I am impermanence. I am everything and I am nothing. Who I am in this moment, is not who I will be a year, a month, a day, or ten minutes from now. I am ever changing.
Before writing this I asked myself, "How do I define myself? How do I explain who I am to another person?" I had trouble answering. Then laying in bed I realized. I don't define myself, I lack definition. Having a solid, unchanging definition of who I am can hold me back from becoming who I will be.
In this moment I am philosophical. But several hours ago I was laughing at Pinky & The Brain. *shrug*
Things I have enjoyed:
- An iced soy latte.
- Spring in Connecticut.
- Winter in Boulder.
- Converse-style sneaks & fun flip flops.
- Kissing.
- Morrissey.
- Day dreaming of kissing Morrissey.
- Singing in my car like I'm on tour.
- Veggie Sushi, especially avocado rolls.
- Feeling free to act like a complete goofball and possibly embarrass myself.
- Reading until I lose track of time.
- Cupcakes. Especially cute ones.
- Laughing to myself when I receive the "28 & single" pity look.
- Brat Pack Movies and most things 80's.
- Finding happiness in "the small things"
- My glasses.
- Memories of playing hacky sack at 4am.
- Forgiving and letting go.
- Fresh sourdough bread.
- The Girls Next Door & other equally trashy reality/celeb shows.
- People that can make me laugh.
- Learning new things.
- Acting "unlady-like" on occasion.
- Good hugs.
- When I remember to enjoy everything I do.
- Listening to music.
- Reading about buddhism and Eastern Religions.
- A day of lounging around in jammies.
- Traveling. Seeing new places, meeting new people. (Or maybe familiar places and familiar people.)
- Friends.
- Driving with the windows down.
- That I painted polka-dots on my bedroom walls.
- Appreciating imperfection.
- Bowling, Mini-Golf, Bingo, and other nerdy fun stuff.
- Knowing I have an entire lifetime ahead of me.
- Rapping the Fresh Prince theme song.
- Giving without expectation of getting.
- Taking photos.
- Being Vegan.
- Happily explaining what veganism is for the 10th time this week.
- A good burrito.
- Laughing until I lose my breath.
- Knowing that being an adult doesn't mean giving up "childish" fun.
- Watching Sex and the City and day dreaming of living in NYC someday.
- Having a good beer, Margarita or Martini occasionally.
- Writing lists of things I enjoy and knowing its ok that it doesn't completely explain who I am.
I moved back to Bakersfield after being away for 6+ years. I lived in Boulder, CO and then in Connecticut. I lived all over the state when I was there. I miss Connecticut a whole bunch! It's a drastic difference from Bakersfield to say the least.
As FABULOUS as Bakersfield is, I think I want to try another new place. My first choice is NYC, then Seattle following a close second, with Portland, OR pulling up in third place! NYC's a bit expensive. Seattle I think would be just right for me, BUT Portland holds some of my best vegan friends and an awesome community. It all depends on what will be the best situation when it's time to go I suppose!
If you would like ANY information on Veganism, Vegetarianism, Factory Farming, Meat/Eggs/Dairy and your Heath, Enviormental Impacts of Factory Farming, or Animal Rights in general PLEASE CONTACT ME! I promise I wont bite, and I can give you lots of helpful links. :)
GO VEGAN! For Animals, For You, and For Our Planet!
