. Just bored.
Listening 2 muzik trying to fix my page. lol.
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May 29 2009 11:26 PM

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May 29 2009 11:23 PM

Hey...
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So...hows it going?
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May 29 2009 8:24 AM

bahahaha, good!! Mission accomplished then!
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May 29 2009 5:26 AM

im good and you
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May 29 2009 12:42 AM

fun lol. that's awesome you got a job so fast.
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May 21 2009 7:13 AM

hii hottie!!!!!!! =D i miss you!! how was your graduation?! it looked fun XD omg i'm getting soo pissed off i STILL don't have my bike -_-"
.kristin.





May 19 2009 11:29 PM

so what are you going to do now that you're all done with school? that must be kinda scary

yeah we decided on evelyn :] i'm glad we finally agreed on a name lol
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May 16 2009 7:20 AM

i hope your graduation was amazing! i had really wanted to go :[

but congratulations lady!! i'm so proud of you
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