About me:
It's hard being an idealist. Maybe it's even a little foolish to base your ideals in books, and movies, and plays, and imaginary things like that. But it's how I am, and I like being this way. It gives me creativity, inspiration and passion. But admittedly, real life doesn't allow much opportunity for ideals. So every once in a while, I end up eating my words, or feeling like a poser or a sellout, just to make ends meet (in a figure of speech).
But they say when God closes a door, He opens a window. I'm pretty sure that's true. Haven't found that open window yet, but I'm looking for it. Trying to unlock a few, and make sure they haven't been painted shut. If it has been painted shut, well either I screwed up, or I just haven't found the open window yet.
At the best, this is all just motivation to succeed. I know I don't like mediocrity, I don't like "stupid", I don't like menial, and I don't like monotony. So I refuse to do things that stick me around that. But, as appealing as being a starving artist sounds, it sadly makes everything harder. So sometimes we don't have a choice in the matter. But, whenever possible, I will do that which motivates me to maintain integrity, and dignity, and lends itself to helping me continue to hold pride in myself.
"Mother was--Oh Rhett, for the first time I'm glad she's dead, so she can't see me. She didn't raise me to be mean. She was so kind to everybody, so good. She'd rather I'd have starved than done this. And I so wanted to be like her in every way and I'm not like her one bit. I hadn't thought of that--there's been so much else to think about--but I wanted to be like her. I didn't want to be like Pa. I loved him but he was--so--so thoughtless. Rhett, sometimes I did try so hard to be nice to people and kind to Frank but then the nightmare would come back and scare me so bad I'd want to rush out and grab all the money I could." ~ Scarlett O'Hara, Gone With The Wind (Story of my life)
Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin' else. And the reasons? There are no reasons.
~Mark "Rent-boy" Renton, Trainspotting
Augen Auf, ich komme.
~OOMPH
Other places to check me out at:
www.paintwithwords.today.com
www.cestlavie.today.com
www.diedirigentin.webs.com
Who I'd like to meet:
Famous People:
Davey Havok/AFI
Tokio Hotel [accomplished 8-15-08 in Chicago at the expense of missing my bus home lol]
Zac Hanson/Hanson (the reason I started playing drums) [accomplished 4-15-2008]
Darren Hayes
Orlando Bloom
Dita Von Teese
There's even more, but I can't think right now who they would be, and there are some I'd rather sit and talk with and pick their brains and learn from them, rather than be like "OMG! I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH!"
Online friends:
Kristin
Tina
Dominique
Nikita
Emily
Rosanna
Loretta
Tania
Bisera (if I can have my way before too long we'll be hanging out all the time. YAY!) [accomplished 8-14-08. THANK YOU SO MUCH HUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]
Hannah (I heart my wifey!)
Sam (SLAVE!!!! Ich liebe dich! <33)
Paula
Sandra/Angel
Jana (all about the brains, baby!)
All my other BFT girls (though I still wonder if that would end in a crazed orgy LOL)
My THus girls [met Steff, xcarcrashlove, lilcupcakeofdoom and night 8-15-08 at the TH show in Chicago]
Comments
Nov 20 2009 12:42 AM
Nov 19 2009 9:16 AM
Joyeux anniversaire cherie.
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Aug 13 2009 6:49 PM
i forgot i had logged in lol so sorry
hope ur not mad
btw how are u?:)
Jul 28 2009 9:40 PM
Jul 19 2009 8:15 AM
awe.:) thank you for the concern.
The bombings were near the hotel i am staying at, but not at, so, i am safe, and there is no reason to worry.
Thank you again though
<3
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Jun 22 2009 3:38 AM
so wonderful to make...
your acquaintance........
thanks a MILLION for...
the LOVE & SUPPORT...
it's GREATLY appreciated!!
message us anytime!!
KILL THE PIG...
t.d. benton
WCS Live Sample
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Jun 10 2009 9:09 PM
I don't know what's up with myspace I seriously did not get a comment notification for this..
Sorry, it's so late.
Sometimes I would love to murder myspace!
>.>
May 24 2009 5:22 AM
Hey Erika,
I just wanted to say that I should be able to make it to your wedding next year.
I really want to be there for you.
I'm clearing out my June 2010 schedule for you.
Keeping it open for you.
Let me know if you need anything.
:)
Nikki <3
May 22 2009 4:19 PM
http://www.myspace.com/soundcheck7734
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