"Life is a twisted maze of obstacles, presented by people with a secret face." - Chuck Schuldiner; in the song 'Secret Face' by Death; from the album, "Human."
Male
24 years old
Boresville, Indiana
United States
I guess I put my interests here, right? Well, obviously I'm a big fan of anime and a lover of music (you can explore my love for said interests more in depth at the above links). And yes, I am a METALHEAD. I don't only listen to metal, but it is my most beloved genre of music; metal is not only a giant part of my life, but it's also a part of who I am as a human being. That doesn't mean that I fit into any kind of negative stereotype, however. I may have the long hair and (sometimes) the scraggly beard, and I may act br00tal and thrash around a lot (THRASH 'TIL DEATH!), but I don't consider myself an evil, violent, depressed, hateful or close-minded person. I'm actually quite the opposite in ALL respects, and there are a lot of metalheads out there who also defy the negative stereotypes that many have heard (and that some have wrongfully spread around).
Naturally, another one of my main interests is spending as much time as I can with my close friends. I don't know where I would be, without them (probably a lot worse off emotionally than I am now, at the very least) and I love them all, dearly. Unfortunately, almost all of my close friends live several hours (driving distance) away, and I only get to hang out with them once or twice a month (some, even less than that). But, I don't let that get me down and I just remain glad that I've been able to stay close to so many people over the years, despite the various circumstances.
Currently, I live on my own and I eat much more fast food than I should. :p I fear the day when my metabolism dies a horrible death and I start breaking the scale. I honestly need to start working out and eating healthier, I readily admit this.
Music
Type O Negative - September Sun [Radio Edit]; from the album, "Dead Again."
"Music is a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosphy. Music is the electrical soil in which the spirit lives, thinks and invents." - Ludwig van Beethoven
"Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life." - Red Auerbach
"Music gives a soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and life to everything." - Plato
Those quotes above are the best collections of words that I could find to describe my love and admiration for music, and why I find it so important in life. But truthfully, no words can adequately describe such a marvel; that is because music itself is the universal language upon which we are able to communicate that which cannot be put into words.
I put the above video by Type O Negative in my profile for several reasons. First of all, Type O Negative is perhaps my favorite metal band and I am happy to know that after 20 years of making music, these guys are still able to write possibly the best song of their entire career (the full version of 'September Sun,' released in 2007). Beyond that, I also feel that this song so powerfully and fearlessly conveys so many emotions that a person like myself can relate to.
It is common belief among men these days that it is 'strong' and 'masculine' to refuse to show any emotion, especially not any emotions related to pain and weakness. I believe that this notion is not only ridiculous, but also a sign of immaturity and weakness. It takes a truly brave person to address, express and handle his/her emotions; if one never expresses his/her pain, he/she will never be able to triumph over weakness and let that pain go. I wish more people understood this.
Death.
Cynic.
Atheist.
Spiral Architect.
Psycroptic.
Necrophagist.
Dethklok.
Anata.
Blasphemer.
Morbid Angel.
Wormed.
Human Mincer.
Schaliach.
Darkane.
Ebony Tears.
Kalmah.
Sympathy.
Nile.
Cryptopsy [except last album].
Miasma.
Winter Bestowed.
Black Metal -
Immortal.
Alcest.
Summoning.
Dissection.
Demonic Resurrection.
ColdWorld.
Ulver.
H.O.P.E.
Abusiveness.
Carpe Tenebrum.
Dimmu Borgir [except last album].
Cradle of Filth.
Bal-Sagoth.
Tvangeste.
Frost Like Ashes.
Wigrid.
Ancestral.
Endless Dismal Moan.
The Axis of Perdition.
Blut Aus Nord.
Lengsel.
Kataxu.
Darkthrone.
Burzum.
Blood Covenant.
Stormlord.
Emperor.
Vargsang.
Crimson Moonlight.
Sad Legend.
Akitsa.
Wolves in the Throne Room.
Day of Ascension.
Élan.
Arcturus.
Anti.
Opus Majestic.
Weakling.
Ashes.
Nazgûl.
Nazgul.
Eulogium.
Horrific Majesty.
Wedard.
Sorcier Des Glaces.
Mordecai.
Traumatic Voyage.
ChthoniC.
Unlord.
Sorrowstorm.
Naglfar.
Nagelfar.
Borknagar.
Power Metal -
Savatage.
Wintersun.
Iron Maiden.
Manilla Road.
Alkemyst.
Blind Guardian.
Metal Church.
Camlaan.
Edenbridge.
Nightwish.
Pagan's Mind.
X Japan.
Manowar.
Grailknights.
Powerglove.
Thrash Metal -
Megadeth.
Ares Kingdom.
Sodom.
Slayer.
Metallica [first four albums only].
Demolition Hammer.
Morbid Saint.
Destruction.
Kreator.
Master.
Testament.
Year of Desolation.
Stinky Left Pinky.
Fluffydoom.
Hirax.
Deströyer 666.
Pitiful Reign.
Gothic Metal -
Type O Negative.
Tristania.
Sirenia.
Within Temptation.
Leaves Eyes.
The Sins of Thy Beloved.
Epica.
Progressive Metal -
Dream Theater.
Trans Siberian Orchestra.
Symphony X.
Rush.
Anchorhead.
Fates Warning.
Queensrÿche.
Opeth.
Pain of Salvation.
Greg Rapaport.
Doom Metal -
My Dying Bride.
Novembers Doom.
My Silent Wake.
Esoteric.
Skepticism.
Catacombs.
Ahab.
Candlemass.
Eyes of Ligeia.
Docnargath.
Mournful Congregation.
Neo-Classical/Shred Metal -
Carina Alfie.
Michael Angelo Batio.
The Great Kat.
Bulb.
Apocalyptica.
Yngwie Malmsteen.
Speed Metal -
Carnivore.
Assault.
Kruiz.
Racer X.
Sludge/Stoner Metal -
Soundgarden.
Boris.
Isis.
Kyuss.
Sleep.
Metalcore -
Shadows Fall.
Afterimage.
Becoming the Archetype.
Batoche.
Yakuza.
ROCK
Folk Rock -
Gemma Hayes.Aimee Mann.Jeff Buckley.
Tim Buckley.
Just Desserts.
Starsailor.
Rufus Wainwright.
Julie Delpy.
Tori Amos.
Kate Bush.
Flogging Molly.
Hayden.
Indie Rock -
Uncle Tupelo.
Modest Mouse.
Joan As Police Woman.
Built to Spill.
The White Stripes.
Muse.
Alternative Rock -
Ours.
The Red Hot Chili Peppers.
The Smashing Pumpkins.
Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds.
PJ Harvey.
Stephen Trask.
The Dresden Dolls.
Nirvana.
The Velvet Underground.
R.E.M.
Rage Against the Machine.
Pearl Jam.
Blink-182 [self-titled album only].
Radiohead.
Post-Rock -
Sigur Rós.
My Bloody Valentine.
The Jesus and Mary Chain.
Hammock.
Immanu El.
Godspeed You! Black Emperor.
Boards of Canada.
Slowdive.
Gothic Rock -
The Cure.
HIM.
Lycia.
Her Blackened Rose.
Joy Division.
Bauhaus.
The Eternal Chapter.
Siouxsie & the Banshees.
Voltaire.
Progressive Rock -
The Mars Volta.
King Crimson.
Gentle Giant.
Yes.
Jethro Tull.
Pink Floyd.
King Crimson.
The Moody Blues.
Bjork.
Hard Rock -
The Black Mages.
Dir En Grey.
Meat Loaf.
Guns N' Roses.
Mudvayne.
Beautiful Creatures.
Queen.
Buckcherry.
Backyard Babies.
Daniel Lioneye.
Journey.
Meat Loaf.
Sugar Ray [first two albums only].
Neo-Classical/Shred Rock -
Steve Vai.
Joe Satriani.
Eric Johnson.
Paul Gilbert.
G3.
Post-Hardcore Rock -
At the Drive-In.
...And You Will Know Us By the Trail of Dead.
The Icarus Line.
Sparta.
Fugazi.
CLASSICAL/SCORE/SOUNDTRACK
Nobuo Uematsu.
Akira Yamaoka.
Joe Hisaishi.
Elliot Goldenthal.
John Williams.
Danny Elfman.
Koaru Wada.
Masaki Kurihara.
Mozart.
Yoshihisa Hirano.
Hideki Taniuchi.
Clint Mansell.
Howard Shore.
Shinkichi Mitsumune.
Noriko Matsueda.
Takahito Eguchi.
POP
Ayumi Hamasaki.
Utada Hikaru.
'Til Tuesday.
Enya.
Nelly Furtado [first two albums only].
Rie Fu.
Anna Nalick.
Do As Infinity.
Chaingin' My Life.
FOLK
Nick Drake.
Vàli.
Fejd.
Barbarian Pipe Band.
Tenhi.
Nest.
INDUSTRIAL
Mortiis.
Static-X [first album only].
Nine Inch Nails.
PIG.
KMFDM.
Aäkon Këëtrëh.
Amaka Hahina.
Old Forgotten Lands.
Moëvöt.
Elend.
Vond.
BLUES
Stevie Ray Vaughan.
Skip James.
B.B. King.
SOUL
Nina Simone.
Patti Labelle.
JAZZ
John Coltrane.
Miles Davis.
Movies
I've seen hundreds upon hundreds of movies, but only a select few truly capture what I consider 'greatness.' These 'Great Movies' all have a place in my heart and are, indeed, my all time favorites -
The Lord of the Rings Trilogy. The (original and unaltered) Star Wars Trilogy. Before Sunrise. Before Sunset. Kingpin. The Crow. Porco Rosso. Magnolia. Requiem For A Dream. Ghost World.
Other 'Near-Great Movies' that I really like a whole lot include -
Habit. May. Clerks. Princess Mononoke. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade. Gattaca. Airheads. The Princess Bride. Lost In Translation. Robin and Marian. Hedwig and the Angry Inch. Speed. Top Secret! Wall-E. Saw. The Gift. Dark City. Speed Racer. Aliens. Thirteen.
Television
ANIME.
InuYasha.Azumanga Daioh.Excel Saga.
Fruits Basket.
Death Note.
Elfen Lied.
Mahou Sensei Negima!
Golden Boy.
Full Moon Wo Sagashite.
The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya.
Higurashi no Naku Koro ni.
Sakura Diaries.
Lucky ? Star.
His & Her Circumstances.
Ghost Hunt.
Cowboy Bebop.
Mahoromatic: Automatic Maiden.
Bleach.
NON-ANIME
South Park.
Metalocalypse.
Home Movies.
Family Guy.
Batman: The Animated Series.
House.
My Name Is Earl.
The Wonder Years.
The Adventures of Pete and Pete.
VIDEO GAMES
Final Fantasy X.Final Fantasy X-2.Final Fantasy VIII.Final Fantasy IX.Road Rash 64.
Goldeneye 64.
Devil May Cry.
Tetris.
Books
I read through websites a lot and I like browsing magazines, but I don't really read books very often. I read at only an average speed and I'm not very good at picturing things in great detail in my mind. Still, I would like to begin reading more often and to expand my knowledge on various subjects.
Currently, I am reading 'Scar Tissue' by Anthony Kiedis and Larry Sloman; it is an autobiography of Kiedis, who has been the frontman of The Red Hot Chili Peppers since 1982 (save for one week in 1988, when he was kicked out of the band) and up until the present.
Out of the books I have already read, here are my favorites -
"Interview With the Vampire" by Anne Rice.
"The Vampire Lestat" by Anne Rice.
"The Odyssey" by Homer.
"Heavier Than Heaven: A Biography of Kurt Cobain" by Charles R. Cross.
Heroes
My Mom.
Chuck Schuldiner [R.I.P.] (Death).
Criss Oliva [R.I.P.] (Savatage).
Jon Oliva (Savatage, Trans Siberian Orchestra).
Peter Steele (Type O Negative, Carnivore).
Abbath (Immortal, I).
Jeff Buckley [R.I.P.].
Nick Drake [R.I.P.].
Aimee Mann.
Gemma Hayes.
Mitch Hedberg [R.I.P.].
Rodney Dangerfield [R.I.P.].
Phil Hartman [R.I.P.].
Patton Oswalt.
Eddie Guerrero.
Dr. Gregory House (House).
Butters Stotch (South Park).
Coach John McGuirk (Home Movies).
The Azumanga Girls (Azumanga Daioh).
Excel Excel (Excel Saga).
Tohru Honda (Fruits Basket).
Kintaro Oe (Golden Boy).
Porco Rosso (Porco Rosso).
Han Solo (Star Wars).
Randal Graves (Clerks).
Enid Coleslaw (Ghost World).
Samwise Gamgee (The Lord of the Rings).
WonderPat - in need of a fix called innocence's Details
Status:
Single
Orientation:
Straight
Body type:
6' 0" / Average
Ethnicity:
White / Caucasian
Zodiac Sign:
Pisces
Smoke / Drink:
No / No
Education:
Some college
WonderPat - in need of a fix called innocence's Schools
WonderPat - in need of a fix called innocence's Blurbs
About me:
Aimee Mann - Wise Up; from the official soundtrack to the film, 'Magnolia.'
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It's not
What you thought
When you first began it
You got
What you want
Now you can hardly stand it though,
By now you know
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
You're sure
There's a cure
And you have finally found it
You think
One drink
Will shrink you 'til you're underground
And living down
But it's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
Prepare a list of what you need
Before you sign away the deed
'Cause it's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
It's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
No, it's not going to stop
'Til you wise up
No, it's not going to stop
So just...give up
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I don't know how well I'm going to be able to describe myself in a few paragraphs, but I'll do my best. First and foremost, I acknowledge that I am far from a perfect person and that I will make mistakes. I also have a bit of a bipolar personality; when I'm with friends and we're just having fun, I'm mostly goofy, aloof, laid back, always cracking jokes and free-spirited. When I'm by myself or when I'm surrounded by strangers with secret faces, I'm often quiet, plaintive, reflective, nostalgic and sometimes deep in thought. This is not to say, however, that I can't be goofy and aloof when I'm by myself, too. Ultimately, I guess it depends on the situation and on what I'm doing.
To quote the Godfather of Death Metal, Chuck Schuldiner [R.I.P.], "I'm a lover of life and friendships...I'm an animal lover...[metalheads] are people, too!" [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0fSnXEtpb6s, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pZEo7zMAwlE] I find myself most drawn towards people who are outsiders and who've experienced so many of the struggles in life, but who've persevered and kept themselves from giving up or turning into a bad person. I guess it's because I can relate to those people the best. I'm not saying that my life has been any more or less difficult than anyone else's (and I know that I have a lot to be thankful for), but I can say for sure that I've felt the various kinds of pain that are just apart of the baggage one carries around in the airport of life. As much as I can, I like to reach out to like-minded people and show them that I care and to just be a friend. But, I know that due to the inherent selfishness and guardedness in all people (including myself), this is often more difficult than it sounds.
The reason I put the song 'Wise Up' by Aimee Mann at the top of my About Me is because I wanted to break the ice with everyone. I know that we all dig ourselves into so many holes and we're not going to get out of them until we wise up and start climbing out of them. And yeah, I know that it's hard...but it's the only way to break the cycle and move forward in life. I've had to wise up over many things, too; I still do, and I'll be doing it until the day I die. It's just a part of life (I hope I'm making some kind of sense and that I'm not sounding like a pretentious moron :p).
OMG, how did I miss your Happy Bathday/Birfday wish? You're the only one who wished me it. thank you. I celebrated it late by seeing a Tchaikovsky and Brahms symphony performance. Twas wonderful. And funderful. In fact, I need to go to more shows. Symphonies and theater performances, the like. The Orange County Performance art has the best shows. In fact, they're going to do the Nutcracker ballet show near Christmas, with the Russian Ballet. And....I saw Spamalot the day before, brilliance! Patsy stole my heart.
I'm alright. :) Just got home from one of my classes. I go back up to Columbus at 5:30 for Anatomy & Physiology. I'm sooo not looking forward to that. Wish me luck! So how are you?
She'll turn 17 on July 22. As long as the girl is post-pubescent she's okay lol. It's not my rule. It's nature's. Besides, only a gay man wouldn't be attracted to her. Hell, I'll even bet gay men wish they looked like her.
Hahaha. The gay fish pics are even better than the Varg one.
The Chase is easily my favorite action/comedy/romance. Come to think of it, it's the only action/comedy/romance I can think of. But it's one of my all-time favorite movies altogether.
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i think so, too- not to be conceited, but i do think is is a better one.