Basics
Name: Steph
Age: 19
Occupation: GameStop SGA
W h a t .Y o u. S e e
At first glance, I am a young woman who stands before you and seems like just another face that sits upon the top shelf. I am fairly small; standing at only 5'1" with only 112lbs to keep my feet on the ground, I can be easy to miss in a crow. I'm told that my eyes seem so unique, alluring some even say, with their warm amber color that fades to a gray. So many emotions swirl within these eyes...Passion, sorrow, desire, longing, understanding, tenderness, stress, anger, love...At least, that is what I'm told. But this is only the outside. What is seen when one first looks at me.
W h a t .I. A m
While I smile and laugh, I am not preppy or energetic and while my tastes lean more towards the darker themes, I am not depressed. I am the quiet one among the group. More times than none, I speak very little though I do not fear to speak my opinion. I have an abstract, philosophical- yet realistic- mind. Often expecting the worse to happen but hoping for the best, I dub myself 'the optimistic pessimist'. I strive for peace and balance, generally settling disputes with logic and words over physical action. Though I am not afraid to get rough if it is in defense of a friend. I would do anything for a friend, gladly walking along side them in their darkest of hours to offer whatever comfort and advice I can give. I am told that I'm wise beyond my years and mature; though I only use my own experiences to relate to others in need in hopes of helping them. Due to this, I am told that I can accomplish great things. One friend told me I was a guardian; another said I was a fallen angel, though I do not see it; but again, I'm told that I'm not suppose to see it...
What I see is a young woman searching for her niche in the world. I do not walk alone; I have my boyfriend and my dearest of friends as support, though there is still a lot I have yet to uncover about myself. As of right now, I stand with only a high school diploma as I try to decide which path I want to follow career wise. I'm torn between my love for art with wanting to major in writing; wanting to perhaps one day publish a novel or create scripts for games or film- maybe even doing some independent work. Or do I follow my curiosity of the human mind and emotions to major in psychology; continuing to help those who feel lost; to better understand why we think the way we do. Or do I do both...?
E x p r e s s i o n
I am very imaginative; I spend a lot of time daydreaming. I am a large supporter of the arts, and often encourages others to embrace their desire to express themselves through a form of art. My main outlet to express myself is through writing. (Normally I write something that is a mixture of horror, suspense, and drama with character development and vibrant imagery being the main focuses.) As a child before I knew how to write, I would draw out pictures that told a story; in a way, creating a verbal comic. My love to create stories and develop characters grew deeper as she grew. Each character tends to carry a view or characteristic of myself or is inspired by a friend.
As of March, I began to learn to play the cello. After having seen the Finnish "cello metal" band, Apocalyptica, live, I grew to love the instrument for the more she listened to it, the more it seemed to speak for my inner self. The low, deep tones seemed to soothe me, making me feel the need play the instrument in order to release some lingering thoughts and emotions. Currently, I play on a standard, student maple cello with a fiberglass bow but have plans to invest in a better cello by the end of the year.
T i m e .K i l l e r
If I am not at work, I am mainly hovering around at home for the desire to be out in public is something I rarely feel. I like spending time with her closest friends, often engaging in a game with them. I own many systems with a wide variety of games; my favorites normally being survival horror games. Generally, any game with a rich plot and notable characters satisfy me.
I am a fan of horror and anything that can make the mind thing. While reading is something I hardly do, I have no problems with settling down with something written by Edgar Allen Poe, H.P. Lovecraft, Stephen King, George Orwell, or Philip K. Dick. Though I also enjoy Max Brooks' zombie books. My taste in movies is not much different- unless you count my strange liking for foreign or independent films- with some of notable favorites being: The Haunting, The Mist, A Scanner Darkly, We are the Strange (independent), Vidoq (French), Pan's Labyrinth, The Orphanage, Session 9, and the Matrix films. Rarely do I watch TV, but I do enjoy some anime (such as Evangelion, Ergo Proxy, Paranoia Agent, Death Note, Broken Saints, Ghost in the Shell, and Shin-Chan). Though I am a fan of the Big Bang Theory and Ghost Adventures...Everything else is mainly just background noise if I turn the TV on.
When it comes to music, I enjoy hard rock to melodic metal. Anything with the use of classical instruments mixed with the fast, furious pace of rock can become an almost instant favorite of mine. A few favorite bands include: Apocalyptica, In Flames, Staind, Dream Theater, Three Days Grace, Perfect Circle, Opeth, Seether, and Chevelle. To me, music is a way to express my thoughts and emotions without speaking myself.
M o r e .t h a n. Y o u .C a r e.
She has a great need to be part of a group. She likes to mix with people and looks for partnerships. She likes and respects justice. She approves of society's values. She is level-headed and assimilates quickly.
Weaknesses: does not think enough, she is frivolous. A dilettante in love. She is easily swayed by group pressure.
Sweetness itself. Convinced of their ideas and strong-willed. She is foresighted and willful. She knows how to trust. She appreciates all the good things in Life. She likes and protects Nature.
Weaknesses: excesses in pleasure, laziness, sensuality, thoughtlessness.
With big ideas, she evaluates and weighs things up. Of good judgement, she expresses herself clearly. Before coming to an opinion on a subject, she listens to the opinions offered by various people and can compare them before making up her own mind.
Weaknesses: she is happy-go-lucky and phlegmatic. The spouse can be unfaithful. Partnerships are unprofitable.
Open-heartedness, devotion, generosity, charity, altruism. She likes foreigners or she can find love abroad. Has problems with the family or with the society in which she lives. She looks for affection, love far from the family circle or from the native country.
Weaknesses: she loves adventure and risk, and the unforeseen is always to be expected.
Aggression is quite simply repressed. She stores up the setbacks without letting it show, but too much can be difficult to support. Appreciates the Arts, beauty.
Weaknesses: she is quick to criticize the society in which she lives. She likes to please and plays on the affection of others.
Peaceful, calm nature. Fertile imagination. Likes home life and material comforts. A good cook, because she is relatively greedy and takes pleasure in conjuring up little things that are good to eat.
Weakness: She likes to eat too much, likes own home and comfort too much and has the tendency to be a stay-at-home, going out without any pleasure because home is always best.
She is scrupulous, honest, correct, worthy and respectable.
Weaknesses: melancholy, sullenness, disappointment and bitterness.
A great battler. She has so much power, that one thinks nothing can defeat her. Her mission in society, in the world means everything to her.
She is discerning, wise and sensible.
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