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To go back a little further I share with you that I have been on a journey, it started probably some 15 years ago..., I had achieved a recognised career in the pop music industry, with top ten records including a 6 week NO.1 hit ‘The Only Way is Up’ and little did I know it really was! But however, my personal life was a mess, my heart was breaking, and I had become deeply distressed and disillusioned with what I was seeing happening all around me in the music industry and how that was affecting me personally... I had to make some decisions,.. big decisions,.. I had just given birth to the most precious of gifts, a beautiful baby girl and my heart and mind was torn & broken,.. but this dear child was the beginning of my search for healing, wisdom, for truth and for purpose, I thank God every day for my child...

And so I began the search for some answers; spiritual, physical and emotional!..., I know deep down that everyone eventually comes to ask those questions..., Why am I here? Where am I going and why? Why’s the world such a mess? Why the pain? And where shall it all end type questions...

And so I started, I sought out almost every known spiritual source from buddhism, ecologist-ics, I read indian guru’s books, Louise Hay material, I practiced new age arts, read many eastern philosophies, bought crystals and did seminars..., but I never once experienced the presence or the true peace of God, neither did I have reassurance for my questions...

I wanted to find God, I wanted it to be personal, authoritative and I longed to fill the gap that was aching in my innermost being..., I had filled it with work, shopping, relationships, books, more work, more books, drinking, gym and more drink & gym. I wanted to sing but I had lost the joy of it. Instead I felt like I was in a game, and I was definitely losing... the music business was robbing my soul, and I knew it... I wanted to be a wonderful mother but felt I had started badly, was losing confidence and so, after time I became ill... very very ill....

And so there I was trapped, in a nervous breakdown, but in the midst of those storms, one night I found my answer..., I cried out to God, weeping, ‘Please help me, I believe You are there, but I don’t know You, God... please help me I’ve searched everywhere’...... And that night, I found and opened the most profound spiritual book in the world..., The Holy Bible, which contains the teachings of Jesus Christ, the most extraordinary, beautiful & powerful human being who lives, the GodMan...., I had never read the book before, I knew very little about it’s author, but I sensed it was the last hope that I had..., I cannot recall what I read, I cannot recall understanding it either, but I can recall an extraordinary experience after I lay the book down, such warm peace flooded through my body, lasting minutes... I lay totally in a peace zone..., sincerely.., I knew I had had a God Encounter, and I knew my answers were to be found within that book somehow....,

This new Album then, has come through a story, a true story of hurt, loss, wonder and faith. My christian life began only nine years ago, but what an amazing & exciting 9 years; I asked the Lord to take me and make me His, to clean me and forgive me of all the mistakes I’d made, to teach me & change me, I love Him and I am His, I have chosen to devote my life to God...,

.....All the songs I have written were inspired by conversations I have had through prayer, inspired by scriptures, life situations, precious family and friendships, the good times and the bad,... The title track of the album is called, ‘Running Back to You’... there’s a story in the bible written by one of Jesus’ followers called Matthew, entitled ‘The Prodigal Son’... It’s kinda my story and the song was inspired because of it; I was the prodigal son, the world had come upon me with all it’s attractions, distractions and deceptions..., It was sucking me in..., I thought I was in control, but I realised I was being controlled.... and it wasn’t until I stopped and found someone greater than all of it, that I found peace and purpose and meaning..., I found a greater love....,
Every time I read Matthew’s account it breaks me, because it shows me the beautiful love of God The Father has for us all as we begin to come home and come back as I did,.... He rocks, he reigns, he rules....,

EVERYONE HAS A STORY..., WHATS YOURS?

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