Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Awareness Moody as heck Thanks to my friends who are supporting me in this VERY difficult time of "My Jimmy's" & MJ's death. I WILL NOT GIVE UP THO!{NEW BLOG/BULLLETIN} view more
First, I AM NOT JOSH GROBAN!I love him and his music has gotten me through many challenging times. His music was there for me when no-one and nothing else was. Josh Groban (and Eva Cassidy's) music is a big part of how I stayed alive. Sometimes all I had to live for and look forward to, on any given day. When I met Josh, I said to him, Josh, Thank you for helping to save my life. He did, and still does. Thank You Josh Groban &hearts
My name is Joanne and I am a survivor of mental, emotional, physical and sexual abuse. Incest starting from a VERY young age. Several rapes, the last of which, I was drugged and date raped in 2000. I have been disabled and unable to work since and my self esteem has plummeted, I struggle with that every day. I have also survived domestic violence (broken ribs and liver in 2005).Which led me directly and indirectly to being homeless in January 2007.
I have Complex PTSD, virtually since birth as I was born from my father raping my mother. They divorced when I was 1 1/2 years old. I then lived with my mom, brother and sister, and grandparents. Sadly, all bitter and abusive in their own ways (R.I.P. Mom, I Love You.) At the age of 12 my mother gave me away to my father (who I didn't know at all). I immediately became his "raggedy ann" punching doll, and was raped by him repeatedly (just about every day) until I was 17 and went out on my own after my brother and sister didn't want me either. (They still don't) To the best I can guess, they don't believe PTSD is real and I'm just the "crazy, irresponsible" one in the family who, of course should just "get over it" and pull up my bootstraps".
I also suffer from severe chemical Depression and in addition have been diagnosed with DDNOS (Dissociative Disorders Not Otherwise Specified) in other words D.I.D.(Dissociative Identity Disorder , formerly called MPD, Multiple personality Disorder) only to a lesser degree than a definitive diagnosis of D.I.D. Oh yeah, and I'm ADD too which is a whole other story in itself. (Try getting treated for ADD when you have PTSD, it's "contraindicated") I also have Agoraphobia and Panic Disorder.That's just the beginning of the traumas and diagnoses I've been through.
As you might imagine all of this set me up as the perfect target for a pattern of attracting and dating narcissists and psychopaths for decades to come. I have done much research on this subject and will post as I can.
Well, this is the first I've tried writing "my story" in any detail, and this is just for starters. It's very vulnerable to tell. But hey we all have to speak out to stop the abuse!!!!!!! All I have ever REALLY wanted to do since I was a kid, was to use my experiences to help others.
My first profile here &hearts Joanne &hearts originally started with me advocating for my friends the Crowell family for PTSD and Companion Animals. "Crowell Family Needs A Miracle" ended up in the news, and was a long, difficult journey. Myspace was so very helpful. Thank You.
Who am I? We are the righteousness of Christ. A brand new creation in
Him. Praise God for eternal life in Jesus. blessings, pj.........have a
great Friday.
This is what Michael would want you to do, listen to what he is saying and look at that beautiful face and you can't help but smile. He was a beautiful man in side and out and did not like to see people suffering. SOoooooooooooo,GET UP OFF THAT FLOOR AND DANCE DANCE DANCE. lol Love you sweetie Maggie
Thank you for your friendship...I hope you enjoy your day my dear,just a lay of sunhine made my day.My sweet friend i hope your doing good sending a big worm hug xoxoPlease need your help by take a moment look at the rainforests campaign masterminded or clik on the link then sign up at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z1Y8iOnIqHk ,website on http://www.rainforestSOS.org by texting SOS and their email address to 60777*.thank you for the help.God bless.Prince William....
GOODNIGHT ANGELS ON YOUR PILLOW AND MAY JESUS COVER YOU WITH A BLANKET OF HIS LOVE IF YOUR HURTING MAY HE HEAL YOUR PAIN WHAT EVER YOU ASK FOR HE WILL HEAR YOU GOD IS GOOD IN ALL THINGS IAM PRAYING FOR YOU SWEETDREAMS
Joanne you are always on my mind and in my heart!!! Hope you are having a great week.Did you see the MJ blog I posted? I loved his heart all of my life!!! My heart and gut just aches for the pain he endured. Praise GOD no one can hurt him anymore! I know what it feels like to be an adult and still have to pay very close attention to the child inside. To know when to take a break and and give the 5yr old in me a hug and let her know I love the little girl in me! I have come a LONG way and the wounds are real, I have had to learn what works best for me! I would have held the MJ child in my arms and rocked him! You are always in my heart and in my prayers!!!! Love you sweetie! You teach me a lot! And you comfort me without even knowing it, and I am grateful to have you as my friend. Leila
Thank you for being here for me. You are such a profound blessing in so many ways. I hope you know that every minute of every day. You ARE loved too, Hugssss ~Peggy~
Have had a busy 3 days off. It really didn't feel like I had any time off.
Tuesday we went to see if we could get access, while we still work we heard of a "Right to work access" so that took a few hours then Lionel had therapy from his car accident, then went home to rest as I had been up all night working.
Next day we went to Lionel's doctors for his psych. meds
and that took all day like 8 hours, then we went to his therapy.
Today I stayed home and cooked, made some fried chicken with mashed potatoes and corn, then I baked a brown sugar cake with cream cheese frosting all from scratch and it was delicious. I also cleaned the fish tank, (it needed it) and cleaned the house in fact I woke up and began cleaning while still in my night gown feeling guilty about not getting anything done these past couple of days, I am beat and have just now decided to go on the Internet to relax, phew what a day!
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