stabbing myself full of holes, and wondering why i still can't feel anything
pillpopping
shoulders& backs
notes
hallway kisses
car theft
tragic endings
love letters
supremacy
satanic divinity
intimacy
vasoline hands
twilight
PVC// vinyl
tattered blue jeans
fluorescent colours
whispers
fishnets
jumping on my bed
sleeping in my underwear
flirting
when bright eyes finds ways to depress me even more & when all the words float around my empty room, and freeze over.
wishing death on worthless liars & beauty queens
makeovers
bedroom dancing
when people play with my hair
pilates// yoga
boys in girls jeans
being your girl in no jeans
when everyone tries to be oblivious of me
graveyards, tombstones & inscriptions of anonymous names
the way ______ and drugs simultaneously make me numb
photoshoots
playgrounds, swings, slides & rubber tires
the smell of gasoline
gumming cocaine
cold toilet seats
being a little risque
relapse
bandaids
MIDNIGHT PROWLS
bad habits
falling asleep while counting my imperfections
swanky lipstick
mini skirts
polka dots
preconceptions
PICKING
needles
insomnia
picking my scabs
flawless senses of style
twenty dollar bills
kicking the shit out of people
being a sucker for anything acoustic
shadows
friday nights
MILLING AND SCROUNGING
new haircuts
sunburns
desperate desires
ugly clothes
gay boys SHFT+1: aaron, philis, joey& conner
unadmirable plans
tongues tasting of vodka, & malicious intent
hair that smells like cigarettes
kisses in empty fields & under trees
singing with lavonne, &_ unraveled beauty
tina& adam
snow pictures
when the sky bleeds dark onto the leaves
when people cry
being dizzy
porcelain dolls
faking smiles
green mascara
bite marks on my neck
lust
SCRATCHING& BITING
viral critics
esoterics
heartache
waking up in someone elses bed
waking up in someone elses head
broken mirrors
ALiCE
♥
cellophane
cigarettes& ecstasy
ink
ignorance
pill parties
karma
parasitics
photoshop
pharmaceuticals
redundancy
philosophy
DDR
MY FRIENDS;
Music
NINE INCH NAILS
CONTROLLER CONTROLLER
JAKALOPE
BAUHAUS
CEX
ATB
FIELDS OF THE NEPHILIM
JOY DIVISION
REGINA SPEKTOR
CHRISTIAN DEATH
NEO CORTEX
BRAND NEW
SIOUSXIE AND THE BANSHEES
PLACEBO
BRIGHT EYES
NOCTIS INVOCAT
CROPMENT
THE PIXIES
ELVIS
DEAD CAN DANCE
DJ LUSION
DAVID BOWIE
LACRIMOSA
LADYTRON
LONDON AFTER MIDNIGHT
ORIGINAL 3
DEPECHE MODE
FAITH AND THE MUSE
THE BEATLES
GOETHES ERBEN
LEFTOVER CRACK
THE FAINT
CLAN OF XYMOX
DIRTY SANCHEZ
THE CURE
LOVE LIKE BLOOD
TWO WITCHES
MORS SYPHILITICA
L'AME IMMORTELLE
SNAKE RIVER CONSPIRACY
HOLE
FREEZEPOP
ENANITOS VERDES
UMBRA ET IMAGO
LESBIANS ON ECSTASY
BABASONICOS
FUNKER VOGT
SANGUIS ET CINIS
DELERIUM
ALASKA Y LOS PEGAMOIDES
MARILYN MANSON
CORPUS DELECTI
MY RUIN
WUMPSCUT
THE SPOOKY KIDS
DIVA DESTRUCTION
JULIETA VENEGAS
SCARLING
JACK OFF JILL
FEAR CULT
SPICE GIRLS
VITAM Y MORTEM
JEFFERSON AIRPLANE
APOPTYGMA BERZERK
PLANTA CADAVER
BLACK TAPE FOR A BLUE GIRL
DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE
NEGRO ESCARLATA
SISTERS OF MERCY
COFFIN FOR MARY
FERTIL MISERIA
ANI DIFRANCO
RADIOHEAD
POSGUERRA
MINISTRY
BJORK
MARTIR
PORTISHEAD
LYCIA
AGGELOS
TEGAN AND SARA
ACE OF BASE
ZEROMANCER
SARGATANA
ROTTING CHRIST
SKINNY PUPPY
AGHAST
BLUTENGEL
OPETH
LOS RESTOS
DIAMANDA GALAS
ULVER
THE DRESDEN DOLLS
EXORDIUM
A FIRE INSIDE
LE TIGRE
IRA
DIE VERBANNTEN KINDER EVAS
FROM AUTUMN TO ASHES
NAZCA
ISENGARD
RAZED IN BLACK
KHABALA
IBLISH
DANSE MACABRE
TERRACE OF MEMORIES
MORTIIS
NO RAZA
THERION
THE PSYCHEDELIC FURS
MSI
SOMETHING CORPORATE
SATYRICON
ACERO
AMBER ASYLUM
DRACUL
DEXTERAM
GIRLS UNDER GLASS
THEATRE OF TRAGEDY
TERRA SUR
INKUBUS SUKKUBUS
TIAMAT
LA CRUZADA
BELLA MORTE
UNTOTEN
NAZIR
DIARY OF DREAMS
SERAPHIM SHOCK
NEBIROS
JENNIFER LOPEZ
MALICE MIZER
GACKT
VENDEMMIAN
FUTHARK
THE JESUS AND MARY CHAIN
RASPUTINA
ODRADECK
THE SINS OF THY BELOVED
CORVUS CORAX
NENIA
ALMA
KMFDM
DEAD POETIC
ATHANATOR
GARBAGE
SMILE EMPTY SOUL
ETNOCIDIO
STEVIE NIX
CYNDI LAUPER
AQUA
MYSTERIIS
ANDRACULOID
P!NK
MICHELLE BRANCH
CHRISTINA AGUILERA
ORGY
PROFECIA
VANITY 6
STRAYLIGHT RUN
NEON LIPSTICK
TRACY AND THE PLASTICS
BSB
GROOVE COVERAGE
MISSY ELLIOT
MY LIFE WITH THE THRILL KILL KULT
VNV NATION
VERUCA SALT
BRITNEY SPEARS
PAUL VAN DYK
THE DOORS
THE CHINESE STARS
THE MARS VOLTA
ICON OF COIL
MADONNA
PSYCLON NINE
CHICKS ON SPEED
EMINEM
DJ GUMBEE
FUNKER VOGT
HOCICO
IMPERATIVE REACTION
CREPITATION
TATU
FEMME FATALITY
METRIC
DEATH IN JUNE
GOD MODULE
HAGALAZ RUNEDANCE
DJ TIESTO
CUNT HAMMER
CAUSE & EFFECT
SCISSOR SISTERS
MEPHISTO WALTZ
ANATHEMA
NO COMDON WHATEVER
DEATH FROM ABOVE 1979
QUEEN ADREENA
OTYG
LE SHOK
Movies
LOST AND DELIRIOUS
CRAZY/ BEAUTIFUL
SAVED!
HURT
THE WHITE OLEANDER
JAWBREAKER
ALMOST FAMOUS
CHERISH
MATILDA
SPUN
THE RULES OF ATTRACTION
CRUEL INTENTIONS
GARDEN STATE
MARIA LLENA DE GRACIA
NATURAL BORN KILLERS
28 DAYS LATER
TEKNOLUST
DONNIE DARKO
THE VIRGIN SUICIDES
CARRIE
GIRL INTERRUPTED
ALICE IN WONDERLAND
GIA
MAY
SPICE WORLD
SAW
DAZED AND CONFUSED
LOST IN TRANSLATION
FIGHT CLUB
HOW TO DEAL
TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE
REQUIEM FOR A DREAM
HOUSE OF A THOUSAND CORPSES
AMORES PERROS
SUICIDE CLUB
THE CRAFT
BLOOD
THE WEDDING SINGER
A CLOCKWORK ORANGE
PARTY MONSTER
Television
BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER
FAMILY GUY
CANADIAN/ AMERICAN IDOL
THE SIMPSONS
MY SO-CALLED LIFE
AMERICAS NEXT TOP MODEL
ROSEANNE
THE TYRA BANKS SHOW
SAILOR MOON
FRESH PRINCE
WILL& GRACE
RADIO FREE ROSCOE
INSTANT STAR
DARIA
GILMORE GIRLS
AMBUSH MAKEOVER
WHAT I LIKE ABOUT YOU
DEXTOR'S LABORATORY
SOUTH PARK
Books
Jorge Luis Borges
J.R.R Tolkien
Albert Camus
Herman Hesse
Edgar Allan Poe
Brams Stocker
Sheridan Le Fanu
Federico Nietzsche
Anne Rice
H.P Lovecraft
Emil Cioran
Milan Kundera
Constantine Gregory
Eliphas Levy
Heroes
MY BAND:
REPTILE;
deniz was the only person that made me feel something other than being dead.
she carved her name into my skin, and wiped the lipstick from my teeth.
and her coming and going somehow helped this whole mess of a world make sense;
Rock and roll saved my soul like the rolling stone that bob dylan owned. When we left the house, the kids were covered in purple haze and their eyes were large. Through the barn and out the window, the cow jumped over the moon.
my god it has been a long time I was looking through those pictures from sarahs not to long ago also wondering what you might be up to but since im almost never online i never got the chance to message you and see whats been new and might I say you look quite beautiful yourself and not alot has been up with me how about yourself whas new and exciting? and i agree we really should chill soon.
Hey you, do you know how many cigarette butts i picked off of my carpet? I TOLD YOU NOT TO ASH ON MY PLATE, THAT DOESNT MEAN YOU CAN ASH ON THE FLOOR!! okay im done.