Fred Howell

About me:

Humble, figures I live in Humble, Texas currently. Last week I was on a mission trip and at the last gathering before we left, God cracked my shell and opened my heart to His understanding of my life and the decisions I am to make. in February of 2000 I wrote that song " we " well, it has been 9 long years of doubt and confusion, loss and heartache, financial distress and lonliness as well as depression. Im sure there is more but you get the point. I was letting the world and my fleshly troubles prevent me from doing the work God has put in my heart to do. I have nothing if not for God. I have nothing if not for Jesus Christ. I am nothing without the Holy Spirit within me. My eyes and heart were opened and I am living my goal. Which I have learned. I guess I always knew it, I just wanted someone else to do it for me. I guess, kinda like I felt I wasn't good enough to do it myself, but yet knowing I would be the only one who is able to, because for some odd reason, God put the words in "my" heart, not yours. So, basically I came to realize, that all this time, I was shunning Gods' desire for my life in feeling insufficient to do the task He put in my heart to do. Well, I refuse to be the one to let God down! He made me, and I have always known the reason, I just never believed I was good enough, because noone wanted me. Because I was never good enough for somoene to love, because I for some reason could never love myself because I could never find a woman who could love me! Well no more. God is the only true love I honestly need. He and He alone will provide the woman for my life. Not my insecurities. Anyhow, I think my point is made. I basically realized when He let me sing for this church full, that my heart was meant to serve. And it isn't for me, it is for His glory. He put that message and all the other messages in my heart so I would be His hands and feet. But if I am not speaking and singing the words He put there, then I am no more than being disobedient. May God open "your" eyes and heart today. As He truly opened mine. It matters not what I have in this world. But only what I do in this world that serves Him. God bless your heart today. sincerely, Fred L Howell